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QuantumPhysica — It's All Too Easy (my life in song part I)
Published: 2012-06-25 22:38:51 +0000 UTC; Views: 281; Favourites: 1; Downloads: 1
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It's all too easySo you are feeling bad?
You think I feel never bad or what?
I'm tired to the bone
And you just sit there on your throne
I am so annoyed. By. THIS!
It's all too easy
When you say that you can't help it
It's all too easy
When you say you're feeling bad
It's all too easy
So you call that an illness?
Well I call that
The bad behavior of a fucking lazy selfish little girl!
So you're feeling terrible?
Well thanks to you my life is horrible
Do you ever think of THAT?
I'm so fucking sick of you
Your behavior makes me vomit too
I am so annoyed. By THIS!
It's all too easy
When you say that you're forgetful
It's all too easy
When you say you're feeling weird
It's all too easy
Because inside you just don't care!
so you are being sad
And you will stick to that
I don't want to give anymore
to you we're just a bore!
If it's like this.
You don't have to live in this house
ANYMORE!
You're looking for excuses aren't you? No excuse inhere will DO! I want you. TO DO SOMETHING BEFORE I KILL YOU OUT OF FRUSTRATION for everything you do to me my life and everything I love…
There is no excuse for you
There is no apology that will do
NEVER I will forgive you
NEVER you can make amends
It's all too easy
Always too easy
You always take the easy way
OUT!
It's all too easy
But I won't make it easy ON YOU!
Because
You.
Don't.
Make.
It.
Easy.
On.
ME!!!!
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Comments: 19
I this fantastic the way you trap the thought pattern of another Although it does make me wish I could help in some way. This coming from the relationship I had with my mother until last year
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thank you...
My relationship with my mother was fairly good until I got admitted... then it all went downhill and now she blames all trouble on me... I understand that, she may even (probably even) have a point, but it's not really a nice thing to live with...
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Anger is the one thing that drives people to say things they don't mean and or are hiding. Have you sat down and asked her to explain why she says those things and then try to explain your side
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I have spoken to her many times...
She is only human, she says that herself. She is angry with me because when I became psychotic it messed up the whole family, made her doubt the values she has based her life on and somewhat screwed everything of stability she had build up for herself. Also, she feels deceived by me because I hid my mental condition for so long, all to the point I tried to kill myself.
Her anger is not irrational, it is somehow reasoned about. She feels justified in her anger...
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We all feel justicified in our anger. Why doesn't break up/mess up a family these days. Don't let someone else's opinion influence your life. That's why you were given your own. The only thing I can say to do is let her know your trying in all aspects to fix the fractures that we're caused even if not by you and that you love her regardless even if there are moments when you don't. Just know that your importantance in this world is not determined by others but yourself and the ones that you really have to show love to are those who are angry at you.
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Thank you so much for your words... They make me feel better.
There is a lot of anger underneath everything my family does... Even when we are having a good time, there is a distance, there is anger, frustration and sadness keeping us apart.
I know that well enough, I see it in the way my mother can't bring herself to comfort me when I'm having an attack. It's not because she wants me in pain, it's because she can't bring herself to hold me that close to her.
I try to show love to those I have hurt. It will be a long process. A very long process, but I have good hopes that one day I will be able to mend the cracks...
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I completely understand on all of those and if your goal is to mend all the fences you'll do it
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thank you for your support
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You'll always have it
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that totally "eye for an eye" thinking... when has that ever worked out? don't let it bother you... much... what matters is the opinion of those you hold dear, and since the only attachment you have to your mom is just the fact that she's your mom..., don't think she falls into that category
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My opinion about my mother changes as much as my persona...
I know that I would not like her if she wasn't my mom, because if she wasn't I would never be obliged to look past the irrationality, the exhausted-40-year-old-female-with-a-mediocre-life-complaints and the morals-ethics-faith thingy.
But now I am obliged to do so, and I see she may not be perfect, she may not even be very good, but she tries the best she can, and that's in the end all we can do being human beings.
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sigh... you can say the same about yourself... but you don't?
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I'm only human too... I never ever denied my mistakes...
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those mistakes make you human... so it's only natural that you make them
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Natural doesn't mean they are good...
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well yea... it just means they are... like you just are, like your mom just is... we don't have to judge ourselves by the mistakes we make but what we learn from them, i think you're doing very good in that field
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Thank you. That is very sweet of you to say...
Also apply that to yourself...
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i told you... i can't apply my own findings and views on myself... yet... hope i'll be able to soon
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