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phi-phi — This is Hard For Me to Say.
Published: 2007-09-01 06:26:46 +0000 UTC; Views: 237; Favourites: 2; Downloads: 2
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This is hard for me to say;Maybe the most difficult words to ever leave my lips.
But the truth is I still cry for you.
Not where people can see,
Usually alone, or in the shower.
As memories of you whisper to me.
I tell myself that they aren't tears.
Simply pieces of my greatest fears;
Pouring out of me, because of you.
And it's difficult to say that my emotions are still intact.
I'm very damaged, and very broken.
Anything I was before has vanished into the wind.
All that remains are my quickly dying hopes,
that tomorrow will be better than today.
That tomorrow I'll wake up, and realize I've been asleep for these past years;
and you never existed, neither did these tears.
I'm so tired of wanting what I'll never have.
And not having the courage to live without reason.
Is it wrong to want this all to disappear?
Is it wrong to wonder what the reasons are that we are here?
My tears have been out of my control for quite awhile.
They just stream down now, and there's no one here,
to dry them and give me a reassuring smile.
that tells me "maybe pain does subside after awhile".
So for now I'll just live, because that's all I can do.
But the truth is that I can barely call it living when I'm not with you.
It's just breath after breath, day after day.
Still counting the moments since you went away.
I miss you; and like I said,
This is Hard for me to say.
