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Was gonna upload this tomorrow, but figured I'd do it today since tomorrow I'm gonna be a bit busy.

Happy June, aka pride month. I first discovered I liked girls when I was 14, and for the longest time thought I was bi. I started to question my attraction to men around 16, but at the time I didn't think much of it and just kept labeling myself as bi because my mentality was that at least I could still be with a guy in the end and live an easy life.

When I was 18, I began to REALLY question myself and whether or not I was actually bi because whenever I thought about who I'd want to spend the rest of my life with, I always thought of girls, and I always felt more natural flirting and kissing girls than guys. I then got a boyfriend and long story short he made me realize I was not bi at all. Aside from the fact he was a jerk, it also made me realize sex with a man was... Bad. And I absolutely hated it. I also hated being with him because I felt like I was acting in some awkward play and not a real relationship. It honestly felt more like an awkward friendship than anything.

After breaking up with him, it took me some time to stop IDing as bi and use the lesbian label. I realized I had a certain "fear" of the word because of stigma, but ultimately I grew to accept myself. I even managed to date and have a relationship with another girl, and that honestly cinched the deal that I definitely was gay because being with her felt so natural and wonderful, and it was the first time I realized that this is what love was supposed to feel like.

Ever since coming out as a lesbian, I've been cutting my hair real short, wearing masculine-only clothes, and just generally being more myself than I had been in years, and I am so grateful. Despite how disgusting and suicidal I felt when dating my ex bf, I'm thankful I did it because it would not have pushed me to discover who I truly am.

If you're still struggling with your sexuality and feel like you need to figure it out ASAP: you don't. Just give it time and eventually the people you meet will help you realize who you are.

Happy pride month. 🌈

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Was gonna upload this tomorrow, but figured I'd do it today since tomorrow I'm gonna be a bit busy.

Happy June, aka pride month. I first discovered I liked girls when I was 14, and for the longest time thought I was bi. I started to question my attraction to men around 16, but at the time I didn't think much of it and just kept labeling myself as bi because my mentality was that at least I could still be with a guy in the end and live an easy life.

When I was 18, I began to REALLY question myself and whether or not I was actually bi because whenever I thought about who I'd want to spend the rest of my life with, I always thought of girls, and I always felt more natural flirting and kissing girls than guys. I then got a boyfriend and long story short he made me realize I was not bi at all. Aside from the fact he was a jerk, it also made me realize sex with a man was... Bad. And I absolutely hated it. I also hated being with him because I felt like I was acting in some awkward play and not a real relationship. It honestly felt more like an awkward friendship than anything.

After breaking up with him, it took me some time to stop IDing as bi and use the lesbian label. I realized I had a certain "fear" of the word because of stigma, but ultimately I grew to accept myself. I even managed to date and have a relationship with another girl, and that honestly cinched the deal that I definitely was gay because being with her felt so natural and wonderful, and it was the first time I realized that this is what love was supposed to feel like.

Ever since coming out as a lesbian, I've been cutting my hair real short, wearing masculine-only clothes, and just generally being more myself than I had been in years, and I am so grateful. Despite how disgusting and suicidal I felt when dating my ex bf, I'm thankful I did it because it would not have pushed me to discover who I truly am.

If you're still struggling with your sexuality and feel like you need to figure it out ASAP: you don't. Just give it time and eventually the people you meet will help you realize who you are.

Happy pride month. 🌈