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This feeling, this force has taken over
it's in me, it's part of me, it is me
I have made this illusion so that I didn't have to deal
with everything that was happening around me
But this mask is unable to conceal
Everything I am, Everything I feel
I made you because I was afraid
This is getting bigger than you and me
This is death, this is mayhem, this is insane
This can't be me, I've never caused this much pain
I created you, so I can destroy you
Holding a gun to my head; our head
I suppose destruction is in my nature
Tension in my fingers, in a second you'll be dead
I've realized that this illusion can no longer be fed
You say you are everything I wasn't
But to create you I had to be all those things
You dragged me through, I lost control
I let go, I finally let go
Reborn again after every disaster
Still blind to the fact that it was all me the morning after
She walks with sorrow in her eyes
But the cigarette smoke and sunglasses masterfully disguise
Like I said, If I had a tumor I'd name it after her
Because looking back on it now, she's the reason it all did occur
My sudden rise, and my downfall that was never-ending
This conspiracy is just the middle children of history writing a message that needs sending
This death and destruction was all my own instruction
But I needed you because I couldn't face up to it
And now, it's too late, the fuse is lit
It's time for you to end, so I can begin
I pull the trigger, and live to tell the tale
It's still an unknown truth as to why my heart didn't fail
But, holding her hand in mine
and watching financial history collapse out of each window pane
I had a chilling thought, maybe, just maybe, I really was insane.

Description
This feeling, this force has taken over
it's in me, it's part of me, it is me
I have made this illusion so that I didn't have to deal
with everything that was happening around me
But this mask is unable to conceal
Everything I am, Everything I feel
I made you because I was afraid
This is getting bigger than you and me
This is death, this is mayhem, this is insane
This can't be me, I've never caused this much pain
I created you, so I can destroy you
Holding a gun to my head; our head
I suppose destruction is in my nature
Tension in my fingers, in a second you'll be dead
I've realized that this illusion can no longer be fed
You say you are everything I wasn't
But to create you I had to be all those things
You dragged me through, I lost control
I let go, I finally let go
Reborn again after every disaster
Still blind to the fact that it was all me the morning after
She walks with sorrow in her eyes
But the cigarette smoke and sunglasses masterfully disguise
Like I said, If I had a tumor I'd name it after her
Because looking back on it now, she's the reason it all did occur
My sudden rise, and my downfall that was never-ending
This conspiracy is just the middle children of history writing a message that needs sending
This death and destruction was all my own instruction
But I needed you because I couldn't face up to it
And now, it's too late, the fuse is lit
It's time for you to end, so I can begin
I pull the trigger, and live to tell the tale
It's still an unknown truth as to why my heart didn't fail
But, holding her hand in mine
and watching financial history collapse out of each window pane
I had a chilling thought, maybe, just maybe, I really was insane.