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PhuiJL β€” Honestly...

Published: 2013-07-14 15:37:24 +0000 UTC; Views: 1164; Favourites: 72; Downloads: 66
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Description I hate being a professional, people expect too much from me & that thought always make me sick, literally...ugh not to mention it makes me down the entire day



Sure I always told myself just draw whatever you love, not for others but yourself, but there are just... those times... acting like a professional kill all the fun. I'm still a student, a self-taught artist, still progressively learning to draw better & trying/experimenting many different styles by my own and all, also drawing fanarts to make myself happy, relieving my stress/sanity sigh...



No one is ever born professional



But gotta make myself prepare I guess, especially after the talk I had with weeks ago, saying how animation works stressed her out & stuff, recently saying that need to make 300dpi portfolio for Pixar ppl to see or something. Still envy her being able to study in animation school SVA New York eventhough she said it's too much for her haha :'D










Sorry for this venting art cuz I just have to release this horrible feeling I had for so long
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Comments: 31

DanteMadrid [2013-10-07 22:36:12 +0000 UTC]

for my favorites, cool

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cddmanful [2013-07-21 21:11:34 +0000 UTC]

And your art is so unique and cool, that it deserves to be in the world, now, as in the professional future...few truer words have been spoken as you say above [about no one being born professional] about art; and being professional in it (something I confess I am not even remotely aiming for) takes a lot of self-sacrifice--I hope and pray, for your sake, that this road becomes smoother and smoother for you and you are capable of it.....


Take these words as they are, from someone who is not in your path--I know I may not understand...

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PhuiJL In reply to cddmanful [2013-07-22 03:06:43 +0000 UTC]

Thanks so muuch :'D

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cddmanful In reply to PhuiJL [2013-07-22 04:38:27 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome...

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cddmanful In reply to PhuiJL [2013-07-22 04:37:28 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome...

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cddmanful [2013-07-21 21:00:50 +0000 UTC]

Idk if my saying this helps any but I do feel that art to be art should be done to make your heart happy...the other stuff may look like art to everyone else, but it isn't really art to you if your heart isn't in it....


I think that maybe one should take a certain amount of time, maybe even days/weeks, and just do art for you--no commissions, no art projects for others/school [if that kind of hiatus is possible] and such, and just do whatever makes you happy. Β If nothing comes, then just go out, walk in beautiful areas, visit friends, read--and make more art when you feel it. Β Some such exercise, I think, might purge a few demons....

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PhuiJL In reply to cddmanful [2013-07-22 03:06:21 +0000 UTC]

I'm all better than before, still, thanks for your advice, I decided to seek more advice about this kind of stuff when I get back to school :'D


Thanks

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cddmanful In reply to PhuiJL [2013-07-22 04:37:42 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome...

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Wind-Traveller [2013-07-15 07:08:01 +0000 UTC]

I guess it's my fault, I was complimenting you as a master but I was thinking it is too much so if it is my fault, I'm sorry...

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PhuiJL In reply to Wind-Traveller [2013-07-15 07:29:38 +0000 UTC]

No it's not your fault

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Wind-Traveller In reply to PhuiJL [2013-07-15 10:06:03 +0000 UTC]

Well I was thinking crazy about your art that they are so good but I guess it's time I should know that people are the same, they have feelings... Sorry for saying nonsense things but I'm guessing I should respect people as real people.

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PhuiJL In reply to Wind-Traveller [2013-07-15 11:56:39 +0000 UTC]

Well yeah, I used to act like that before, not anymore. We're all the same : D I prefer ppl treat me as the same, real person. Always respect others as you want ppl to respect you ^^

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SalomonFenix [2013-07-15 03:12:38 +0000 UTC]

Ueah, this some times happens to me, all because they say they are not well anatomically my drawings and stuff, but I really just want to improve a little but the trouble is that many more like him more ''hiperrealist'' possible, but should have reason to not have such high expectations, I just hope you continue so I'm in these situations also don't worry.

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PhuiJL In reply to SalomonFenix [2013-07-15 07:31:27 +0000 UTC]

I sure will continue, just hate these thought come to me out of nowhere especially when professional ppl watch me in dA or tell me stuff in school or something

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Yu-2 [2013-07-14 17:22:24 +0000 UTC]

I have to confess that this is the reason that I rarely post my art and stories. It's the feeling that thousands of people are going to judge me. And that feeling causes me to scrutinize my work until I believe that what I have isn't good enough. That's just it really. Even if part of me knows it not to be true, there is always that feeling that I will be compared to somebody of greater talent.

You're an amazing artist, something that I could only possibly hope to be within the next five years of my life. I know you've got what it takes to endure and find what you love to do.

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PhuiJL In reply to Yu-2 [2013-07-15 07:47:38 +0000 UTC]

Hmm yeah I was like this in the past, but in the end I'm just gonna post watever stuff I drew & share my stuff online


And actually I'm pretty confident in my art stuff, just that when it comes to professional level... ugh *headache* Most of the time I remind myself to have fun drawing yeah


Thank you :'DD That really cheer me up C' :

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Robert64dd [2013-07-14 16:39:07 +0000 UTC]

It shouldn't matter if you're a professional or a newbie you love making art don't you?...I don't know what it's like being professional but I know that expectations can stress the hell out of people...but you shouldn't let that bother you..if they're disappointed...so what? You do what you do..and it doesn't matter if you love drawing

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PhuiJL In reply to Robert64dd [2013-07-15 07:34:53 +0000 UTC]

Yeah sure am, drawing is my life :'D But I set a high goal for myself, becoming an animator by going to animation school in America probably in the future

Those thought kept dragging me down, it's hard and money is another issue, our money here is 3x American dollar, so it's really expensive, not to mention the safety in America cuz guns are legal there

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Robert64dd In reply to PhuiJL [2013-07-15 11:57:53 +0000 UTC]

That is such a coincidence I want to learn animation as well but the 2d kind^^

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PhuiJL In reply to Robert64dd [2013-07-15 12:01:52 +0000 UTC]

same here

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Robert64dd In reply to PhuiJL [2013-07-15 12:18:13 +0000 UTC]

Cool glad I'm not the only one^^

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AKAFoxtail [2013-07-14 16:09:01 +0000 UTC]

Wooow, and here I thought you we're a super happy person all the time. XD

I know what you mean though, getting older people expect things from you, and its not always a cool feeling to have.
You wanna take things at your own pace, you wanna do things when you can, but nope, you've gotta do 50 million other things before you can do the fun stuff you enjoy. eDe

But I suppose thats just a part of growing up...doesn't mean we have to like it, we just have to deal with it. ; u ;

You can still do what you wanna do PhuiJL, you just have to endure the time being, then when its all said and done, you can get back to doing your own beautiful PhuiJL-tastic work. >u<

We believe in you. ouo

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PhuiJL In reply to AKAFoxtail [2013-07-15 07:32:32 +0000 UTC]

No everyone has their own problem, I'm the type who rarely talk about this since I don't like ppl seeing the unhappy stuff :3

Thanks :'D

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AKAFoxtail In reply to PhuiJL [2013-07-15 20:52:14 +0000 UTC]

Yea, i'm the same way, I figure I I stay happy and vent my feelings secretly. (By drawing and such. eue)
I think staying happy is one of the best ways to spread happiness. XD
Which is why I don't really let anything bother me. eue

Welcome. >u<

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Mathew447 [2013-07-14 15:56:35 +0000 UTC]

I don't mind the venting art so much. If it allows you to calm down, then draw it. About being a professional, the whole "high expectations" problem is one many people in your field of expertise have to deal with--heck, even people in other fields of work have to put up with it. It all has to do with everyone wanting you to create masterpieces to fulfill some sort of quota they have placed you in. It's a very painful thing to put up with, and it is sort of stupid that anyone has to put up with it in the first place. However, you don't always have to live up to anyone's expectations. What they expect you to do may sometimes be a personal desire to see what they want made, rather than a want to see an artist they like draw what they desire. However, a desire is still a desire, which means that it doesn't NEED to be fulfilled, it's just something that the person with said desire wishes to indulge in, even though that want comes at the expense of the artist. In my opinion, it would be a good idea for you to continue drawing the things you enjoy drawing while ignoring those who wish for your art to meet their desires. Since this is your art, it's up to you to decide how the final product turns out, not anyone else. I hope my advice is helpful to you, and I hope you have a very nice day !

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PhuiJL In reply to Mathew447 [2013-07-15 07:51:38 +0000 UTC]

It certainly helped me calm down a lot after this xDD


And thank you very much for your advice Just gonna continue drawing what makes me happy I did thought of seeking more advice about this when I get back to my school since my teachers are pretty supportive of my goal :'D

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Mathew447 In reply to PhuiJL [2013-07-15 16:08:22 +0000 UTC]

You are welcome . Have yourself a very nice day, and good luck !

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DataFiox [2013-07-14 15:48:32 +0000 UTC]

Aaaww... ya know...it happens to me too... during at the end of school, it was horrible, since i had to meet someone in a volleyball stage, i had to finish that STUPID history which pisses me off and made me cry a lot for an hour. Everyone has their true self, but happily my mother said that at the last day of school, i had a day out because i didn't feel so well until i get better... but still in summer vacation.

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ClefdeSoll [2013-07-14 15:41:43 +0000 UTC]

shh ugh i know that feeling q__q;; people have high expectations over how i should live my life and art and writing is never a part of their plans; and let's be honest here, drawing and writing is literally who i am. It's really sucky.


People shouldn't put such heavy expectations on others. I think you're doing great, no matter what you draw so shhh come here, let me hug you. <3

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PhuiJL In reply to ClefdeSoll [2013-07-15 07:54:18 +0000 UTC]

Aw man Dx


Hmm if the world is that way, I would've live soo happily & enjoy myself drawing all the time xD Thank you :'D

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ClefdeSoll In reply to PhuiJL [2013-07-15 15:13:03 +0000 UTC]

the world should be that way though ff y3y

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