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I once thought,
By trusting in God,
He’d give me wife.
Is that odd?

I trusted and waited,
I looked all around,
I waited for her,
She couldn’t be found.

I asked my heart,
And it leapt at the chance.
Asked many to sing,
And asked more to dance.

Many said “No,”
And rejection stung deep.
It ravaged my heart,
And robbed me of sleep.

Some said “Yes,”
Expectation then soared,
We danced while we could,
Each other explored.

But each ended soon,
Some longer than most.
Some chose to explode,
Others gave up the ghost.

“Why me?” My heart cried,
“God promised me love!
Why do I have nothing,
To really speak of?”

Then in the back of my mind,
A voice said,
“Where in the Bible,
Is this thing you have read?”

I scoured the Bible,
I looked for some proof.
No marriage promised,
I feel like a goof.

So I go back to life,
I try to go on.
I try to ignore,
My heart isn’t gone.
“I don’t need this ‘love’”
I say to myself.
I’m perfectly fine,
To stay on the shelf.

There’s so much to do,
After all, you see.
I have talents and goals,
I still have me!

So I try to be me,
I try very hard.
But still within,
Is the heart of a Bard.

Who longs for a love,
Someone held dear,
Someone to trust,
The ultimate peer.

“Bah!” says my head,
Who scoffs at my pain.
“Love is waste,
There’s nothing to gain!”

“Look at your friends,
All married quite well.
All of their dreams,
With ‘I Do,’ fell!”

“Baby’s cries,
Have taken their dreams.
This is what love will give you,
It seems.”

“NO!” says my heart,
In defiance and pride.
“There is more to love,
Then dreams that have died!”

“They die to make room,
For great things they lie down.
That child’s no weight,
That child’s a crown!”

Again my head laughs,
“Such things just aren’t true.”
And on the two go,
Like dogs with a shoe.

I’m stuck in the middle,
By heart and by head.
Both speak the truth,
Both are well said.

Then a girl comes,
And both stop to look.
She makes them both happy,
She’s right in their book.

But things never happen,
The way they should be.
At the end of the day,
There isn’t a “we”.

Just me, head, and heart,
All hurting inside.
Heart says to head,
“So much for pride.”

“Love bites hard,
There’s nothing to gain!
Nothing’s brought in,
But bushels of pain!”

Head nods as he says,
“I hate to be right.
I should have been wrong,
This ‘love’ is a blight.”

“It lures us in,
It catches our eye.
We both fall down hard,
And then want to die.”

“No more!” says my heart,
My head only nods.
I cannot deny them,
It’s not in the odds.

That a girl would love me,
My morals, my mind.
My heart, my devotion,
I’m one crazy find.

So alone I will play,
Just me, player one.
Till player two comes,
My loneliness done.

Description
I once thought,
By trusting in God,
He’d give me wife.
Is that odd?

I trusted and waited,
I looked all around,
I waited for her,
She couldn’t be found.

I asked my heart,
And it leapt at the chance.
Asked many to sing,
And asked more to dance.

Many said “No,”
And rejection stung deep.
It ravaged my heart,
And robbed me of sleep.

Some said “Yes,”
Expectation then soared,
We danced while we could,
Each other explored.

But each ended soon,
Some longer than most.
Some chose to explode,
Others gave up the ghost.

“Why me?” My heart cried,
“God promised me love!
Why do I have nothing,
To really speak of?”

Then in the back of my mind,
A voice said,
“Where in the Bible,
Is this thing you have read?”

I scoured the Bible,
I looked for some proof.
No marriage promised,
I feel like a goof.

So I go back to life,
I try to go on.
I try to ignore,
My heart isn’t gone.
“I don’t need this ‘love’”
I say to myself.
I’m perfectly fine,
To stay on the shelf.

There’s so much to do,
After all, you see.
I have talents and goals,
I still have me!

So I try to be me,
I try very hard.
But still within,
Is the heart of a Bard.

Who longs for a love,
Someone held dear,
Someone to trust,
The ultimate peer.

“Bah!” says my head,
Who scoffs at my pain.
“Love is waste,
There’s nothing to gain!”

“Look at your friends,
All married quite well.
All of their dreams,
With ‘I Do,’ fell!”

“Baby’s cries,
Have taken their dreams.
This is what love will give you,
It seems.”

“NO!” says my heart,
In defiance and pride.
“There is more to love,
Then dreams that have died!”

“They die to make room,
For great things they lie down.
That child’s no weight,
That child’s a crown!”

Again my head laughs,
“Such things just aren’t true.”
And on the two go,
Like dogs with a shoe.

I’m stuck in the middle,
By heart and by head.
Both speak the truth,
Both are well said.

Then a girl comes,
And both stop to look.
She makes them both happy,
She’s right in their book.

But things never happen,
The way they should be.
At the end of the day,
There isn’t a “we”.

Just me, head, and heart,
All hurting inside.
Heart says to head,
“So much for pride.”

“Love bites hard,
There’s nothing to gain!
Nothing’s brought in,
But bushels of pain!”

Head nods as he says,
“I hate to be right.
I should have been wrong,
This ‘love’ is a blight.”

“It lures us in,
It catches our eye.
We both fall down hard,
And then want to die.”

“No more!” says my heart,
My head only nods.
I cannot deny them,
It’s not in the odds.

That a girl would love me,
My morals, my mind.
My heart, my devotion,
I’m one crazy find.

So alone I will play,
Just me, player one.
Till player two comes,
My loneliness done.