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Published: 2016-09-08 20:01:34 +0000 UTC; Views: 2281; Favourites: 90; Downloads: 5
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I made a lil analogy talking to someone about being a "space gardner" for my characters, not 'ruling' over them like some grand overseer but just helping them to grow and chill out :,P So that branched off into this random bit of character study with the new 'sonaNot gonna lie, drawing these out was really cathartic to do. Cause with this new persona and just- a lot of things I deal with, I usually have a reaLLY overwhelming guilt complex. Like, pretty much if I have a negative thought in my head (and sometimes positive ones)- even if it's something that's never happened or I'd never act upon, I'll still let myself become guilty over it as IF I had done it and the worst case scenario happened anyways. In the case of something like this with the lil bottom doodles, in the past I'd feel guilty about interacting with my own characters because that's "too mary-sue-ish" or "too self-indulgent". And it'd become sort of a constant cycle of self-defeat as a way of coping with different ideas until they'd finally pass and I'd move onto something else.
I also ran across this little post on tumblr, which honestly hit me a lot harder than I thought it would piranhebula.tumblr.com/post/15β¦
And on top of that- the support I've had in general from you guys with this could not've made me more relieved ;v;
I guess like- in a lot of ways making this new persona is letting me have a lot more self realization over things I've been trying to cover up and tell myself weren't problems.Β
I've never talked with a therapist before- or been diagnosed "officially" with anything, so at some point I convinced myself that I didn't have any issues, and whatever negative and pervasive thoughts I DO have should be under my control, and I should feel guilty over letting them creep into my head in the first place.
But thoughts themselves don't make me who I am, especially the gross ones that never feel like my own. Its the ones I choose to act on both for myself, and the people I care about- that let me keep being the person I want to be
And I don't want anxiety to keep me from acting on the more positive ones anymore.TL : DR I'M GONNA LET MYSELF BE UNAFRAID OF INTERACTING WITH CHARACTERS IF I FEEL LIKE ITespeCIALLY MY OWN DANG ONES- WHO HAVE ALWAYS BEEN A BIG COPING MECHANISM FOR ME TO BEGIN WITH
also I start m' last year of college in 4 days bleh
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So where exactly does your character take place in Kito and Goro's world? Are they a neighbor? Friend? Possibly considered part of their family now (even if so will the character move in with them)?
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None of the above, cause that's not what I want my persona to be. The specific purpose I had for making this design was to have a way for representing myself in art, no backstory/lore and no strings attached. Especially because Kito was a previous persona for a while, and the more I added lore and background to her, I loved her more as a character but became so detatched from her that it caused a weird anxiety in of itself to think about. So aside from the weird appearance it's just me and nothing past that. :,>
In a weird way I guess the family aspect is true, since both characters have meant so much to me for so long after creating both, that they aRE family in a metaphorical way. Nothing beyond that though. 
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Your persona reminds me of Wander of Yonder, my favorite show!
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Ahhh yeah I can definitely get that kinda vibe! :,D 'Specially since I purposely made m'self spacey, and I'm influenced a lot by Craig's other shows
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He's a suuuuuuuper untouchy person with folks he doesn't know, or in the best case scenario superduper awkward , but that's why I have huggy monsters like these for ANYONE out there that's ever in need of one
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HUGGY MONSTERS???! HELL YEAH. i will use imagination : 3
and that makes sense xDΒ
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I love this sona so much as well as the way you're expressing yourself
I always feel like maybe I should express myself more through my art but I always get the feeling no one will care so i just don't do it lol
strella for the longest time was my main coping character so maybe I might make a new one in her place, but im not so sure yet
try not to be so hard on yourself ok c;
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Hhhhhhhhhhhhgh thank youuuuu ;v;
For me it was more so the worry of people 'caring too much' what I did, and making judgements over it x,,,D which in saying that out loud sounds really silly in retrospect :,P
If you do end making a sortof 'avatar' character for yourself, there's DEFINITELY no need to rush into doing it. But on the same note it would be cool to see :,D
I'm feeling better over this whole thing each day, so that in itselfs a good sign
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I feel this description so much.
I've fought for years to have confidence in myself, but I keep letting horrid memories of all my failures and assistants at grade school who abused me force me back (It drove me to attempt suicide in high school even). But I want to be useful. I want to have a purpose. And you are one of the few things that give me that.
I hope you have far more supportive people in this world than I've had.
But that aside, I love this idea! Gardens have always had a peaceful vibe to them and it suits your persona very well!
Great job as always! I might draw her again sometime.
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Just keep fighting dude. β‘ Your a strong person who's willing to grow and improve himself. Pushing for your own sake is 'purpose' enough.~
And ANYWAYS thank you so much :,,,P
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Thank you, that's very reassuring. That's good to know as well.
You're welcome!
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Got the notification for this during my Holocaust and American Eugenics class. Definitely not the most upbeat lectures and viewing materials so I definitely needed to see this. <3
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Ahhhhh ;sdklfasjdhflkjsdhfk :,D I'm glad it could be something enough to lighten the mood for you as it was able to be for me to draw
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Indeed it was. Like a little hug for the mind after seeing some nasty horrible stuff.Β
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I like going around the cosmos planting little hugs in peoples heads, so I guess this does the job well
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Now you've got to get a really good microphone and put your voice to this cutie pie!!
I DEMAND IT! >: D
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I TECHNICALLY HAVE MY LOVELY YETI MIC NOW BUT I FEEL SO AWKWARD ABOUT HEARING MY OWN VOICE BACK IDOJFKSDFHJSKDFH
MAYBE I'LL DO SOMETHING WITH THE FOOTAGE OF THE BLIND POKEDRAWING STREAM I HAVE BUT STILL DIDNT EDIT
MAYBE
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This idea is pure genius... gardeners are way better at taking care of stuff than overseers >: D
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df;jklashdfkljsdfhkjsdfh <3
Giving gentle care and love so everything can sprout into what it chooses to be, and I can always follow along for the ride :,D
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I'm really happy to read I gave you some courage to try something like this for yourself.
tbh whenever I see someone mention they inspired to try putting more of themselves and their raw emotion into their art like this, it makes me so much more excited to keep working on my own things that help me cope, in hope that more people will proceed to try it. It's just such a healthy, good thing for an artist to do.
Tryina get a positive flow going here, feels like I'm actually doing something worthwhile <':
These doodles are so adorable tho, I really love the look of your little critter!
The design is so simple and nicely unified, 'tis a fashionable space monkey gardener
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ldkjf;ahfjkldfhkjsfh You're definitely one of the first artist's I'd seen do something like it in such a positive way :,D It's been a really uplifting thing to see, especially since I prefer being a positive person and sharing positive things in my own work. So it really helped a ton just to have an example for venting thoughts or emotions in art- where the outcome can still be a bright one, as well as a personal one. ;v;
And ahhhhh thank you so much! ;o; The scariest thing at the start of this was jus the worry that if I didn't like the design, that I'd scrap the idea and go back to bottling it all up. So when I let go of my anxiety and just let myself doodle whatever little character traits made me happy- I was genuinely excited over how it came out.
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when you realize that you as the artist have the power to end your vent art on a positive note, a lot of your artistic outlook changes lmao
and if you're lucky, the way you view vent art / coping changes along with it.
that's what i learned at least.
and aww that's nice <':
it's great that her design is so simplistic because it allows for easier sketching and therefore more raw emotion tbh
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Nice sketches of your new persona! (And some little bits of Goro too!!)
I have actually come across some of the same issues as well in my life (mostly the one you were talking about), but I haven't been able to overcome them as of late.
I do have issues and most of the time, it always leads to self-defeat/not believing hard enough/not having a lot of faith in myself.
It happens all the time a lot with me, it's why I think my stuff is crap, doesn't look good or that no one would even care and I always feel hopeless because of that.
That's why I admire your work so much, it just helps me feel more happier and for a chance at life (and just for the fact you inspire me greatly with your unbelievable talent).
And for that, I thank you deeply.
Good luck in college, btw! I believe you'll get through it just fine!
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Thanks so much! :,D
And trust me when I say it's not something I think I've fully overcome by a longshot, but I'm definitely taking the steps I need to make my way there. It definitely takes time, if nothing else just to figure out what it even is that might help set you on the right track to be able to start healing. I definitely believe you'll be able to find it though
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No prob.Β Β
I think I'm really on a mixed path right now but the healing process hasn't begun.
It's also because I really want to learn the ways of the artist and how to get the creativity flowing (or maybe it's just that I want to do college very badly but whatever).
Thanks!!
Well, I mostly found you through the fan art you've done, then by going through your original work and admiring the style of your drawings was when I fell in love, I followed you and you know the rest.
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