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Published: 2009-04-07 01:41:51 +0000 UTC; Views: 261; Favourites: 3; Downloads: 2
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Description Yeah, the color in her face is too dark. The peach sharpie I used to highlight sorta took over the peach parts.

But I'm naturally tan skinned, so Camillia can be too.

Anyways....

Again, no I'm not depressed. Feeling let down...yes.
Have I lost hope? Kinda. Have I love faith? Absolutely not.

This song really explains how I'm feeling.

This song is off of Hanson's album, "This Time Around" and I can't tell you how beautiful it is. It was one of my immediate favorites off that album. Taylor sings lead, but I think his voice fits this song best.

(And remember these are Hanson's lyrics. Not mine. I don't want people to get confused and think I could ever write stuff this beautiful.)

Loving you, like I never have before.
I'm needing you, just to open up the door.
If begging you, might somehow turn the tides,
Then tell me to, I've gotta get this off my mind.

I never thought I'd be speaking these words,
I never though I'd need to say,
"Another day alone is more than I can take."

Won't you save me?
'Cause saving's what I need.
Well I just wanna be, by your side.

Won't you save me?
I don't wanna be,
Just drifting through the sea of life.

Won't you...listen please.
Baby don't walk out that door.
I'm on my knees,
You're all I'm living for.

I never thought I'd be speaking these words,
Heaven thought I'd find a way.
Another day alone is more than I can take.

Won't you save me?
'Cause saving's what I need.
Well I just wanna be by your side.

Won't you save me?
I don't wanna be,
Just drifing through the sea of life.

Suddenly the sky is falling,
Could it be it's too late for me?
If I never said I'm sorry,
Then I'm wrong, yes I'm wrong.

And then I hear my spirit calling,
I wonder if she's longing for me.
And then I know I can't live without her.

Won't you save me?
'Cause saving's what I need.
Well I just wanna be by your side.

Won't you save me?
I don't wanna be,
Just drifting through the sea of life.

Won't you save me?
Won't you save me?
Won't you save me?

The only problem with the song is that it is sung from a guy's perspective. Change she's longing to he's longing and change her to him...or possibly you, and it would fit me 100%.

Aww hell, it already does. Something insignificant like that doesn't mean a thing. It's the song's message that does.

You wonder if it's too late. You realize you should have done more but don't think you can. You realize he's reached out to you more than you ever did to him.

And just because he doesn't reach out anymore doesn't mean he doesn't care. Maybe he's just waiting for you to make the next move.

Besides, he's made more moves in the past that you haven't even come close to making yourself.

I mean...seriously. Ever since I've known Aaron, he's been the one to reach out. He was the one to call once in awhile just to chat. That's never happened to me before...EVER. He was the one to suggest the band. He was the one that was happy to see me even after I made the stupid mistake of letting my ex torture me. He was the one that would say, "Hey, let's get together and sing."

"I like her voice...I want to make music with her."

And the only times I ever called him, were to return calls about getting together to rake the stupid yard, and the rare occasion of calling him when I was scared.

Once I called him when there was a fire within meters of our house. An old shed of my great-grandfather's caught fire and nearly set our house on fire. I called him because I was panicking. He didn't answer, I left a message, he returned it because back then he didn't have so much to worry about. It was in the summer. No school. He had time for a "lesser" priority.

I shouldn't say that...he's my friend...

The other time was when a girl threatened to report me for stealing from her when I never did. I hadn't done a thing to her and she begins to trash me. I called him after I cried on my way home. He and I didn't talk much about anything. But he consoled me. He told me not to let her get to me. We talked about a band he made with his friends.

And yeah, I called him once after he left for his first year of school. Big whoop.

Three times I've called him to talk about garbage. I hardly think that measures up to how much he's reached out to me.

Which leads me to think he thinks I don't care.

Be honest. If you reached out to someone and they reacted like I've reacted to Aaron, would you think they cared?

I've had my mother and my best friend call him. I beg them to call him because I claim I don't have the strength to. I mean...unless they were to flat out tell him what's up, he's gonna think I'm weird.

He probably already does. He doesn't understand.

I mean...come on. I just...this is silly. Somebody's got to tell him exactly what's wrong. I can't play games with him anymore. It's not fair to him and it's not fair to me and those I care about. Beating around the bush has gotten me nowhere.

But I honestly don't think I can call him. We won't get into that again.

I'm about ready to hire a matchmaker...yet another victim of this to go explain this all to him. Short of "I love you" ...

I want somebody to tell him why I struggle with calling him. Somebody who really knows me and understands my struggle. I need him to understand why I'm like this. He's kind and caring, and has always been good to me. I know once he understands everything, it all be alright, whether we become a couple or not.

I need him, or somebody, to save me. I've been given too much to handle...well...not too much, but I've certainly not found the right way to deal with it.

...there, I said it all. That's how I'm feeling. I'm not depressed or sad or ready to quit or any of that bullshit.

I just...I'm lost...
And I need help.

"Heaven thought I'd find a way, but another day alone is more than I can take. Save me."

"Save Me" Song and Lyrics (c) Hanson
Camillia Starr and Art (c) *Inuyashas-hanyougirl

~ Camillia
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Comments: 15

QueenLeaShanneen [2009-04-11 12:28:09 +0000 UTC]

She needs a hug, but she looks great.

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ReverseTheEclipse In reply to QueenLeaShanneen [2009-04-15 00:46:29 +0000 UTC]

Thanks Shannon, and thanks for the fave! ^^

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QueenLeaShanneen In reply to ReverseTheEclipse [2009-04-15 09:39:43 +0000 UTC]

Anytime!

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IsisConstantine [2009-04-08 12:38:03 +0000 UTC]

very nicely done

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ReverseTheEclipse In reply to IsisConstantine [2009-04-09 00:01:23 +0000 UTC]

Thank you!

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IsisConstantine In reply to ReverseTheEclipse [2009-04-09 04:37:07 +0000 UTC]

you're welcome

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Dekaisen [2009-04-08 04:38:13 +0000 UTC]

If I could even talk to you I could help T_T I want to, ...and how are so many people doing those awesome emotes!? X3

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ReverseTheEclipse In reply to Dekaisen [2009-04-08 19:17:27 +0000 UTC]

Aww thank you

There's a list of emoticons here: [link]

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ElvesAteMyRamen [2009-04-08 00:08:03 +0000 UTC]

Aw, so sad! It's so hard with something like that because people show emotion in different ways. Just be patient and don't push things.

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ReverseTheEclipse In reply to ElvesAteMyRamen [2009-04-08 19:15:03 +0000 UTC]

Aww thank you so much I really appreciate it ^^

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KTWizard [2009-04-07 20:45:05 +0000 UTC]

I'm sure he just doesn't know what to say if he does call you. I mean, you've been apart from so long, it's no like he can just say, "Hey, what's going on?"
You'll be alright, I promise.

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ReverseTheEclipse In reply to KTWizard [2009-04-08 19:16:27 +0000 UTC]

You do have a point. Aaron's not gonna understand what all this is about unless somebody explains it to him. He's probably as confused as all get out.

Thanks KT

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Hedgehog-Rover [2009-04-07 02:03:40 +0000 UTC]

Aww poor Camilia!
It seems a beautiful song. Hanson looks know how cared to the public. Great composition buddy!

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ReverseTheEclipse In reply to Hedgehog-Rover [2009-04-08 19:15:48 +0000 UTC]

It is a beautiful song ^^ Thank you so much Martin, and thanks for the fave too!

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Hedgehog-Rover In reply to ReverseTheEclipse [2009-04-08 23:11:37 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome ^^

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