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Published: 2016-04-25 18:58:19 +0000 UTC; Views: 3670; Favourites: 257; Downloads: 0
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Description I didn't want to work so long on this.. But I eventually did... and I still don't know how to feel about it... Β 
It changed a lot overtime. And since I need to work on those commissions, I decided to just... stop... *sigh

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Comments: 73

paintausea In reply to ??? [2016-07-18 13:45:29 +0000 UTC]

Thank you, Snowball..! Great to have you back...

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hyungshi [2016-06-20 22:51:00 +0000 UTC]

I really really like this,it'd make a great poster

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paintausea In reply to hyungshi [2016-07-01 01:10:56 +0000 UTC]

If I had the courage and the money to do so--Β 
I would send it to you t..
But I already had promised you that other piece as well--
but I ended up changing it --
and now I feel it is no good anymore..

I am too useless to do these things anyways...

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hyungshi In reply to paintausea [2016-07-09 00:51:01 +0000 UTC]

it's okay I'm not saying it to pressure you into sending anything rather I just want you to see you're not useless and your art work means a lot to me

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paintausea In reply to hyungshi [2016-08-04 23:13:42 +0000 UTC]

Thank you.. I am happy you haven't forgotten..

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hyungshi In reply to paintausea [2016-08-07 09:43:02 +0000 UTC]

I'll always wind up back here someway...I won't forget

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paintausea In reply to hyungshi [2016-10-11 22:11:38 +0000 UTC]

Thank you, hyungshi...
The time we shared will always be in my heart.. I won't forget as well..

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hyungshi In reply to paintausea [2016-11-18 00:02:33 +0000 UTC]

Do you still think of the time we had...

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paintausea In reply to hyungshi [2017-02-06 12:33:03 +0000 UTC]

Yes...

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hyungshi In reply to paintausea [2017-03-11 21:49:32 +0000 UTC]

What does it make you feel? How much do you remember...

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paintausea In reply to hyungshi [2017-03-14 11:37:34 +0000 UTC]

A distant dream.. Long gone..Β 
But one filled with a bit of peace and fun..

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hyungshi In reply to paintausea [2017-11-20 13:26:33 +0000 UTC]

I wish I could remember what was real

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paintausea In reply to hyungshi [2017-12-21 13:35:53 +0000 UTC]

If you can dare to believe in it, perhaps it will be in your heart

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AstralShard [2016-05-14 07:37:05 +0000 UTC]

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paintausea In reply to AstralShard [2016-05-27 20:02:22 +0000 UTC]

Thank you..
I hope you are okay..
I am happy you are back..

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Cerecin [2016-05-10 18:28:47 +0000 UTC]

"The way you make me feel... I've been dead for a long time. You make me feel alive again." An admission of affection.

I like it. Even if you stopped before you wanted to, it's very charming.

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shimriya [2016-05-08 19:47:39 +0000 UTC]

Yes, I feel like that sometimes.Β  Totally love this one.
If nothing painful happens, there is also no growth.

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paintausea In reply to shimriya [2016-05-27 20:04:06 +0000 UTC]

Thank you, Sister..

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shimriya In reply to paintausea [2016-06-17 07:10:20 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome.Β  <3

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PaeinsPanorama [2016-05-02 13:13:43 +0000 UTC]

Rasen wird drΓΌber wachsen.
Β Ist etwas, das ich mich frage.

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paintausea In reply to PaeinsPanorama [2016-05-02 13:30:39 +0000 UTC]

Bestimmt... bestimmt...

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Melancholita [2016-05-01 17:04:41 +0000 UTC]

Pure beauty, this one is certainly very unique and has a stunning emotional impact!

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paintausea In reply to Melancholita [2016-05-02 13:31:17 +0000 UTC]

That is so sweet of you to say... Thank you! (:

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fruitloopswag [2016-05-01 02:19:02 +0000 UTC]

when I saw this I was found speechless I love your work

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paintausea In reply to fruitloopswag [2016-05-02 13:31:47 +0000 UTC]

That makes me so happy to hear.. (:
Thank you!!Β 

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tnyadtorboopnmi [2016-04-30 16:47:13 +0000 UTC]

WOW Wow wow, I'm enthralled by the colours in this! The severed head and red streaks of spilled blood, and the new-growth tree and pure cotton-white flowers and blossoms paint a very strong contrast between life and death. And yet, at the same time, all those details bring these two extremes together like the ying and yang they always will be.

The glowiness of the plants and water compared with the blackness of night reminds me very strongly of the Pandoran forests at night in the Avatar movie, which is very interesting because the growth of the tree from this spent body makes me think of how the Na'vi laid their deceased to rest at the foot of the Tree of Souls so their souls would be transported to the afterlife to be one with Eywa. Interesting how one of the human characters to die here was called Grace. Are you sliding in some kind of cryptic reference...? XD

Anyway, back on planet Earth, this also makes me think of how salmon swim from the Pacific back up their rivers of birth to the source, to reproduce again. All through that momentus journey they completely exert themselves ultimately to their own oblivion, but it's so they can create new life out of their own demise. But even if those salmon don't make it to their final goal before they shuffle off their mortal coils, the decaying corpses of the dead leak still fresh and vital nutrients into the water, down the river, and seeping through the soil of the river beds to create those vast forests that throng these vital lifelines in a land which may as well be as sterile as a hospital. The trees, the bears, the birds, the foxes - they're all here thanks to the salmon's greatest sacrifice. They trade their own lives to give life to these lands.

Hence the severed head and spent look in her eyes; to me, at least, she looks satisfied - maybe even quietly elated - that all the trauma and hardships she has had to endure up until this violent final cataclysm, has met with the bittersweet ending that a new consciousness has arisen out of her ashes almost to pick up where she has left off... maybe absorbing all her thoughts, knowledge and wisdom to carry on the frightful but exhilirating path of discovery, both of this new self and of whatever terrifying, clawed and toothed creatures and objects lay out there in their own bedazzling splendor of mystery. A never-ending quest for nirvana in all this entity's infinite incarnations. Who knows just how vast the vault of wisdom would be if we could unlock this catacomb of preserved consciousness.

And so is it our duty, collectively as human beings, to absorb and remember the terrors of the past, to act out our lessons in the present so we can paint a future as rich as this. There may be death and darkness in this picture; but there is also the yearning seed of a new beginning and the glowing foundations of a brighter future.

This painting is complete. That's how I feel about it.

Sterling work, Miss Grace!

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paintausea In reply to tnyadtorboopnmi [2016-05-02 13:38:26 +0000 UTC]

Thank you sooo much!
This was very nice to read...
It filled me with a little hope and inspiration.
To see the different perspectives of views from my dear friends on here regarding my paintings always makes me quiver a bit more with a little more strength..Β 
The lack of words I have-- and instead paint, are always filled in the comment section by everyone here... (:
It makes me so happy to read them.
Thank you, again!

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tnyadtorboopnmi In reply to paintausea [2016-05-02 16:58:03 +0000 UTC]

Gaaaahhh reading this makes me wanna hug and pet your icon!!!

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paintausea In reply to tnyadtorboopnmi [2016-10-21 12:12:44 +0000 UTC]

Haha so adorable..

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aDapperGent [2016-04-28 17:14:39 +0000 UTC]

I said it before, and I have no problem saying it again. Your work is so great.

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paintausea In reply to aDapperGent [2016-04-28 18:10:23 +0000 UTC]

I always, always appreciate it..! Thank you so much! β™₯

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aDapperGent In reply to paintausea [2016-04-28 20:48:02 +0000 UTC]

Your welcome! πŸ’

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InkPotion [2016-04-27 02:42:11 +0000 UTC]

So beautiful and calming, I really love this work β™₯

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paintausea In reply to InkPotion [2016-04-28 15:54:45 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much! (:Β Β β™₯

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InkPotion In reply to paintausea [2016-04-29 07:12:44 +0000 UTC]

no problem!

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Baratus [2016-04-27 01:47:19 +0000 UTC]

Headlessness always viscerally disturbed me in a weird way.Β 
It never hurts, or makes me feel sick, but for some reason I end up with this oddly distant feeling, sorta like Im losing touch with my emotions, and for some reason end up imagining the same decapitation event happening to the people around me, and just feeling really empty.Β 

I guess for some reason, I just start wondering what I'd do if it randomly happened to people I knew. My imagination never seems to apply it to people I dislike, just the ones I'd actually feel hurt by, if they were to die, especially like that, in front of me.



On another note, Im reminded of another artist's work.. I cant recall where I saw it though.. I just remember I didnt like their art because of the tone they set..Β 
I felt like they were advertising it was okay for the abuse in their pictures, and it made me feel inwardly hostile. The textures reminded me of how they draw, thats all, I dont mean anything bad by it.

Anyway back on topic..
I guess it sort of tugs at the feeling of helplessness I get, when I cant do anything for another person. Im not sure how that has anything to do with decapitation, or.. the look in the head's eyes, or anything. But some how it seems that my emotions and mind associate this with being powerless to aid some one else, watching them accrue either physical or emotional damage, and just.. realizing I cant do anything, for some reason or other.
Maybe its because you probably cant save the life of a person who has been decapitated. So it signals the same feeling as when something bad has already happened, you cant really make something un-happen, so to speak. It cant usually be undone. Thus the same sense of helplessness and powerlessness. I could no more save their life by putting their head back on, even if I figured out how to, than I can undo the emotional pain they felt.

So I guess in short, Im reminded Im not a miracle worker, just really good at not being harmed myself. But being unbreakable, doesnt exactly help some one else to not be broken, and so, my dilemma is that I can take punishment and be relatively unscathed, but I can, in no way, give that to some one else, and have to watch them pay, unable to do anything to help.
Ah sor-
err..
...I wrote lots of stuff.
...... and cant figure out how to finish what I was saying without apologizing.....

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aDapperGent In reply to Baratus [2016-04-28 17:13:56 +0000 UTC]

Headlessness used to turn me on...

Until I saw some ISIS pictures...

And saw some of our favourite artists work...

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paintausea In reply to Baratus [2016-04-28 16:17:44 +0000 UTC]

You don't have to apologize, dear..
It was really interesting to see how you felt about it..Β 
It does come with a feeling Β of helplessness doesn't it?Β 
A ripped off arm, leg or maybe some other part, still leaves the opportunity open to act.Β 
It may just be because it is really like a final last wound..Β 
How many people can you save.. how many you can't..
In the end it, I think what really matters is how hard you tried and how determined you were to do so..Β 
The end results aren't always what counts...

Thank you so much for sharing.. (: β™₯
-huggles-Β 

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ukindis [2016-04-26 10:58:33 +0000 UTC]

That's awesome. Β I always thought it'd be cool to be a tree because I could just not do anything. Β Just sit there and watch the world change around me. Β Sounds chill to me.

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paintausea In reply to ukindis [2016-04-26 13:35:09 +0000 UTC]

Hahaha... That does sound very chill! I would like that too for a while..
Thank you!

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Bernkastela [2016-04-26 01:41:55 +0000 UTC]

This piece feels very soothing... Although, there is a slight edge to it, especially when for some reason from far away it looks like there are people in the forest and some of the plants sort of look like arms to me... But perhaps that's just me being paranoid. OTL Still a very lovely piece nonetheless!Β 

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paintausea In reply to Bernkastela [2016-04-26 13:34:15 +0000 UTC]

I am glad that the piece remained to have it's soothing side...Β 
I accidentally added in the tags that it was some kind of forest, which it wasn't ;;; oops!
They are actually supposed to be these kinds of... pond like water plant thingies...Β 
So maybe that's why you perceived them as arms...Β 

Thank you so much though (: β™₯!

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Bernkastela In reply to paintausea [2016-04-30 03:04:50 +0000 UTC]

Oh, I see! either way it is very lovely! Pond plants are very pretty, I would always try to pick some when I was younger but I would always get stuck in the mud eheh;;;

You're so very welcome, hun~! <3

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paintausea In reply to Bernkastela [2016-04-30 12:48:53 +0000 UTC]

Haha that's adorable..! I can imagine the little version of you clumbsily trying to pick them~ eee cute!

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Vladimir32 [2016-04-25 23:34:29 +0000 UTC]

Absolutely stunning and stirring work, as always! The juxtaposition of the serenity of the environment and the violence of what has taken place there is quite striking. However, I am intrigued at how the graphic nature of the scene is not without a certain graceful, beautiful quality. I also get quite a strong sense of loneliness from this piece.

In a more technical regard, the contrast of colours and your use of blues are both marvellous.

On a side note, this piece actually reminds me of a bit of local folklore from my home state. They say that after Roger Williams (our state founder) died and was buried, an apple tree took root in his grave and grew out of his chest while drawing nourishment from his body.

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paintausea In reply to Vladimir32 [2016-04-26 13:22:53 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much for that beautiful description..
It makes me feel more at peace with my drawing..

That is a beautiful, gorgeous folklore!Β 
How did it come to be?

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Vladimir32 In reply to paintausea [2016-04-26 14:38:47 +0000 UTC]

Of course! I'm happy to know I could help.

With regard to the folklore, all we really know for sure is that in 1860, the Historical Society here dug up his grave with the intent to move him to a more proper burial site (colonial graves were not known for being carefully laid). However, upon doing so, they discovered a root from a nearby apple tree wrapped around his skeleton and emerging from his chest cavity.

Whether the tree actually grew out of him or was already there and just grew into the grave by chance is something lost to history at this point, but people here like to believe the stories

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Exekiella [2016-04-25 22:02:57 +0000 UTC]

I'd love my dead body to become a tree or a flower bush actually.

Or at least a food provider for them...

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paintausea In reply to Exekiella [2016-04-26 13:19:02 +0000 UTC]

Yes..! Me too..
I will definitely also be donating any organs and things I can for whoever needs them.. (:
Perhaps, my ashes will also fertilize the ground for little life-lings to grow..

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Exekiella In reply to paintausea [2016-04-27 01:13:44 +0000 UTC]

That's great~ c:

Same with mine.

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