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In case anyone actually noticed, I indeed deleted my Tumblr Blog. It was the one platform where I put myself out there, long when I was a simple child, I made some achievements, but I made a lot of mistakes, I dare say, more than the good I had.

And of course there was me taking shit too seriously. I took fandom too seriously, I took the internet too seriously, and I took many things far too seriously. So to fix that? I had to disassociate, I never actually involve myself in the deep side of any fandom given how antisocial I am. But at the same time, I am an enigma of socialization, and hell, here I am, still lurking in your closets (primarily, the OSC)

But now that I realize? I've finally come in terms with myself. I will never draw art only for the attention of others, I will never force myself to do things that chip away at my mental health, I will never associate with people that radiate toxic energy, I will never do anything in my past that destroyed my spirit. From now on, I do only what makes me happy, I associate with the friends I genuinely love, and I am not letting fandom get so deep into my head.

And for that? I feel a lot more at peace having finally deactivated that shell of an account.

Am I dead? No, bruh, enough with that lol.

Did I leave the OSC? uh, no? BUT. I will say I that I was always an enigma of a member, I never watched any other object show willingly, as they just never interested me, seeing it was all mostly just these weird little animations copying one another for popularity, at least to me. You've known me as an II artist, but I have to come clear and say i've left that behind, as i'm not interested anymore, and the alarming amount of toxic fans for the show gives me too much anxiety. Maybe that'll be sparked back when the new episodes are out, but who knows. As of for the grandaddy Battle for Dream Island, that's the show i'm actually invested in, it's a big part of my childhood, and as a person with sub-threshold autism, i'm pretty sure it's my special interest. Plus I like the CONCEPT of object shows, but all the executions just aren't getting to me, poop.

Am I back? well, soon, I got college y'all, lol.

anyways, that's now out my chest.

-Red, Jelly, (REDACTED), peace <3

Description
In case anyone actually noticed, I indeed deleted my Tumblr Blog. It was the one platform where I put myself out there, long when I was a simple child, I made some achievements, but I made a lot of mistakes, I dare say, more than the good I had.

And of course there was me taking shit too seriously. I took fandom too seriously, I took the internet too seriously, and I took many things far too seriously. So to fix that? I had to disassociate, I never actually involve myself in the deep side of any fandom given how antisocial I am. But at the same time, I am an enigma of socialization, and hell, here I am, still lurking in your closets (primarily, the OSC)

But now that I realize? I've finally come in terms with myself. I will never draw art only for the attention of others, I will never force myself to do things that chip away at my mental health, I will never associate with people that radiate toxic energy, I will never do anything in my past that destroyed my spirit. From now on, I do only what makes me happy, I associate with the friends I genuinely love, and I am not letting fandom get so deep into my head.

And for that? I feel a lot more at peace having finally deactivated that shell of an account.

Am I dead? No, bruh, enough with that lol.

Did I leave the OSC? uh, no? BUT. I will say I that I was always an enigma of a member, I never watched any other object show willingly, as they just never interested me, seeing it was all mostly just these weird little animations copying one another for popularity, at least to me. You've known me as an II artist, but I have to come clear and say i've left that behind, as i'm not interested anymore, and the alarming amount of toxic fans for the show gives me too much anxiety. Maybe that'll be sparked back when the new episodes are out, but who knows. As of for the grandaddy Battle for Dream Island, that's the show i'm actually invested in, it's a big part of my childhood, and as a person with sub-threshold autism, i'm pretty sure it's my special interest. Plus I like the CONCEPT of object shows, but all the executions just aren't getting to me, poop.

Am I back? well, soon, I got college y'all, lol.

anyways, that's now out my chest.

-Red, Jelly, (REDACTED), peace <3