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it's cold tonight, its the perfect night
I've thought about for too long
but it's been calling me, i trust this blade
it's never done me wrong
it's my way out of this never ending charade
pretending that everything is alright
but no one sees what goes on behind closed doors
here, out of sight
your words echo in my head
but i usually do my best to ignore them
not one single tear was shed
and on your part i consider it weakness
scattering life's overwhelming bleakness
it was something i could always trust
the sun sets, and i never expect it to rise
you can see reflections of death in my eyes
I've never been more ready to just let it all go
when its over, it's just over, and i think it's something you just know
but, leaving you behind was harder than you could ever imagine
but I'll weather it, when I'm on my way
don't try and change my mind, you'll just be wasting your time
because I've played this scenario out over and over in my mind
and this facade of smiles is something i can no longer hide behind
I'll plunge it here, right into my heart
the place where I've been pierced the most already
i thought it was the best place to start
I'll be careful to keep it real steady
I'll work it up towards my throat
then with the last breath i have in me
I'll jump towards that rope
hanging there with a smirk of revenge on my face
feeling as though i finally put the world in it's place
i didn't let it corrupt me, i died here, innocent as can be
hanging from this noose tied up, around this tree
the tree house will never be the same
and i admit that I'm the one to blame
i wouldn't call it suicide, just my one last attempt
to leave the world before all these evils had the chance to ferment
in my mind, i think you knew all along
so i leave you with these few brief words to remember me by
and i don't know if there's life after death
but i hope i still get to see the sky
it had a certain subtlety in it's infinite blue
and maybe if I'm lucky, once in awhile, I'll see you
you found me first, I'm sorry to say
because i invited you over that day
years of therapy still haven't taken that image away
and i do apologize for leaving things that way
i felt no options left for me, nowhere else to turn
i was just never opened to the strange philosophy of "live and learn"
so i thought i'd put it off for awhile, i guess i'd rather burn.

Description
it's cold tonight, its the perfect night
I've thought about for too long
but it's been calling me, i trust this blade
it's never done me wrong
it's my way out of this never ending charade
pretending that everything is alright
but no one sees what goes on behind closed doors
here, out of sight
your words echo in my head
but i usually do my best to ignore them
not one single tear was shed
and on your part i consider it weakness
scattering life's overwhelming bleakness
it was something i could always trust
the sun sets, and i never expect it to rise
you can see reflections of death in my eyes
I've never been more ready to just let it all go
when its over, it's just over, and i think it's something you just know
but, leaving you behind was harder than you could ever imagine
but I'll weather it, when I'm on my way
don't try and change my mind, you'll just be wasting your time
because I've played this scenario out over and over in my mind
and this facade of smiles is something i can no longer hide behind
I'll plunge it here, right into my heart
the place where I've been pierced the most already
i thought it was the best place to start
I'll be careful to keep it real steady
I'll work it up towards my throat
then with the last breath i have in me
I'll jump towards that rope
hanging there with a smirk of revenge on my face
feeling as though i finally put the world in it's place
i didn't let it corrupt me, i died here, innocent as can be
hanging from this noose tied up, around this tree
the tree house will never be the same
and i admit that I'm the one to blame
i wouldn't call it suicide, just my one last attempt
to leave the world before all these evils had the chance to ferment
in my mind, i think you knew all along
so i leave you with these few brief words to remember me by
and i don't know if there's life after death
but i hope i still get to see the sky
it had a certain subtlety in it's infinite blue
and maybe if I'm lucky, once in awhile, I'll see you
you found me first, I'm sorry to say
because i invited you over that day
years of therapy still haven't taken that image away
and i do apologize for leaving things that way
i felt no options left for me, nowhere else to turn
i was just never opened to the strange philosophy of "live and learn"
so i thought i'd put it off for awhile, i guess i'd rather burn.