HOME | DD
Randomweirdo7 — My angel
Published: 2008-03-07 22:37:41 +0000 UTC; Views: 352; Favourites: 2; Downloads: 2
Redirect to original
Description
Your wings lost its feathers. The wings, which used to shine so brightly, are now dull. There are no feathers. The beauty of them could calm me and when I was sad it was when you folded your wings around me that I felt safe and better. Now they’re bony, cold and hard. You used to be perfect in everyway to me. Not anymore.With bony wings you backed away and started building a wall of sins and dead feathers.
Why did you turn away from me?
I loved you so much but someone bore a whole in you and everything good poured out to become tears that mended the cracks in the wall to make it stronger. Something crushed you and the crumbles helped build the wall.
Will I ever see you again?
My tears and my pain helped me turn away. I try not to see the wall your building and I try not to see how destroyed you are. I don’t want to see.
Was it my fault?
The smile on your face used to make me laugh. It fell of and you used the sins the glue it on again… but it’s not like before. Your hair that was thick and beautiful is now greasy and torn.
Your well-planned clothes of purity are ripped and dirty. No longer any of its glory can be seen.
I can’t look at you. I used to love you so much. But how can I love something so horrible? How can I love something that is everything I fight against?
Why are you destroying yourself?
What are you doing that I cannot see?
I loved you because you were perfect in my eyes. I loved you because I thought you were strong and that you could carry me when I fell apart.
Was I wrong?
Related content
Comments: 131
What do you mean? Saying I'm a copy-cat?
👍: 0 ⏩: 2
hmm.. just out of curiosity; you wrote this long before submiting it right?
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Not really... I wrote it in the middle of the night after a bad day... why? Is my grammar that bad?
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
not that.. just having a hard time figuring out who you're talking about.. If you wrote it recently it's gotta be a close friend but the way you write it it seems more like someone a bit closer than that..
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
It's someone very close to me that I love very much, you're right about that.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Interesting..
Ehum...
Nevermind me...
I'm just.. emh.. yeah just nevermind..
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
What? What are you thinking?! TELL MEEEEEE!!
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Who says I'm thinking?
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I do! Now what were you thinking?
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Nothing.. I promise...
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Ofcourse I am.. But there's nothing you can do about it..
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
No... there isn't... I hope you feel bad now
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
If you drop this I'll help you break Alex..
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
a few starters;
Show him very little respect if not none at all.
Start calling him by his real name.
Use any chance you can to call him or his actions pathetic.
Blame him for things that not you (nor anyone) normaly does.
Do this for a while and he'll go somewhat crazy.
Patiance and persistance.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Thanx! I'm gonna copy this down!
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
BTW How did you know I wanted to break him?
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
easy.. he's not really that keen on telling people when friends are watching conversations on msn ^^
anyways. I'm rooting for you. for fun^^
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I'm hoping I'll win but I'll most likely not
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
with my help you might win. He's not as complex as you'd think. Quite the opposite actualy. He's a very simple person. Just a bit strongminded and somewhat inteligent. Othe than that very very simple. He'll be easy to break. Just don' ever mention me.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Tell me exactly how to break him. Step by step.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
damn you.. You gave in.. Now I've gotta live with his greater ego that was atleast temporarily at rest.
anyways. Continue with a instructions I gave you for a short while. It's easier to manipulate him then.
oh and if he screams just look at him like he's some kind of freak and say "right" or something whitty like that and walk away.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
That would be easier if he was actually talking to me. He ignores me completly. But I'll try.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
hmm.. one more thing:
Be very womanish and boss him around. As if you where in a serious relationship ^^ that'll do alot
oh and just so you know; He is very hard to break. Chances of succes are low, but atleast you'll give him a hard time..
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I think I'm just gonna try to be friends with him... I mean... I'm the one that likes him not the other way round. He doesn't feel anything for me.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
that's not quite true.. he's just denying it.. Honestly I think it's almost pathetic.. it's a pity...
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
He hasn't even asked me why I broke up with him. He knows I'm mad at him but he just says it's probably not important. I am calling him Christian though.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
ye you might aswell stop this all.. it's not working..
anyways.. he doesn't want to know becouse he thinks that you broke up with him for the same reason he would have broken up with you..
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Why would he have broken up with me then?
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Becouse he is he.. For him it's all a competition..
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
No shit Sherlock! He's one of the very few people that when I'm around I wish I was a mind reader. How have you survived for so many years around him? You must be some kind of superman!
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Why thank you ^^
no but seriously. It's probably the only reason I still live.
Him being so competative have made me feel really bad about myself and all, but it has also made me alot stronger mentaly.
I would have killed myself long time ago if it weren't for this becouse I wouldn't be able to stand my everyday encounters.. I'm treated with zero respect here so he taught me to endure it.
Besides, if you're around him long enough you start liking his compedativeness. Mostly becouse you get in to all kinds of weird situations.
But to keep it simple,, yes.. I am a superman!
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
lol you sure are.
I'm glad atleast it makes you stronger. I feel like I've been crushed. I used to be a strongminded and selfassured person but after I've been with alex I have no confidence in my self. I've become really weak and he enjoys rubbing it in my face. I'm gonna snap soon if he keeps going. I'm looking forward to summer when I can take time to get over him without seeing him all the time. But I'm glad he makes you feel better!
Sometimes his competetive side is great.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
No confidence eh?
Well.. That sucks.. Honestly don't let him get to you in that way..
Just.. Think that he is he. No matter what he makes it seem like you are still as strong.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
You have no idea. It's a bit better between us... I guess we talked. I miss him. But I'll have to live with my choices. It's difficult not to let him get to me since what he says and does means so much to me... too much.
But is anything fun happening in your life?
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
hardly.. well.. My room has been fixed.. Things are shaping up.. But things are still emh.. bellow zero.
and ofcourse you let him get to you. What I meanth more was to try to see it in a possitive way. He never means to actualy mean that anyone is bad or anything. He's just implying that he's better,..
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
You getting your room redone? Hope life's better for you.
It's difficult to see it on a positive way... but him offending me makes him more human since he doesn't always mean it. He is better then me sadly...
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
in some ways maybe.. he just makes those sides show more. He has alot of weaknesses aswell..
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
It's hard to belive sometimes but I suppose I know. You would know the best though!
I tried to pick a fight with a girl today and Alex stopped her and told her exactly what I was doing and to leave me alone. Then he tries to find someone to calm me down and talk to me. THAT pisses me of.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
well.. he's just trying his best to avoid conflict (even when he's not involved). kinda same for me.
Those things piss me off aswell but really it's for the best.
I got in those situations quite often before. If it weren't for him I'd suffer assault from Yamen and his cousins (I'm serious here he threatened to kill me twice)
Not that I think those kind of situations would occur to you between girls like that. Girls are usualy lot less violent.
Oh and just got to think of something; Sorry if I gave you a bad impression of my thoughts of you when we where at Alex a while ago..
I said "Oh if I knew you where here I probably wouldn't have come". I was more meaning that I wouldn't wanna intrude or anything.
As it seemed you didn't see it that way. (ok this might be a bit late but I'm really long sighted and need to make sure at all times that everyone's fine)
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I know that. That's why it's easy to yell at him since I know he won't loose it and hit me (if it came to that I wouldn't stand a chance). I do know hos to piss him of if I really really wanted to but that would be sinking way to low.
Since I'm feeling moster at the moment + yesterday I feel I can yell at people and this girl deserved it ish but a part of me is glad Alex stopped it.
It's ok... I know what you MEANT by saying that it's I'm not used to people so openly declaring that they feel uncomftrable in my pressence. And since that was the first thing you said I felt it would be difficult to make you comftrable since I don't know you so well. But it's ok.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
ahh.. well.. nevermind then ^^
anyways. I hope you're happy, regardless of this. I just can't stand people in my presence unhappy.. Makes me feel so very incompetent (lack of spelling knowledge shortened me to this word) when I can't make people around me happy...
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Ah I guess I'm ok... I don't cry AS much anymore...
You're alot cooler then I thought you would be.... and nicer! I really enjoy talking to you!
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
| Next =>