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"How it Is"
By: Lauren Starr 1/31/08-2/1/08

For Aaron,

I’ve tried for quite awhile,
To express a love so rare,
One I treasure deeply,
And for you alone I share.

I’ve tried so many times,
To show you that special love,
And so it’s grown and strengthened,
Every time it’s spoken of.

I feel I’ve shown the entire world,
My concern and care for you,
“Tell him,” they say whenever they can,
“And give this love the justice it’s due.”

I tell them they don’t understand,
How it’s not easy as they say,
I let the love out in words and song,
But say “I love you” as I pray.

I say, “God bless him tonight,”
“He means the world to me,”
“Keep him safe, let him know I care,”
“This is my somber plea.”

Inside my heart is dying,
Each day its dreams are crushed,
So desperate to reach out to you,
Its desires and spirit hushed.

I don’t understand why,
When every time I speak,
And try to say I love you,
I am silenced and become weak.

I cry when I ask myself,
“Why’s it so hard to let him know?”
“I love him more than life itself,”
“And yet it’s just too hard to show.”

There are some nights when I’m alone,
Though I try hard not to cry,
I tell that picture I have of you,
“I love you,” with tear-filled eyes.

I don’t weep because I miss you,
Though I’m sad when you’re not here
This love for you long made silent,
Is what falls with every tear.

I cry because I love you,
With each tear I love you more,
Never once have I loved anyone,
That was worth crying for.

I don’t think you understand,
Just how much it meant to see,
That someone with your beautiful soul,
Could ever care for someone like me.

Don’t think I’m lying when I say,
I thought I’d never be happy again,
I found hope when you came into my life,
I found hope just because you’re my friend.

I learned to live life and be happy,
Even without you close by,
But there’s only so much I can do,
Without letting my heart have a try.

In writing this to you tonight,
Once again I’ve done what I can,
To delay saying I love you,
And have even more since this story began.

What I don’t understand,
Is how we can love someone so much,
And never once be able to show them,
Just how deeply our hearts have been touched.

I don’t think you’ll ever know,
How much I love your soul,
No matter how many times I say it,
You’ll never know it in whole.

I guess the best way I can explain it,
And speak of my love for you,
Is no love other than this,
Was worth all I’ve been through.

I’ve never loved another soul,
Enough to say this while,
The tears spill over both my eyes,
And trickle off a smile.

Love is something you might suffer for,
I know this to be true,
The pain is more than worth it,
Just to be able to love you.

If I touch your heart tonight,
With everything I say,
It’s just the start of making up,
For all the love you’ve sent my way.

If you wonder why I love you so,
Or what it is you’ve done for me,
I can only say that’s how it is,
And how it always will be.

Now I’m ready to say it,
I only pray the feeling comes through,
No matter what happens to us tomorrow,
I’ll always, and forever, love you.

And that’s just how it is.

~ Lauren,

Description
"How it Is"
By: Lauren Starr 1/31/08-2/1/08

For Aaron,

I’ve tried for quite awhile,
To express a love so rare,
One I treasure deeply,
And for you alone I share.

I’ve tried so many times,
To show you that special love,
And so it’s grown and strengthened,
Every time it’s spoken of.

I feel I’ve shown the entire world,
My concern and care for you,
“Tell him,” they say whenever they can,
“And give this love the justice it’s due.”

I tell them they don’t understand,
How it’s not easy as they say,
I let the love out in words and song,
But say “I love you” as I pray.

I say, “God bless him tonight,”
“He means the world to me,”
“Keep him safe, let him know I care,”
“This is my somber plea.”

Inside my heart is dying,
Each day its dreams are crushed,
So desperate to reach out to you,
Its desires and spirit hushed.

I don’t understand why,
When every time I speak,
And try to say I love you,
I am silenced and become weak.

I cry when I ask myself,
“Why’s it so hard to let him know?”
“I love him more than life itself,”
“And yet it’s just too hard to show.”

There are some nights when I’m alone,
Though I try hard not to cry,
I tell that picture I have of you,
“I love you,” with tear-filled eyes.

I don’t weep because I miss you,
Though I’m sad when you’re not here
This love for you long made silent,
Is what falls with every tear.

I cry because I love you,
With each tear I love you more,
Never once have I loved anyone,
That was worth crying for.

I don’t think you understand,
Just how much it meant to see,
That someone with your beautiful soul,
Could ever care for someone like me.

Don’t think I’m lying when I say,
I thought I’d never be happy again,
I found hope when you came into my life,
I found hope just because you’re my friend.

I learned to live life and be happy,
Even without you close by,
But there’s only so much I can do,
Without letting my heart have a try.

In writing this to you tonight,
Once again I’ve done what I can,
To delay saying I love you,
And have even more since this story began.

What I don’t understand,
Is how we can love someone so much,
And never once be able to show them,
Just how deeply our hearts have been touched.

I don’t think you’ll ever know,
How much I love your soul,
No matter how many times I say it,
You’ll never know it in whole.

I guess the best way I can explain it,
And speak of my love for you,
Is no love other than this,
Was worth all I’ve been through.

I’ve never loved another soul,
Enough to say this while,
The tears spill over both my eyes,
And trickle off a smile.

Love is something you might suffer for,
I know this to be true,
The pain is more than worth it,
Just to be able to love you.

If I touch your heart tonight,
With everything I say,
It’s just the start of making up,
For all the love you’ve sent my way.

If you wonder why I love you so,
Or what it is you’ve done for me,
I can only say that’s how it is,
And how it always will be.

Now I’m ready to say it,
I only pray the feeling comes through,
No matter what happens to us tomorrow,
I’ll always, and forever, love you.

And that’s just how it is.

~ Lauren,