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Welcome Out of Depression
Published: 2013-11-05 00:09:05 +0000 UTC; Views: 20457; Favourites: 1160; Downloads: 0
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This is a follow-up comic to the one I did a year ago, that was featured on buzzfeed.I had a really rough week last week. I didn’t want to get out of bed or go to class or even eat. But I think I’ll be okay now.
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The original post on my tumblr.
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Very beautiful comic and message! Congratulations!
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When she had the love package in her hand at first I thought it was candy and I was like "Yes, candy does solve everything.
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It's a great message you expressed brilliantly in this comic page.
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So true. I can only say "thank you" to my high school theatre program, because that was the only thing, I think, that had the power to pull me out of that place.
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This is so beautiful... *cries*
Big shout out to Stephanie, even though I don't know you, I know what it's like to feel hollow. Don't give up:
Always know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, a dawn after every dusk, and love to overcome doubt.
Life is a battle, and everyone has to fight it at least once in their lives, but they understand and conquer fears that once suppressed them afterwards, we become a wiser, better person.
I hope you eventually find that light.
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You're fine as the way you are, keep fighting and loving. You are not alone.
be happy~
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I'm still part of the battle, every day is tough on me.
I wouldn't mind but the bullies aren't your typical teenager, they are your typical adult and that's hard to deal with as adults know of more successful and meaningful ways to make you feel bad about yourself...
I won't give into to their torment and torture but I don't think I'm going to win anytime soon either.
My army consists of myself and myself alone... if only they knew acceptance is the sole key for me to break away from my hollow shell
Hope Stephanie has a better time with her depression, she has a good friend in you and that sometimes is all it takes
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When I was going through my worst times, I had a job at a computer store. One day I went into work and just the pressure of being there and having to talk to people got too much for me. I sat down in the middle of the shop floor and had a compleat melt down. I couldn't move, I couldn't talk, I just wept on the shop floor. The people I worked with said all sorts of things (I can't really blame them. They had no idea what was happening) But after I peeled myself off the floor and started to leave, the security guard said something to me I'll never forget. He said "If you break your leg, you go get it fixed. If you damage an organ, you go get it fixed. Your brain is INFINATLY more complicated than any of that, yet when something goes wrong in their we're supposed to suffer alone. You'll be alright eventually lass, don't worry"
It took years of medication and struggling, but that one moment of kindness stayed with me. He was right, I did manage to beat it eventually. And now I tell everyone that seems to be struggling what I went through. We need to talk to each other about depression and mental illness. We need to stop treating it like a dirty little secret. Most importantly people need to know you CAN beat it, you CAN get better. Because when you're in your blackest places you feel like that's going to be you forever. Its not. You'll be alright eventually
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That sounds so sadly familiar 
What really helped me back then was the realization that if someone does not love me like I am then they are not my real friends. I learned to love myself and to be a little selfish (in a healthy way). I started to want things and insisted things for myself. My self-esteem rose much and I grew more powerful even if I still was very shy with new people and 'adults'. At this point I was an adult too, I just didn't felt like it.
Nowadays I don't act like I used to think that adults should act, but still feel like one and I feel very free, powerful and independent. I want to create art and so I'm doing, I want to have own family and that's what we're planning. It have been a long road to travel but finally I feel whole and strong, I feel that I am doing right and that I am the master of my life.
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Unfortunately, while will to recover is not unimportant, for most clinical depression cases, lack of self-love is just a symptom of a physical/chemical problem either in the brain or at the cellular level that cannot be fixed by willpower alone. There are people out there who can force their brains to rewire in such a way as to help fix or compensate for the problem over years and years with behavior therapy, but about half will need medication to treat the underlying physical condition. For instance, clinical depression shows up on brain activity scans and atrophies the hippocampus. For another instance, my family and I have hereditary mood problems (among other more physical issues that vary from person to person) due to a mitochondrial defect that doesn't allow our cells to metabolize oxygen and produce certain neurotransmitters as efficiently as most people. I was so deficient in serotonin that I could feel the difference within 2-3 days of starting SSRIs. That's almost 10 times faster than the doctors expected. No amount of behavioral therapy could fix that by itself. All my family members who do take medication say they feel so much better, and the ones who continue to refuse treatment really could use it, both for their sanity and for that of the people around them.
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I'm on medication, and have come to accept the fact that I'll be on it for the rest of my life. But it works for me, and I am living a normal life after years of struggling. Everyone needs to find what works for them, and you sound like you've done that. Keep on keeping on.... and watching Mythbusters, cos they rock!
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My doctor originally wanted to take me off as I grew up, but I literally stopped sleeping about 2-3 days after he scheduled me to quit the one time he made that attempt. I took that incident, factored in that my mom was on the same medication for very similar reasons, added in the family history, and when I put it all together, I figured in all likelihood the medication would be part of me for the rest of my life. Especially since I had a somewhat traumatic incident at age 20 and must now be on a slightly higher dose to cope with the physical residuals. And I'm very much OK with that. It only cements what I already figured: I could not have lived in any era before this one, and I should probably never have kids.
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I am feeling the same thing right now. since half a year ago i have these panic attacks and i want to hide or vanish, feel ory for everything, but i still didn't get the streght to fight or to accept the things and people I love. I hope I'll manage it too like you and will find a way to win. Thanks for the words and pictures. They give me the hope, that I too will make it someday.
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Can relate a lot to this feeling. I hate the question what I wanna do with my life, with my studies or well... everything. Two years ago I travelled to California in February to get my head free. That was at a time when I finished school and started to study at university but didn't feel in the right place. My parents suddenly weren't helping me any longer. I thought I could count on them anytime. My mum kept asking me questions like "Well dear, do you now have an idea what you are going to do for the next ten years?" every single day. I nearly went insane. I spent most of my life making people happy, taking care of them, doing everything what they wanted from me: teachers, friends, parents. I worked hard to get good marks, I ditched free-time and tried to ignore my feelings until night falls cause that's the time you lie in bed and suddenly have time to think. I felt a lot better after the month in California. didn't really wanted to go back. After months of struggle I felt loved, home and welcome, accepted for who I am. Well.. I somehow managed to get into studying and feel good with it. I have no idea how i can use it later and I have no idea were I'll be in ten years and I don't mind. I study and I'm finding myself in slow steps. You can't force someone to know who he/she is from one day to another.
I'm sorry that drawing just opened so many feels and my head xD" I got a little carried away.
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There is so much pressure to "figure out what you're doing with your life" and everyone seems to have it all worked out but you. I'm in Uni now and it seems like everyone else in class is doing so much better than me. No matter how hard I try. You're method seems perfect. Just concentrate on now and what ever happens happens. You can make plans for 5, 10, 15 years down the line but where you'll REALLY be, you never know. Just go with whats happening now and the future will take care of its self
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Up until a couple months ago I was having regular panic attacks, constant anxiety, and suicidal tenancies/ideations. I had just been put on a bunch of medication for schizoaffective disorder, it stopped the hallucinations but nothing helped the anxiety and self hate. Eventually I came to a moment where I had to decide to either end everything or pick myself up and see things out. Glad I decided to pick myself up, I was able to find a purpose in life and move forward. Even if that purpose is just art and I might never be that good at it, it's the possibilities and idea that I could be good at it if I worked hard enough that motivates me. I really like the comic, and I'm glad you're in a better place even though there's still some rough moments.
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I'm always fascinated to see how others have been hit with it, and eventually overcome it.
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Been there. Still working on getting out, but mostly am now.
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Well, here's a start for you. 
Not sure if you remember, but a few years ago, I was still struggling to figure out what I wanted to do with my life and my art. You were holding livestream sessions where you talked to your viewers and critiqued their work, and I went to a few.
They really helped me figure out what I wanted to do, and your support made me feel better about myself in a time when my self-esteem was at an all time low.
So even if it takes a lot of bandages, go seek some out. 
-Rachel
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You wrote that? I have that bookmarked!
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Yeah, I did! I was really surprised when they featured it on Buzzfeed - I didn't even know about it until a few days later.
But I'm really glad it helped you, or at least stood out to you.
I was in a dark place, but I wanted other people to get something good out of it.
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Sorry to hear that. Keep Living and doing your best. If you need to talk my inbox is always open.
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Thanks a lot. I'm doing much better now.
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Keep up the good work
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