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One of two pictures I'm doing in honor of this time of year.

March is a big month...memory wise, when it comes to Aaron. We got together to do music at least three times this month back in 2007, and in 2008 this was when he came back from school and we saw 10,000 BC with some friends.

March 3rd of 2007 was our second day spent together, and when I had dinner with his family the first time. We also held hands during the dinner prayer.
March 11th of 2008 was when we reunited after nine months.

If I sound obsessed, you might be right. All I know is I love him with all of my spirit, and I can't forget any precious moment we've spent together.

But I know nobody cares anymore so I'll spare you all the agony...pff.

Anyway, this should be familiar. I cropped that first photo of Aaron so I had his hands playing the piano and made a banner that says "Don't Stop the Music..." It was singing and writing with him that really got me back into making my own music again. I can't say it's finished; like with his portrait, I'll keep working on it.

And yes, remember he has really long fingers. I held up my drawing to the image on my computer to make sure it was right. If you don't believe my accuracy, check it against the banner in my journal...but remember the banner size is smaller.

He is right handed for those who don't know. Remember I said I wondered if he was right or left handed. Aranelion will still be left handed, but Auron is right handed.

I remembered that when we ate dinner together on two occasions I always sat to his left, so that means he's right handed or I'd remember us banging into each other as we ate since I'm right handed.

I remember when Hanson was on a show that used to play on VH1 that was called the Music Lives or something like "Don't Stop the Music" and that kinda inspired this phrase.

Even though Aaron and I can't be together, I won't stop singing our music, even if it's just me all alone.

That and music is part of everyone's lives. Like Zac Hanson said, "Music is the soundtrack of people's lives." I couldn't agree with him more.

I'd die just to hear Aaron play piano again. I can't listen to piano music without wanting to cry, feeling like my heart could stop.

If I sound dramatic, you're probably right, but then again, I'm very sensitive when it comes to Aaron. These memories are all I have left.

I mean, come on, he and I obviously don't care enough to call each other anymore. And since nobody and nothing else can bring us together anymore, we'll never have our chance. All I can do is cling to these stupid memories that everyone else is sick of.

...I'm going to submit an updated version of that portrait of Aaron. I like both this and the current version, and don't want to update the old one with the new one, so I'll post both of them.

That is if anyone cares.
I know everyone's tired of it.
I'm sorry.

I won't let him go, even if he thinks I don't give a damn, because I do. I can't help him or myself, but I won't stop loving him, nor will I stop hating the weakness in me that keeps us apart. I just...don't think he'll understand.

Sometimes goodbye is a second chance... ~ Shinedown

~ Camillia

Description
One of two pictures I'm doing in honor of this time of year.

March is a big month...memory wise, when it comes to Aaron. We got together to do music at least three times this month back in 2007, and in 2008 this was when he came back from school and we saw 10,000 BC with some friends.

March 3rd of 2007 was our second day spent together, and when I had dinner with his family the first time. We also held hands during the dinner prayer.
March 11th of 2008 was when we reunited after nine months.

If I sound obsessed, you might be right. All I know is I love him with all of my spirit, and I can't forget any precious moment we've spent together.

But I know nobody cares anymore so I'll spare you all the agony...pff.

Anyway, this should be familiar. I cropped that first photo of Aaron so I had his hands playing the piano and made a banner that says "Don't Stop the Music..." It was singing and writing with him that really got me back into making my own music again. I can't say it's finished; like with his portrait, I'll keep working on it.

And yes, remember he has really long fingers. I held up my drawing to the image on my computer to make sure it was right. If you don't believe my accuracy, check it against the banner in my journal...but remember the banner size is smaller.

He is right handed for those who don't know. Remember I said I wondered if he was right or left handed. Aranelion will still be left handed, but Auron is right handed.

I remembered that when we ate dinner together on two occasions I always sat to his left, so that means he's right handed or I'd remember us banging into each other as we ate since I'm right handed.

I remember when Hanson was on a show that used to play on VH1 that was called the Music Lives or something like "Don't Stop the Music" and that kinda inspired this phrase.

Even though Aaron and I can't be together, I won't stop singing our music, even if it's just me all alone.

That and music is part of everyone's lives. Like Zac Hanson said, "Music is the soundtrack of people's lives." I couldn't agree with him more.

I'd die just to hear Aaron play piano again. I can't listen to piano music without wanting to cry, feeling like my heart could stop.

If I sound dramatic, you're probably right, but then again, I'm very sensitive when it comes to Aaron. These memories are all I have left.

I mean, come on, he and I obviously don't care enough to call each other anymore. And since nobody and nothing else can bring us together anymore, we'll never have our chance. All I can do is cling to these stupid memories that everyone else is sick of.

...I'm going to submit an updated version of that portrait of Aaron. I like both this and the current version, and don't want to update the old one with the new one, so I'll post both of them.

That is if anyone cares.
I know everyone's tired of it.
I'm sorry.

I won't let him go, even if he thinks I don't give a damn, because I do. I can't help him or myself, but I won't stop loving him, nor will I stop hating the weakness in me that keeps us apart. I just...don't think he'll understand.

Sometimes goodbye is a second chance... ~ Shinedown

~ Camillia