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Softly I walk down the stairs, scared to wake anyone up. If someone hears me, everything will be for nothing. I’ve been looking forward to this night for I don’t know how long. I can’t mess it up now.

My  heart is pounding in my head, when  I unlock the front door. Why does everything have to make such noise if you’re trying to be quiet? Finally I hear a soft click, which tells me the front door is unlocked. I grab my coat and open the door.
The ice cold wind hits my face when I take a step outside the house. I shiver and put on my coat, when I suddenly hear a soft giggle.
“Quite cold, isn’t it?” My heart skips a beat the moment I hear Vivian’s voice, and right away a smile appears on my face.
“Well, warm is something different yeah,” I reply, while I walk to Vivian. “How long have you been waiting here?”
“Hm, for about five minutes, but it was worth it.”  Vivian smiles, and as soon as I’m close enough, he pushes his lips against mine. The moment I feel his soft lips on mine, I start to feel all warm inside. I missed Vivian in the days I didn’t see him.
Vivian opens his mouth a bit, and I feel his tongue licking my lips. Slowly I open my mouth too, and his tongue finds mine. For a few minutes our tongues play a game, but then I break the kiss.
“It’s better that we go somewhere else, in case I woke someone up.” Vivian nods,
“Maybe that’s indeed the best idea.”

“I missed you,” Vivian whispers softly in my ear, while he starts to kiss my neck. I giggle a bit. The warm morning sun warms my face, we’ve been lying here in the park for hours now, but time is going way too fast.
“Hey, Theon, what time is it exactly?” I grab my cellphone out of my pocket and look at the time.
“Fuck! It’s already 8 o’ clock, I really have to go home!” I yell, causing some early visitors of the park to look at us.
“I’ll bring you home,” Vivian says, and we both get up. As fast as we can, we walk to my house. I still hope my parents aren’t awake yet, but probably they already found out that I wasn’t home this night. When we reach my front door, we stand still for a moment.
“Well, good luck,” Vivian whispers, while he presses his lips on mine again. I close my eyes and enjoy the moment his tongue finds mine. Suddenly the front door opens.
“What is going on here?” When I hear the angry voice of my dad, I push Vivian away. Scared I look up to my dad who is standing on the doorstep. His eyes are filled with anger, and aversion when he sees Vivian. “Theon McInsane! You get inside the house this very moment!” My dad yells at me. I know how he can react when I don’t do what he tells me, so I take a last look at Vivian.
“Sorry,” I whisper, and I step into the house.

A few minutes later my dad slams the front door, and with heavy footsteps I can hear him walk towards the living room.
“So, he won’t bother us again,” He says with a cold voice. I try my best to keep my tears inside, but my voice is still trembling when I start to talk.
“What did you tell him?” Quick I wipe away a few tears I couldn’t hold inside, before I look at my dad. His eyes are still filled with anger.
“I told him you never want to see him again, and that if I ever see him again here, he won’t survive.” When he says that, something snaps in my head.
“Why did you tell him I never want to see him again? I do want to see him again! I love him, dad! Can’t you see?” I shouldn’t have said that, I should’ve known that talking like this makes my dad really angry. But at this moment I don’t care, all I want is to be with Vivian, with or without my dad’s permission.
“You what?” My dad yells, “He’s a guy, you can’t love him!” Before I realize what he’s doing, I’m getting hit in the face. “And now go to your room! I don’t want to see you again until you’ve changed your mind.”

With a sigh I lie down on my bed. Why does my had have to act so stupid? Can’t he see that I love Vivian? Who cares I’m not the son he wanted, that I disappointed him with everything, after repeating it for a thousand times, I know already. But it won’t change my mind. So why does he keep trying? I’m getting quite sick of it.

I close my eyes, and hope to catch some sleep. But it doesn’t work, the image of Vivian keeps appearing in my mind. What if he thought my dad was serious, what if I never see him again?
Tears start to roll down my cheeks when I think about it. Why can’t I just live my own life? My dad always expected me to be things he wanted me to be. He never let me listen to the music I wanted, I didn’t have any friends ‘cause I had to study all the time. And now he takes Vivian away from me too. If this is how it’s going to be my whole life, I’d rather be dead.
With that thought in my mind I walk to the bathroom.
“There must be razors somewhere.” I whisper, while I’m searching for the razors in the bathroom. I get frustrated when I can’t find them anywhere. And I get even more angry when I see myself in the mirror.
“Don’t stare at me like that!” I yell at the person staring back at me from the mirror. “I hate you!” And with those words I hit the mirror. But I didn’t expect it would cause the mirror to fall down. With a loud crash the mirror shatters in a lot of pieces, suddenly I see many more people stare back at me. Only now from little pieces. “What the hell,” I say, thinking a piece of the mirror will be just as sharp as a razor. I grab the first piece I see, and look at my reflection in it.
“Well, bye bye Theon.” And I cut my wrist.
Pain goes through my arm, when I cut open the flesh. Suddenly I realize what I’m doing. What if I just explained the situation to Vivian? Maybe everything would’ve been allright. I start to panick and grab the nearest towel I can find, and try to stop the bleeding with it. But it’s already too late, at the moment I hear someone opening the bathroom door, everything fades to black and I fall down.

“Theon? Can you hear me?” When I open my eyes, I look into two worried green eyes.
“Vivian,” I whisper, “I must be dead and landed in heaven, ‘cause you’re here.” Vivian smiles.
“Luckily you aren’t, you’re still alive, and I’m happy you’re alive. You were nearly dead, what possesed your mind to do something like that?” The smile on Vivian’s face fades, and his expression gets more serious. Ashamed I look at something else, the room I’m lying in. Definetly a hospital room, I think while I’m still searching for the right words to answer Vivian.
“I couldn’t take it anymore. I thought I was never going to see you again, so I rather wanted to die, than living with the fact I could never see you again. And my mind couldn’t take that. I want to be together with you, forever, or I don’t want to live again.” I start to blush a bit, and look around the room again, while Vivian is quiet for a second.
“Never see me again? You think I was scared of your dad? Ofcourse I still would’ve seen you, no matter what. I love you, Theon. And I’ll do everything I can to get you out of that house, so we can be together.” I smile when I hear Vivian say that, getting out of that house seems like a relief to me. After a few seconds the rest of the sentence Vivian said goes through my  mind again. And a smile appears on my face.
“I love you too, Vivian. Forever.”

Description
Softly I walk down the stairs, scared to wake anyone up. If someone hears me, everything will be for nothing. I’ve been looking forward to this night for I don’t know how long. I can’t mess it up now.

My  heart is pounding in my head, when  I unlock the front door. Why does everything have to make such noise if you’re trying to be quiet? Finally I hear a soft click, which tells me the front door is unlocked. I grab my coat and open the door.
The ice cold wind hits my face when I take a step outside the house. I shiver and put on my coat, when I suddenly hear a soft giggle.
“Quite cold, isn’t it?” My heart skips a beat the moment I hear Vivian’s voice, and right away a smile appears on my face.
“Well, warm is something different yeah,” I reply, while I walk to Vivian. “How long have you been waiting here?”
“Hm, for about five minutes, but it was worth it.”  Vivian smiles, and as soon as I’m close enough, he pushes his lips against mine. The moment I feel his soft lips on mine, I start to feel all warm inside. I missed Vivian in the days I didn’t see him.
Vivian opens his mouth a bit, and I feel his tongue licking my lips. Slowly I open my mouth too, and his tongue finds mine. For a few minutes our tongues play a game, but then I break the kiss.
“It’s better that we go somewhere else, in case I woke someone up.” Vivian nods,
“Maybe that’s indeed the best idea.”

“I missed you,” Vivian whispers softly in my ear, while he starts to kiss my neck. I giggle a bit. The warm morning sun warms my face, we’ve been lying here in the park for hours now, but time is going way too fast.
“Hey, Theon, what time is it exactly?” I grab my cellphone out of my pocket and look at the time.
“Fuck! It’s already 8 o’ clock, I really have to go home!” I yell, causing some early visitors of the park to look at us.
“I’ll bring you home,” Vivian says, and we both get up. As fast as we can, we walk to my house. I still hope my parents aren’t awake yet, but probably they already found out that I wasn’t home this night. When we reach my front door, we stand still for a moment.
“Well, good luck,” Vivian whispers, while he presses his lips on mine again. I close my eyes and enjoy the moment his tongue finds mine. Suddenly the front door opens.
“What is going on here?” When I hear the angry voice of my dad, I push Vivian away. Scared I look up to my dad who is standing on the doorstep. His eyes are filled with anger, and aversion when he sees Vivian. “Theon McInsane! You get inside the house this very moment!” My dad yells at me. I know how he can react when I don’t do what he tells me, so I take a last look at Vivian.
“Sorry,” I whisper, and I step into the house.

A few minutes later my dad slams the front door, and with heavy footsteps I can hear him walk towards the living room.
“So, he won’t bother us again,” He says with a cold voice. I try my best to keep my tears inside, but my voice is still trembling when I start to talk.
“What did you tell him?” Quick I wipe away a few tears I couldn’t hold inside, before I look at my dad. His eyes are still filled with anger.
“I told him you never want to see him again, and that if I ever see him again here, he won’t survive.” When he says that, something snaps in my head.
“Why did you tell him I never want to see him again? I do want to see him again! I love him, dad! Can’t you see?” I shouldn’t have said that, I should’ve known that talking like this makes my dad really angry. But at this moment I don’t care, all I want is to be with Vivian, with or without my dad’s permission.
“You what?” My dad yells, “He’s a guy, you can’t love him!” Before I realize what he’s doing, I’m getting hit in the face. “And now go to your room! I don’t want to see you again until you’ve changed your mind.”

With a sigh I lie down on my bed. Why does my had have to act so stupid? Can’t he see that I love Vivian? Who cares I’m not the son he wanted, that I disappointed him with everything, after repeating it for a thousand times, I know already. But it won’t change my mind. So why does he keep trying? I’m getting quite sick of it.

I close my eyes, and hope to catch some sleep. But it doesn’t work, the image of Vivian keeps appearing in my mind. What if he thought my dad was serious, what if I never see him again?
Tears start to roll down my cheeks when I think about it. Why can’t I just live my own life? My dad always expected me to be things he wanted me to be. He never let me listen to the music I wanted, I didn’t have any friends ‘cause I had to study all the time. And now he takes Vivian away from me too. If this is how it’s going to be my whole life, I’d rather be dead.
With that thought in my mind I walk to the bathroom.
“There must be razors somewhere.” I whisper, while I’m searching for the razors in the bathroom. I get frustrated when I can’t find them anywhere. And I get even more angry when I see myself in the mirror.
“Don’t stare at me like that!” I yell at the person staring back at me from the mirror. “I hate you!” And with those words I hit the mirror. But I didn’t expect it would cause the mirror to fall down. With a loud crash the mirror shatters in a lot of pieces, suddenly I see many more people stare back at me. Only now from little pieces. “What the hell,” I say, thinking a piece of the mirror will be just as sharp as a razor. I grab the first piece I see, and look at my reflection in it.
“Well, bye bye Theon.” And I cut my wrist.
Pain goes through my arm, when I cut open the flesh. Suddenly I realize what I’m doing. What if I just explained the situation to Vivian? Maybe everything would’ve been allright. I start to panick and grab the nearest towel I can find, and try to stop the bleeding with it. But it’s already too late, at the moment I hear someone opening the bathroom door, everything fades to black and I fall down.

“Theon? Can you hear me?” When I open my eyes, I look into two worried green eyes.
“Vivian,” I whisper, “I must be dead and landed in heaven, ‘cause you’re here.” Vivian smiles.
“Luckily you aren’t, you’re still alive, and I’m happy you’re alive. You were nearly dead, what possesed your mind to do something like that?” The smile on Vivian’s face fades, and his expression gets more serious. Ashamed I look at something else, the room I’m lying in. Definetly a hospital room, I think while I’m still searching for the right words to answer Vivian.
“I couldn’t take it anymore. I thought I was never going to see you again, so I rather wanted to die, than living with the fact I could never see you again. And my mind couldn’t take that. I want to be together with you, forever, or I don’t want to live again.” I start to blush a bit, and look around the room again, while Vivian is quiet for a second.
“Never see me again? You think I was scared of your dad? Ofcourse I still would’ve seen you, no matter what. I love you, Theon. And I’ll do everything I can to get you out of that house, so we can be together.” I smile when I hear Vivian say that, getting out of that house seems like a relief to me. After a few seconds the rest of the sentence Vivian said goes through my  mind again. And a smile appears on my face.
“I love you too, Vivian. Forever.”