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Rising-At-Midnight — .:Vent:. Make it Stop
Published: 2013-01-10 23:06:57 +0000 UTC; Views: 633; Favourites: 35; Downloads: 4
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The thoughts I think
The words I hear
It all is the same
Worthless, Pathetic
The people around me
Those smiles
My smile
Lies
Loser, Cheater
I can't comprehend
The sense of right
Inside
Liar, Ignorant
All the words,
Sound the same
All I hear
is
Me
Everyday now, I seem to find something that will bring me down. And everytime, I find myself in ruins. And when my defense is down, my thoughts, oh my thoughts, they get to me. The thoughts I think, the words I hear inside my head, they are torture. Liar, Cheater, Worthless. All those things, the worse of me thinks of. I want to be something more, and I know those things, they aren't true. But when I'm down, when I'm here, in this hole I've dug for myself. Might as well just forget reality, and call this place my grave.
It's useless, to talk me out of it. If I could, if it'd help. I'd cut out my tongue, so I couldn't speak those terrible words. I'd tear off my ears, so I couldn't hear them. I'd gorge out my eyes, so I couldn't see the memories that run through my head.
It hurts, I wish... I wish there was some way, I could block it all out....
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*looks down and cries*
Well, that makes two of us
*looks back up*
It'll get better for u, but it's too late for me *starts turning to ash and gets blown away by the wind*
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I doubt itll get better for me honestly ^^" but i have hope in change. Right now rchange is something im not ready for. Maybe one day. Butnfor now. I can deal wih it all.
One step at a time.
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Yeah... one step at a time... just what ..."he" made me promise
*looks off into the distance
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Sugar. If i learned one thing in life. Its dont fall for guys.
One guy in my life changed my whole life, that guy was the only one i trusted. And i ended that. But, its something i have to live with. And u will too.
^^" its hard at first, it always is
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Yeah
Well, before my uncle died, that is what he told me.
And I do know that people who I love will die, but I will have to move on
Thank u ^^
*gives hug*
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i wish i could help you. in any way.
im so bad with words.
;w;
all i can do is (cyber)hug you an say I'm there for you ;o; ♥
anyways. uhm. you should draw gore more often c': me gusta mucho.
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^^" i'm not that good at gore lol. this is all I can really do lol. I do enjoy doing it tho, for venting, express my feelings.
Its okay dani, not everyone can help me. I mean, fuck, I cant even help myself most of the time XD
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god i love gore but i can't draw blood at all. it just looks like someone used my canvas as a tampon or some shit.
and okay ;v;
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Kso. I don't even know you but I'll rant. and I'm not talking you out of anything so.
Look, at least you know you're human, maybe you hate that fact, I don't know, but with whatever punches you in the stomach you go on living. Even if it hurts, there's always something that's going to hurt you every day, the only thing to do is create your own enjoyment in the only environment you know how, which is something you must discover. We make mistakes, and it hurts and we think we're stupid and worthless, but even though it's hard, you need to stop and think about the fact that without war there is no peace. Without failure there is no education. We learn from mistakes even if we make the same one hundreds of times.
If there were complete peace, the world would be hell.
When other people blame us we tend to blame ourselves also. It really does take two to tango, and we have to remember that the moment in time we are currently in isn't forever, and that days/weeks/months after a heart-gutting arguement with someone else, it eventually goes away, and life goes on. There will be things we'll NEVER agree one, things we'll 'hate' about the other. But that's all a part of human individuality, can you imagine a world where everyone agreed with everyone and there was complete world peace? It would be horrifying. Life would be boring, there'd be nothing to do, no movies or novels because there's no way to write a story without conflict. No art, nothing. Not to mention there'd be 75 billion babies dropping out of vagina's every second. That's too much love. Sometimes we need our space.
When someone or something drags you down, you have to convince yourself you'll be better, and rise above the day, striving to be magnificent, because everyone has it in them.
We tend to take it with an empty heart when people say it gets better. But it does, you just have to be strong enough to see it that way.
Pain in life is eminent. Suffering, is optional. We make our own misery.
In case you like music, here's some things that might cheer you up [or make you mad but sometimes you need to get it out, and it feels good.] though, I'm not sure what kind of music you like, so it has everything.
Advice - Christina Grimmie --> [link]
Open Happiness - WholeBunchOfPeopleYou'vePobablyNeverHeardOf --> [link]
Skyscraper - Demi Lovato --> [link]
The Pain - Tyler Cassidy --> [link]
Changin' Me - Cady Groves --> [link]
.... Actual Cannibal Shia LaBeouf - Some comedian --> [link]
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That isnt what i mean by this. Im not giving up. But i want help.
Yes here r bad moments and times as well as good. But when those bad moments come around
Depression and all. When they come around. Its hard to think positive Nd happy. When that happens. The reality of it all. Slips away.
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Well I wasn't quite sure what your situation was, so I just gave you an outlook. take it however you want. Just remember you aren't the only one who feels the way you do, you aren't alone and it gets better.
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That isnt what i mean by this. Im not giving up. But i want help.
Yes here r bad moments and times as well as good. But when those bad moments come around
Depression and all. When they come around. Its hard to think positive Nd happy. When that happens. The reality of it all. Slips away.
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Hope you feel better.
To feel happyness sometimes you got to feel pain too.
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*hugs* you could go listen "your gonna go far kid" by the offspring. It always makes me feel better
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to be honest... that song doesnt for me, it brings back... alot of memories, im sorry
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oh crap I am so sorry. It makes me feel better because I do things... like act like an idiot in my room when I am upset. it makes me feel better when I smack my toe, then listen to that song and start yelling at whatever I smacked my toe on that it's that one's fault. Then I go eat something. Smack my toe again... my face:
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lol ^^" that song, er, it just brings back memories I dont want to go into at the moment.
its not a bad song, not at all. it just has alot of meaning to me
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so far... i smacked my toe 3 times. sorry
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Sorry, Do you want a hug?
I hope you get better midnight.
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