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Draco let out a sigh as he got off the train with Luna and into the heavy rain, she was walking beside him.

She hated to admit it but, she was becoming quite fearful of Draco lately, ever since Draco had overheard the argument between Sirius and Snape he had been different, something had inside him had changed.

He was having violent mood swings and outbursts of rage.

One moment he was terrified of something, the next he was angry whether it be over something not important or something someone said, or if someone disturbed him when he wanted to be alone, and the next he was very hateful against himself or feeling like everything was his fault, that he had done something wrong.

Not only was his mind unstable, but he wasn't talking to anyone. Luna felt so helpless, she hadn't felt this horrible since her father had died.

She missed seeing him smile, she missed his affection and kindness towards her, she wanted to help him but he wouldn't let anyone in.

After the fight, Nymphadora had volunteered to watch Draco and let her stay with her and that she would help him if he needed help.

Lupin reluctantly agreed to help her with the situations if he were to transform, even though he and Tonks weren't a couple anymore he knew that she would need help dealing with a situation like that so he only agreed to help her when that time came.

Professor Snape was still in going to be in Hogwarts for two more weeks before he was leaving once again.

The potions professor was rather distraught upon hearing form Dumbledore that Draco refused to take potions with Snape because he was to angry and afraid of him. Draco had evidently told the headmaster that he reminded Draco of his father and that he wanted nothing to do with him.

Snape's heart had wrenched painfully upon hearing those words that he knew were possibly true.

So Dumbledore had arranged for the young Malfoy to take private lessons in potions from Professor Slughorn, instead of being with Snape.

Luna just couldn't figure out what was bothering Draco, she knew that he was scared that was evident.

But she didn't know why he was so angry with everyone, including her. There had been times where Draco had yelled at her, telling her to leave him alone. That she was no better than everyone else, this greatly confused Luna she didn't understand what Draco meant.

He would insult her but he wouldn't call her too severe names, and never once had he hit her so she kept coming back to him, as long as he didn't become physical she would still come back that she promised herself, because she knew he didn't mean his hurtful words her or Tonks, who would get annoyed and defensive if Draco insulted her.

But it was clear as day he didn't mean a word he said to them because he would always sulk after saying the harsh insults for a while before coming back to them with tears in his eyes, and in a hysterical mess and apologize, saying that he was sorry and that he didn't mean it.

Every time it happened he would always come back, Luna could count one time that he never apologized to them.

Luna and Draco grabbed what they had brought with them over the holidays and they started to walk silently to the castle. Neither of them said a word to each other, she didn't know if she should disturb him because he was thinking with an angry look on his face.

They entered the castle and were offered a towel by Lupin when they passed him.

Luna smiled and kindly took it from him and looked at Draco as he was offered one too he was drenched his short silver blond hair sticking to the sides of his face and dripping with cold water from the rain.

Draco looked at Lupin with blank expression then it turned into an angry sneer and he looked Lupin in the eyes.

"Oh for the bloody love of Merlin! Bother someone else you stupid arse. I don't need your help! I don't need anything from you! What I want is to be alone, like I was meant to be." Draco snarled and got ready to walk off when Lupin grabbed his wrist and turned him around.

"Miss Lovegood. Go take your thins to your dorm...I want to have a word with mister Malfoy." Lupin said his voice filled with hints anger.

Luna nodded before taking another glance at Draco and leaving, carrying her stuff with her.

Lupin watched her leave and then turned back to Draco.

"Now you listen to me, we have been trying to help you. I understand you are angry, you feel betrayed, I know how that feels. Let us help you." Lupin said in a low voice.

Draco glared at Lupin and pulled out his wand and put it to his throat. "No you don't know how I feel! Don't think I won't think twice about attacking a teacher, I don't give a damn about the rules anymore. Merlin, I don't give a damn what happens to me. I don't care if I get detentions or expelled. At least I'll be away from everyone in this wretched school, away from you, away from Snape and away from Potter and his stupid friends. I'd rather be hit by the killing curse than stay here for another couple years. I'd rather have my father beat me to death than stay here any longer!"

Draco stopped to look at Lupin with hate mixed with anger.

"What's the point in living when you have no life to enjoy. Only a life that scares you and makes you feel like a helpless, weak coward and then at another time makes you feel like its your fault that people around you get hurt! Your fault for what you are. Your fault that you lost everything you could ever dream of having and then going to the poor miserable reality of the life without power! Your fault that your father hates you! Your fault that you'll never make your father proud. Never live up to your dreams or expectations! Tell me you rugged man! Tell me why I should care anymore! Why should I live in fear and anger? Why do I have to live with everybody's pathetic sympathy and pity! Why am I looked down on like dirt like everyone? TELL ME WHY THIS HAPPENED TO ME! TELL ME NOW! TELL ME WHAT IN MERLIN'S NAME I DID WRONG TO DESERVE THIS SORT OF WRETCHED LIFE OF AN ANIMAL!"

By the end of his speech he had tears threatening to fall but he pushed them back, to prove that he was not anymore the weak little wolf boy who wasn't capable of anything other than needing the sympathy and help from others who 'pretended' to care about him.

Lupin was silent he honestly didn't know Draco was this messed up in the head. "TELL ME!" Draco yelled as he pushed his wand into Lupin's throat.

"Draco...you did nothing wrong, what happened was Roman Pyres' doing. Not your own. I do know how you feel, I felt the same way when I first was turned into a werewolf. It's common for people to feel guilt after a situation like such you have gone through. But I have never heard of someone having such a severe reaction as you appear to have towards it...your past hasn't helped the matters any...the reason you feel so angry, is more than likely because you've shut out anyone who tries to help. The only person you would let in is people close to you, such as Luna, Nymphadora, Sirius and-" Remus was cut off when Draco's gray blue eyes flared with fury.

"Don't you DARE say his name! Or Merlin help me, I will hurt you! He is not close to me! He doesn't deserve my trust! He doesn't have the right to love me anymore! After what he has done! I could care less if he were hit by the killing curse!" Draco yelled as one tear finely slipped from his left eye.

Lupin glared at him and grabbed Draco by the front of his robes.

"How dare you say that! Severus has done so much for you! He loves you! Can you not see that he feels terrible! You arrogant, little prat!" Lupin snarled before dropping Draco on the ground harshly and pointing down the hallway. "Go to the Slytherin dormitories, you have detention with me tomorrow night and then the next three weeks."

Draco glared at Lupin and raised his wand. "Diffindo!"

Lupin cried out as his arm was badly cut near the forearm, he looked at Draco with an angered look.

"You're anger is going to far Draco. You need help...you cannot control yourself. You can't control your emotions to a point where it over comes you and you're doing things that you know are wrong. And I as one who also cares about you do not want to see you locked up in Azkaban if you do something you will regret for the rest of your life." Lupin said earning another glare from Draco.

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Draco let out a sigh as he got off the train with Luna and into the heavy rain, she was walking beside him.

She hated to admit it but, she was becoming quite fearful of Draco lately, ever since Draco had overheard the argument between Sirius and Snape he had been different, something had inside him had changed.

He was having violent mood swings and outbursts of rage.

One moment he was terrified of something, the next he was angry whether it be over something not important or something someone said, or if someone disturbed him when he wanted to be alone, and the next he was very hateful against himself or feeling like everything was his fault, that he had done something wrong.

Not only was his mind unstable, but he wasn't talking to anyone. Luna felt so helpless, she hadn't felt this horrible since her father had died.

She missed seeing him smile, she missed his affection and kindness towards her, she wanted to help him but he wouldn't let anyone in.

After the fight, Nymphadora had volunteered to watch Draco and let her stay with her and that she would help him if he needed help.

Lupin reluctantly agreed to help her with the situations if he were to transform, even though he and Tonks weren't a couple anymore he knew that she would need help dealing with a situation like that so he only agreed to help her when that time came.

Professor Snape was still in going to be in Hogwarts for two more weeks before he was leaving once again.

The potions professor was rather distraught upon hearing form Dumbledore that Draco refused to take potions with Snape because he was to angry and afraid of him. Draco had evidently told the headmaster that he reminded Draco of his father and that he wanted nothing to do with him.

Snape's heart had wrenched painfully upon hearing those words that he knew were possibly true.

So Dumbledore had arranged for the young Malfoy to take private lessons in potions from Professor Slughorn, instead of being with Snape.

Luna just couldn't figure out what was bothering Draco, she knew that he was scared that was evident.

But she didn't know why he was so angry with everyone, including her. There had been times where Draco had yelled at her, telling her to leave him alone. That she was no better than everyone else, this greatly confused Luna she didn't understand what Draco meant.

He would insult her but he wouldn't call her too severe names, and never once had he hit her so she kept coming back to him, as long as he didn't become physical she would still come back that she promised herself, because she knew he didn't mean his hurtful words her or Tonks, who would get annoyed and defensive if Draco insulted her.

But it was clear as day he didn't mean a word he said to them because he would always sulk after saying the harsh insults for a while before coming back to them with tears in his eyes, and in a hysterical mess and apologize, saying that he was sorry and that he didn't mean it.

Every time it happened he would always come back, Luna could count one time that he never apologized to them.

Luna and Draco grabbed what they had brought with them over the holidays and they started to walk silently to the castle. Neither of them said a word to each other, she didn't know if she should disturb him because he was thinking with an angry look on his face.

They entered the castle and were offered a towel by Lupin when they passed him.

Luna smiled and kindly took it from him and looked at Draco as he was offered one too he was drenched his short silver blond hair sticking to the sides of his face and dripping with cold water from the rain.

Draco looked at Lupin with blank expression then it turned into an angry sneer and he looked Lupin in the eyes.

"Oh for the bloody love of Merlin! Bother someone else you stupid arse. I don't need your help! I don't need anything from you! What I want is to be alone, like I was meant to be." Draco snarled and got ready to walk off when Lupin grabbed his wrist and turned him around.

"Miss Lovegood. Go take your thins to your dorm...I want to have a word with mister Malfoy." Lupin said his voice filled with hints anger.

Luna nodded before taking another glance at Draco and leaving, carrying her stuff with her.

Lupin watched her leave and then turned back to Draco.

"Now you listen to me, we have been trying to help you. I understand you are angry, you feel betrayed, I know how that feels. Let us help you." Lupin said in a low voice.

Draco glared at Lupin and pulled out his wand and put it to his throat. "No you don't know how I feel! Don't think I won't think twice about attacking a teacher, I don't give a damn about the rules anymore. Merlin, I don't give a damn what happens to me. I don't care if I get detentions or expelled. At least I'll be away from everyone in this wretched school, away from you, away from Snape and away from Potter and his stupid friends. I'd rather be hit by the killing curse than stay here for another couple years. I'd rather have my father beat me to death than stay here any longer!"

Draco stopped to look at Lupin with hate mixed with anger.

"What's the point in living when you have no life to enjoy. Only a life that scares you and makes you feel like a helpless, weak coward and then at another time makes you feel like its your fault that people around you get hurt! Your fault for what you are. Your fault that you lost everything you could ever dream of having and then going to the poor miserable reality of the life without power! Your fault that your father hates you! Your fault that you'll never make your father proud. Never live up to your dreams or expectations! Tell me you rugged man! Tell me why I should care anymore! Why should I live in fear and anger? Why do I have to live with everybody's pathetic sympathy and pity! Why am I looked down on like dirt like everyone? TELL ME WHY THIS HAPPENED TO ME! TELL ME NOW! TELL ME WHAT IN MERLIN'S NAME I DID WRONG TO DESERVE THIS SORT OF WRETCHED LIFE OF AN ANIMAL!"

By the end of his speech he had tears threatening to fall but he pushed them back, to prove that he was not anymore the weak little wolf boy who wasn't capable of anything other than needing the sympathy and help from others who 'pretended' to care about him.

Lupin was silent he honestly didn't know Draco was this messed up in the head. "TELL ME!" Draco yelled as he pushed his wand into Lupin's throat.

"Draco...you did nothing wrong, what happened was Roman Pyres' doing. Not your own. I do know how you feel, I felt the same way when I first was turned into a werewolf. It's common for people to feel guilt after a situation like such you have gone through. But I have never heard of someone having such a severe reaction as you appear to have towards it...your past hasn't helped the matters any...the reason you feel so angry, is more than likely because you've shut out anyone who tries to help. The only person you would let in is people close to you, such as Luna, Nymphadora, Sirius and-" Remus was cut off when Draco's gray blue eyes flared with fury.

"Don't you DARE say his name! Or Merlin help me, I will hurt you! He is not close to me! He doesn't deserve my trust! He doesn't have the right to love me anymore! After what he has done! I could care less if he were hit by the killing curse!" Draco yelled as one tear finely slipped from his left eye.

Lupin glared at him and grabbed Draco by the front of his robes.

"How dare you say that! Severus has done so much for you! He loves you! Can you not see that he feels terrible! You arrogant, little prat!" Lupin snarled before dropping Draco on the ground harshly and pointing down the hallway. "Go to the Slytherin dormitories, you have detention with me tomorrow night and then the next three weeks."

Draco glared at Lupin and raised his wand. "Diffindo!"

Lupin cried out as his arm was badly cut near the forearm, he looked at Draco with an angered look.

"You're anger is going to far Draco. You need help...you cannot control yourself. You can't control your emotions to a point where it over comes you and you're doing things that you know are wrong. And I as one who also cares about you do not want to see you locked up in Azkaban if you do something you will regret for the rest of your life." Lupin said earning another glare from Draco.