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Here’s a really personal drawing for me :’3 I went through my very old Instagram account again and it made me start to think.
(Personal and possibly triggering story below)
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Middle school could arguably be called the hardest years I’ve lived through. I was awkward (as all middle schoolers are ) and having a difficult time learning who I was, how to fit in, and how to make friends. With hormonal changes came depression, anxiety, and a substantial drop in school grades. I was also dealing with the possibility of being attracted to girls and exploring my sexuality.
Unfortunately the internet isn’t a great place for a 13 year old dealing with these things, and I ended up being sexually groomed/harassed by this one guy online on top of everything. I was rushed into adult things way too fast which made developing like a regular kid even more difficult.
But these are just the unsavory things about those years. I used to deeply wish that the years 2013-15 were erased from my memory, but now I’ve come to realize that those years made me who I am!
On top of really fun memories including a super fun family trip, I met a handful of people I’m still friends with today (others I miss/still think about), and I wouldn’t be the artist I am today if it wasn’t for my sudden inspiration to draw thanks to finding my new obsession My Little Pony!
This picture is of pre-teenage Starfruit being comforted by her/their 18 year old self. I’ve come to terms with what happened, and I like to imagine that I can tell my younger self that everything works out, and that I can thank myself for hangin’ in there and growing into a better person!
What happened to me was not my fault, but it’s my responsibility to fix myself and to focus more on the positives of the present and future than on the negatives of the past. When times get hard now, I know that my older self will assure me that things will get better again! ⭐️

Description

Here’s a really personal drawing for me :’3 I went through my very old Instagram account again and it made me start to think.
(Personal and possibly triggering story below)
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Middle school could arguably be called the hardest years I’ve lived through. I was awkward (as all middle schoolers are ) and having a difficult time learning who I was, how to fit in, and how to make friends. With hormonal changes came depression, anxiety, and a substantial drop in school grades. I was also dealing with the possibility of being attracted to girls and exploring my sexuality.
Unfortunately the internet isn’t a great place for a 13 year old dealing with these things, and I ended up being sexually groomed/harassed by this one guy online on top of everything. I was rushed into adult things way too fast which made developing like a regular kid even more difficult.
But these are just the unsavory things about those years. I used to deeply wish that the years 2013-15 were erased from my memory, but now I’ve come to realize that those years made me who I am!
On top of really fun memories including a super fun family trip, I met a handful of people I’m still friends with today (others I miss/still think about), and I wouldn’t be the artist I am today if it wasn’t for my sudden inspiration to draw thanks to finding my new obsession My Little Pony!
This picture is of pre-teenage Starfruit being comforted by her/their 18 year old self. I’ve come to terms with what happened, and I like to imagine that I can tell my younger self that everything works out, and that I can thank myself for hangin’ in there and growing into a better person!
What happened to me was not my fault, but it’s my responsibility to fix myself and to focus more on the positives of the present and future than on the negatives of the past. When times get hard now, I know that my older self will assure me that things will get better again! ⭐️