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There is a vault behind my eyes that knows all my sadness,
My loneliness lives there along with my bruised ego,
Together they harmonize and create amazing tears,
The saltiest water that stings my pores as it trickles down my face,
That vault has been broken many times,
The memories of you are the combination,
The worst ones, remembering sweaty drunken kisses and photo ops in June,
Reminiscing about walks through winding forest trails,
Inhaling everything we knew about one another in one drag,
It’s like I couldn’t get enough in my lungs,
During everything I held my breath,
I was afraid to exhale, I was afraid I’d lose you if I did,
The day I exhaled,
Was followed by the day I couldn’t stop puking,
Which was followed by the day I couldn’t stop eating,
Then puking, then eating, then crying, then puking,
Soon the porcelain fixture was my only friend,
It was always there to flush away my insecurities,
Pity me cause I heave at the thought of you,
Pity me because I’m sick,
If you pity me does it mean you still love me?