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"Perhaps the biggest illusion of all is love. The romantization of the notion called love has lead to the demise of dreams and hearts alike. Love is misunderstood by the masses. It is the most tragic of all."
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On the surface, it was light and languid. The way the people who surrounded him as of the moment had the bit of normalcy that he could only dream.

He, in his mind, stood out like a sore thumb. An out of place person to nobody in particular. For the common individual, ignorance is bliss. It is better off that they do not know who he truly was and continue on their daily lives like he didn't exist in the first place.

He couldn't ask for more said he in his mind. Perhaps, a tiny voice inside his head disagrees yet it was quickly dismissed.

The youthful man stood before the academic institution with his magnificent magenta eyes roaming the place. He observed.

There was such the tranquility in a life that was mundane such as this. Despite what he tells his heart, there was always this itch under his skin that attracted trouble and chaos. He was unlike the rest of them, never felt quite human.

His lips curved into a smirk disguised as a smile. His tanned skin glistened under the sun with his auburn hair shimmering as he walked through the crowds. People parted as girls swooned over him while the male population brooded with envy or looked up in admiration and respect.

It was an understatement to say he was 'just' handsome.

Luciano Vargas was a gorgeous man.

There was serenity in a mediocre life such as this, only if it were true to him.

Though, life in the mafia wasn't bad either. Needless to say, he won't get bored.

Somewhere inside his chest, his heart yearns for something worthwhile. Something that would give a different type of excitement .

Though forced and a temporary bliss, his heart thumped at the prospect of finding something interesting in the world were people are blind to. The awful stench of death that people on the surface are blind to. The underground deals, the surge of adrenaline under his skin on the possibility of being caught. It was so exhilarating!!!

It was a privilege for him to witness what the majority can not.

He felt special.

Even so, a breather such as the life of a normal high school student isn't so bad once in a while.

Not that he'll ever admit to himself.

Who knows? Maybe the key to his boredom is around the corner.

Ah, not that it matters to him, does it?

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"I refuse to apologize to a mistake that I did not commit." the young lady had stubbornly repeated.

Magenta eyes scrutinised at the sight of (e/c) ones.

He was getting pissed off from her attitude. It was best not to anger Luciano for death would be the penalty.

"Hey, I said say sorry to me and I'll let this slide. Or would you like me to shoot you with this baby?" Luciano took out a cleverly hidden pistol from underneath his uniform.

The norm would have been relentlessly asking for forgiveness as far as grovelling on the cold hard ground.

However, this was not a story to tell the life of an average girl. But rather of a peculiar girl and the harbinger of trouble.

After all no one had the guts to...

"Then do it. Pussy. "

respond like such while being held at gun point.

Auburn brows knitted together as he profiled the woman infront of him.

She has (h/c) (hair length) framing her (s/c) face with a determined glare coming from (e/c) eyes. She looked like the average dull teen if it weren't for the peculiar choice of responses she made.

My, my, my, this ought to be an interesting turn of events.

Luciano curled his lips into a playful smirk while the woman just raised an eyebrow in response.

"What?You're not going to put me out of my misery?Ah what a shame...and I thought I'd get my wish granted. Boo hoo!!!" The woman dramatically clenched her chest and faked her tears.

"You're an unusual one, aren't cha ragazza~?" Luciano widened his smirk to a sadistic smile.

"You look as if you've got a lot of fight in you, you know?But deep inside you're quite the depressing suicidal!Or is this just an act to throw me off, I wonder~" he hummed and began to ponder on what he should do.

"You don't get to have a say in my personality, buddy. And won't you hurry up and just end me already?" the woman just huffed and crossed her arms impatiently.

Luciano only laughed at the girl's action and put his index finger up to sway it back and forth in a disapproving manner. "Tsk. Tsk. You've piqued my interest, bella. So I wish to make you my toy for the time being, no?Then once I've had my amusement, I'll euthanize you like a useless dog. How does that sound for a deal, bella?"

This statement only earned a grimace from the girl. "No thanks, I'm suicidal but I'm not a masochist nor am I a fan of pain so to speak I'm declining you. So just hurry up and pull the trigger, mr. edgy."

The auburn haired man couldn't help but chuckle maniacally at the irony of the being infront of him. Oh~~~ this is going to be fun.

"You're in no position to refuse, ragazza. After all, if it was easy to off yourself, you wouldn't have done it yourself, wouldn't you?."

The woman just groaned. This was simply too troublesome!!!Ah...making her waste her energy like that when she could be asleep?

"Wow congratulations for putting up the facts together!!!What a smartass. Haha not!!!This ain't some dramatic romance anime you annoying fuck."

"Your eccentricity and my handsome face tells me otherwise~"

A vein popped comically on the woman's forehead.

"Just end me already..." the girl buried her face on her palms. She was not the main character in an anime nor in a poorly made fanfiction made by a virgin teenage girl.

She was not supposed to waste energy on dealing with a man who seemed to be the leading male character when she could just be dead on the cold hard floor, bleeding.

This was just so clichè, the man infront of her was the most popular boy in high school with both the female and male population fawning over him but in reality he wasn't the dreamboat everyone thought he was
Later on it would be revealed that he had a dark side to him. To top it off he might just be a possessive fuckboi who's role is to ravish the female protagonist every night. It does smell like an amateurish plot made by a hormonal teenager girl, ne?

"Also I didn't quite catch your name, ragazza~ I'm Luciano Vargas by the way. " the boy, Luciano took hold of the already irked girl's hand and placed a chaste kiss on the finger tips.

"Motherfucker." the gesture pulled out the girl from her inner monologue and turmoil.

"What a pretentious romantic I'm pretty sure you've read it using my ID card hanging from my neck, yes? Even if not, I would not like to associate myself with you further by introducing myself."

Luciano just chuckled as he let go of the girl's hand, "Nice to meet you too, (f/n) (l/n)."

Wrong move Luciiano, as soon as he let go of (f/n), she dashed as fast as she can away from him as soon as the bell echoed through the halls.

Truth to be told, the one who made the mistake here was (f/n). If she didn't want to be stuck in a clichè bad boy falls in love fanfiction, she should've just hung herself in the beginning of the story.

Due to her comical suicidal and blunt personality, she has now piqued the interest of the number one candidate for male protagonist.

If we enter the point of view of the said male, we would be able to read that he was indeed amused and is now probablg plotting to make her life an overused romance prompt.

"You're one interesting girl, (f/n)."
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People would like to blame others for their misfortune, but they do not have anyone to blame but theirself.

They are the only ones who is in control of their actions.

It is simply dealing with the consequences that makes it difficult.

Still. It was worth a try as (f/n) glared at her male bestfriend from her seat.

"Why the fucking fuck are you staring at me like that, bitch?" The said male bestfriend's red eyes twitched in annoyance.

"I'm putting the blame on you, Allen." The girl shot back in a deadpan voice.

This gesture made the boy, Allen as she called him, growl in frustration.

"Remind me as to fucking why am I friends with a cynical piece of psychopathic shit like you, huh?"
1...2...3... Calm down, Allen Jones. You're not losing to this bitch with loose screws.

(f/n) just rolled her eyes and shrugged.

"It's obviously because we get along, you know?"

"I don't recall cursing eachother out is the definition of getting along ."

"Also because I helped you get out of trouble with the disciplinary committee, yes?They say true friendship starts when you go through solving a problem together!!!Ah I'm a pretty good person aren't I?"

"I'm pretty fucking sure you just helped me to make me owe you a favor."

"Also last of all, I'm not a psychopath! Somewhere deep in my black heart made of ice colder than antartica, there lies empathy!!!Ah humans are naturally social creatures after all."

"I'm also fucking sure that you aren't even a human being."

"Really so mean, Allen! If anyone is more likely to be the psychopath, it would be you. You keep on hurting my feelings like this." (f/n) dramatically placed her hand on her forehead and did fake faint.

Allen just grumbled and pulled out his phone.

"Signs or symptoms of a psychopath. One, superficial charm or glibness. Wow, you just demonstrated this earlier."

(f/n) just pouted and glared playfully at her best friend.

"Second, Inflated sense of self-worth."

"Hah! Then I'm not a psychopath! I have quite the self deprecating view of myself after all~♡"

"You lying bitch. You just fucking called yourself a great person earlier."

"I was just teasing you!!!"

Allen proceeded to tune out the defensive girl in favor of proving his point that, (f/n) (l/n) is indeed a psychopath.

"Lying pathologically." Allen didn't need to expound on this part, it was self-explanatory.

"Conning others or being manipulative." Yes, another check.

(f/n) just gasped and clutched her chest, "I can't believe you just accused me of being a manipulative bitch!!!What kind of best friend are you?"

Allen just sighed and decided to move on.

"Lack of remorse or guilt. Coupled with blaming others and refusing to take responsibility. "

"Oh, I've never done that."

Allen just stared at his best friend like he was just so done.

"Are fucking serious you motherfucker? What happened to the I'm putting the blame on you, Allen. statement, huh??? Don't tell me it was all just a fucking joke!!! I don't give a shit whether you're a girl but I will motherfucking punch you infront of these people."

"But that's because it's true!!! It's your fault Allen! If only I didn't bother myself with you back then, these events wouldn't trigger itself..." (f/n) sniffed an faked a tear while Allen just fumed silently in rage.

A breath.

"Okay you manipulative piece of shit. I'll help you in whatever problem you're having because I'm wholeheartedly a very good friend... unlike a fake ass bitch like you." Allen pinched the bridge of his nose and massaged the incoming migraine.

"Wowie!!!Thank you Al!!!" (f/n) glomped the tall redhead who's face scrunched up in regret.

"So? What's the matter and why are you clinging on me like your life depended on it?"

"Well...I may or may have not piqued the interest of the most dangerous person in campus...haha..."

"You what?"

(f/n) squeaked.

"I think I may have or may have not piqued the interest of the most dangerous person in campus who goes by the name Luciano Vargas."

"..."

"..."

"I take that back. I'm not your best friend anymore. See you around, stranger."

(f/n) wailed which caught the attention of other students in the area which gave weird looks and angry stares towards the male with russet hair.

"Sheesh!!!Alright!Alright!I'll help you as long as you shut the fuck up."

(f/n) squealed in delight and hugged her best friend.

"Thanks Allen!!! You're no longer indebted to me from all your exceptions in breaking campus rules~♡"

Allen's eyebrow twitched.

"So you just befriended me just so you can use me?You psychopathic bitch!!!"

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"You do realize that you're an idiot and the only one who is responsible for such misfortune?"

Allen sighed for the nth time for (f/n)'s antics.

"But Alleeeeeeen~ I didn't even realize who he was until he introduced himself!!!" (f/n) continued to wail out her misery as Allen slammed his head on the desk.

"They say you're a genius but all I can see is an idiot with the mark of death on her head."

(f/n) just shrugged and pouted, "Al is a meanieeee."

Allen ran his hand through his hair and counted to ten. "I'm serious right now (f/n). You know I'm part of a notorious gang right? I'm pretty sure that's the only reason why you're hanging out with me."

"Wow! I can't believe you had the IQ to notice that!"

"You didn't even try to deny that you fucker. To top it off you even had to insult my intelligence."

(f/n) just smiled and continued on sipping her drink while Allen angrily bit on his salad.

"My status doesn't pale in comparison to that asshole though."

(f/n) raised an eyebrow on this, "You mean, he's much worse?"

"(f/n)." Allen whispered dangerously.

" You're into some deep shit. That fucker is part of the mafia. He isn't just some normal grunt either. He's being raised to become the heir."

(f/n) just slammed her head on the table and screamed internally.

She wasn't a goddamn heroine in a poorly made romance novel goddamn it!!!

"Oh my fucking god Allen. Give me your fucking bat I'm going to end myself right here and right now!!!"

"Calm down (f/n). You can't just throw your life away like that. You still need to save me from all those detentions!!!"

(f/n) glared menacingly at the guy with maroon hair.

"You're accusing me of using you but in truth you're also just taking advantage of me you fucker!!!" (f/n) tackled Allen to the ground and proceeded to choke him.

"I'm just -cough- kidding (f/n) !!! -cough- OH MY FUCKING GOD -COUGH- HOW ARE YOU THIS STRONG -COUGH- -COUGH- DO YOU EVEN NEED MY PROTECTION?"

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The two best friends almost ended up killing eachother if it weren't for their other friend, Oliver Kirkland stepped in.

"Geez you two! Best friends aren't supposed to go after eachother's throat you know!!!" Oliver scolded them like a mother. He put his hands on his waist and bright cyan blue eyes glared non threateningly.

"Now have you guys made up?" the boy with strawberry blonde hair questioned.

"Yes Oliver." They both said in unison.

"Now that's good children! Anyways, what's the matter with you two? You guys were late for our regular afterclass tea party!" Oliver pouted in disappointment.

"Go ask (f/n), she's at fault." Allen looked away and grumbled.

"That's because you refuse to help me!!!" (f/n) screeched.

Oliver just flicked both of their foreheads and puffed up his cheeks.

"There's no use in putting the blame on others. What's done is done! Now love, kindly please tell me your problem?" Oliver smiled sweetly at (f/n) which made her look away from embarrassment due to her childishness.

"I may have or may have not piqued the interest of the most dangerous guy in campus who goes by the name Luciano Vargas." (f/n) mumbled but Oliver was able to catch it.

"Oh goodness gracious!!! That won't do! I won't let my dear friend (f/n) be in danger! Worry not (f/n)! Me, Allen, Matt, and Francois will protect you!!!" Oliver beamed happily and clasped (f/n)'s hands.

"Oh my god! I know I could count on you! Unlike a certain guy I know..." (f/n) smiled menacingly towards Allen who just glared back in response.

"Excuse you!!! I don't think you'd need protection if you were a hair away from killing me moments ago!!!" Allen screamed in frustration while (f/n) just stuck out her tongue.

"Now now children cease this fighting at once." Oliver just sighed and pushed the two apart.

"Let's focus at the task on hand, alright?Without fighting this time ." Oliver smiled threateningly and stressed out the last words. Allen and (f/n) just grunted in agreement.

"(f/n), dear, we'll accompany you at all times, alright? Then if need to be you're free to sleep in either of our places okay?"

"Oi I never consented to this."

Oliver opted to ignore the protest to focus on reassuring (f/n), "But if you find yourself in a compromise, you have me on speed dial, okay?"

(f/n) nodded happily and hugged Oliver. "Thanks Ollie!!! You're the best! ♡"

"Anything for my precious friends, (f/n)" Oliver hugged back.

"Fucking manipulative bitch." Allen muttered under his breath.

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"Care to explain why (f/n) is in our house with a large bag that seems to be stuffed with her clothes?" Matt stated with a deadpanned voice as he looked at the two unamused.

" Oh it's nothing dear brother but just a very tiny and miniscule problem!!! You see this psychopathic bitch here just caught the attention of the guy who's on top of the list of 'Guys you should not fuck with on campus!' conveniently named Luciano Vargas who doesn't happen to be the heir of the local mafia. Then this bitch just manipulated Oliver to promise her protection. So here we are! Oh to top it off, it was conveniently set on the date were (f/n) had to pay the bill for her unpaid rent for the past 3 fucking months."

Matt just looked back and forth between the two and just sighed.

"You're an idiot, Allen." Matt went inside his room to retrieve a rope.

"You could've just given (f/n) a rope so she could just commit suicide and leave us out of her problem." Matt handed (f/n) the rope with a kind smile.

"I had this ordered online, I believe it's one of the best. I was supposed to give this as a gift for your birthday but I believe it's the right time to use it." (f/n) happily accepted the rope he handed her.

"Oi oi you can't be serious, Matt! Oliver would be furious!"

"We can just say that we were asleep when she happened to off herself. We can also just fake our tears."

Allen looked at Matt with a dumbfounded expression.How come he didn't think of that?

"You really are an idiot."

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"(f/n)".

(f/n) turned her head to the soft voice that called her out. She was face to face with ice cold blue eyes.

"Oh hey Matt. Al asleep?"

The blonde boy nodded and plopped down next to (f/n) at the porch.

"You can tell me anything, you know. I'm sure this isn't just because of Luciano, is it?" (f/n) closed her eyes and let out a small smile.

"Your perceptiveness sometimes unnerves me. But at the same time, it puts me at ease."

Matt hummed in response as they bask in comforting silence before (f/n) decided to break it.

"Hey do you think...I'm doing this living thing right?" (f/n) scrunched up her eyebrows trying hard to think.

Matt just let out a questioning hmm to urge (f/n) to explain further.

"I don't wan't to be overdramatic or anything but I feel...kind of tired, you know?" (f/n) let out a short laugh.

"I don't think the void in my heart is a valid feeling either. I...I don't even have a dark past yet here I am...feeling empty. Inhuman. I feel like I'm not supposed to feel this way, like an empty glass. There was no reason for me to feel depressed, my parents are doting and loving. I've never been bullied. My grades are decent. I'm not even on the verge of poverty. So how come? I don't understand, Matt. I don't understand the happiness that beams on people's faces nor the sadness that they try desperately to hide. I'm trying so hard. So hard to become human. Yet, the more I get to know the different faces of people, the more I feel alienated. I can't relate and I feel frustrated at being so. What's wrong with me?" (f/n) looked up at the night sky with a melancholic expression. "Sorry." she whispered.

Matt studied (f/n) before opening up to speak. "I don't think I'm not the person to give you words of advice or comfort."

"Because the guy who understood me is dead."

"Yeah, besides that. I may be a few levels more intelligent than my stupid brother but I'm not near as a genius like you so I don't think we share the same sentiments but what I do know is...what you're feeling now is, sadness."

(e/c) snapped to stare at the blond incredulously before bursting out in laughter.

"I understand now. Thanks, Matt. For being a great friend."

Matt smiled in acknowledment before continuing stargazing with his companion.

The night was cold but somehow they felt warm.

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"Fancy meeting you here, ragazza~ I believe it's fate that has led us to meet once again, hmm?" Luciano smiled all too sweetly. Behind him was his two friends. A japanese man with ruby red eyes and black hair named Kuro Honda. And a buff german man with light blond hair with purple eyes who's name was Lutz Beilschmidt. (f/n) obviously had to know the guy's friends so she won't happen to be accidentally kidnapped due to ignorance and brought to their troublesome group leader.

Also is that german guy looking at (f/n) in a lewd manner? The stench of male pheromones continue to contaminate the air.

"Don't you mean you stalked and researched me just so you can pretend we met by accident again? I eat here in the fields with my friends during lunch time like a routine. Never have I once saw you out in the fucking field. For all I know, you're always lurking in the shadows like a vampire." (f/n) grumbled as she began eating the sandwich that Oliver made for them.

"Also, who invited you, fucker?" Allen glared at the tanned male.

Luciano chuckled deeply before eyeing Allen, "Hmm hmm... potty mouth with deep russet colored hair and has a habit of bringing a bat covered with nails and threatening people around. Hmm hmm~ oh I remember!You're Allen Jones from one of those juvenile gangs aren't ya? Ah the one that requested protection under the mafia which I'm part of. Nice to meet you too, Allen. I'm pretty sure you know who I am by now~ Hope we get along!" Luciano smiled venomously towards Allen who just gruffed and looked away in annoyance.

Ah, the great feeling of being powerless.

"Now now... let's not resort to violence, okay? Hello Luci, what brings you here to our small tea party?" Oliver tilted his head slightly with a cheerful smile.

"Pfft ahaha luci? LUCI! Oh my god!!!" both you and Allen couldn't help but burst out in laughter with the girly nickname while Matt just rolled his eyes at their combined stupidity. The other guy who wasn't formally introduced yet but we'll mention, Francois just stared at the scene emotionless. Actually, he could just care less.

Luciano clenched and unclenched his fist on the childish display of mockery by his dear (f/n) and the punk Allen.

"Ciao Oliver, long time no see. As much as I'd like to exchange more pleasantries with you I came here for (f/n). So would you please, lend her to me for a while?"

Oliver hummed in response as he poured the tea.

"Just exactly what's your business with my dear friend, (f/n)? If I recall correctly, she was avoiding you like the plague and going as far as to request us to help her get away from you. While you can threaten Al, I do so believe that you can't do the same with I." Oliver dropped the cheerful tone in his voice as he looked Luciano dead in the eye.

"If you as so much hurt a hair on (f/n) or any of my friends I won't hesitate to treat you as my enemy."

In the background, (f/n) and Allen was cheering for Oliver's bravery while Matt just wanted to leave and be out of the mess. Meanwhile, Francois...could he just eat his lunch in peace? Maybe skip out this mandatory lunch tea party for a smoke.

As for Luciano's lackeys...they just seem to be irritated being under the light.

"No need to go all hostile on me, Oliver. I just wanted to tell our dear (f/n) here that I wish to go on a date with her."

"Excuse me but what?" (f/n) asked in bewilderment.

"Oh sweet bella~ I want to seriously start dating you, you know?I believe you've captured my interest when we first met. You may look like the average plain jane but your personality had stuck out to my mind. I conclude that this could be called infatuation, yes?"

1...2...3

"WHAT." (f/n), Allen, and Matt screamed in unison while Oliver just dropped his teacup.

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"To be honest, I'm beyond surprised that you could act so uh..."

"Civil?"

"Yeah. Kind of? I mean rumors have been circulating around that you're quite tempermental and the my way or die type." (f/n) scratched her cheek as she cautiously eyed the man infront of her.

"If I was, you do realize you should be dropping dead by now, ragazza?You just insulted me thrice." Luciano casually commented as he drank his wine with refined grace.

"Although it is true I'm quick to anger and my decisions are absolute, I'm quite the reasonable man. For example, if I was what rumors do say you wouldn't be invited in my apartment right now as a friend but rather you would've been kidnapped against your will and turned to my precious doll. After all, you had the suicidal decision of denying my request for an innocent date." Although the statement that was uttered meant no harm, (f/n) couldn't help but sweat bullets.

"Relax, bella. I won't do anything extreme that would warrant Oliver to hunt for my head. I just want to get to know you better. Our relationship doesn't have to be romantic. I can compromise with being friends." Magenta eyes bore unto (e/c) ones with underlying sincerity under the cold exterior.

Then it clicked.

Oh.

"You're as lonely as me."

Luciano smiled contentedly.

"I'm glad to share the same sentiments as you, ragazza."

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"Let me tell you a secret, (f/n)." a soft voice with japanese accent whispered to the small girl.

"Nobody truly is alone. Deep down to the core, humans will always be made of the same things. We're all unique but yet we're all the same. Do you know why?" the small girl tilted her head, pondering deeply.

"I don't know the answer, Kiku nii." The small girl scrunched up her face in confusion.

Warm brown eyes laughed in delight as his face crinkled in an endearing smile.

"It's because while people may always have distinct personalities and thinking, people are always lonely. Always looking for someone to understand. We're all imperfect beings so we always strive to find that missing piece to make us perfect."

The man, Kiku, the little girl called closed his eyes.

"You'll never find it, (f/n). The one thing you so call purpose. You will forever be lost in oblivion. Fear not, there would come a time were you would meet a person like you. A person who shares the same loneliness as you. And when that time comes you will feel liberated. You would know what it means to live and be human. Because by then you would realize you're not alone. It is by then that you would understand the statement that everyone is perfect by being imperfect. So stay strong, (f/n). Even if I pass away and wither, I'll always be alive in spirit if you took my advice to heart."

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(f/n) smiled sincerely and dropped her mask of insecurity.

Her eyes twinkled with amusement and content.

"I believe we'd get along just fine, Luciano."