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So I've been in a weird mood lately where I get really defensive about random, little things that don't even matter and I freak out and yell. I'm feeling really bad about this and I'd really like to stop. I think it might be because I feel like I'm not allowed to be upset about certain other things for the sake of the group or because they're not supposed to bother me or that expressing my feelings on the matter would not be the ~*adult*~ thing to do, that I should be above being upset.

Obviously, this backfires and I end up getting worked up over absolutely nothing.

I've noticed recently that all my friends are holding on so desperately to the innocence of childhood. There is nothing wrong with that of course, but to me, childhood was filled with such uncertainty that I actually yearn for the stability that comes with adulthood.

I want to be responsible, and mature, both physically and emotionally. The problem is, I don’t always know what the mature, adult thing to do is. I usually know what the childish, passive-aggressive thing I should not do is, but nothing else. It’s like I’m stuck at a crossroads where every path is blocked off except for the one I don’t want to take.

Even as I write this, I’m trying to come up with a way to apologize for being sad. I even titled this “Emoportrait,” as if how I feel isn’t important and that I should just suck it up and move on. What if I can’t? What if it just keeps building and building and I just explode? Wtf am I supposed to do then?

I have no idea.

In other news, this drawing is mildly terrible. Enjoy.

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So I've been in a weird mood lately where I get really defensive about random, little things that don't even matter and I freak out and yell. I'm feeling really bad about this and I'd really like to stop. I think it might be because I feel like I'm not allowed to be upset about certain other things for the sake of the group or because they're not supposed to bother me or that expressing my feelings on the matter would not be the ~*adult*~ thing to do, that I should be above being upset.

Obviously, this backfires and I end up getting worked up over absolutely nothing.

I've noticed recently that all my friends are holding on so desperately to the innocence of childhood. There is nothing wrong with that of course, but to me, childhood was filled with such uncertainty that I actually yearn for the stability that comes with adulthood.

I want to be responsible, and mature, both physically and emotionally. The problem is, I don’t always know what the mature, adult thing to do is. I usually know what the childish, passive-aggressive thing I should not do is, but nothing else. It’s like I’m stuck at a crossroads where every path is blocked off except for the one I don’t want to take.

Even as I write this, I’m trying to come up with a way to apologize for being sad. I even titled this “Emoportrait,” as if how I feel isn’t important and that I should just suck it up and move on. What if I can’t? What if it just keeps building and building and I just explode? Wtf am I supposed to do then?

I have no idea.

In other news, this drawing is mildly terrible. Enjoy.