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Published: 2005-11-01 06:07:03 +0000 UTC; Views: 20592; Favourites: 752; Downloads: 159
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Right now,I hate myself.
I hate everything about me.
I hate that I'm not beautiful,
I hate that I don't feel special,
I hate that I hate myself,
I hate everything about me.
I feel like I have,
This ball of depression,
Pushing down on the top of my lungs,
And my spine.
I don't know what to do,
It makes me feel sick.
And all I want to do,
Is vomit up my emotions.
And I have these notions,
That life isn't worth living,
When you're not living life,
But what is worth living life for?
I feel as if I have this fog,
Covering my brain,
And blinding my eyes,
And I hate it.
I hate feeling like no one cares,
I hate feeling like I've fixed me,
Just to find myself breaking apart.
I hate not knowing exactly how I feel and why,
Because it's all some tangled web.
I hate feeling like I'm going insane,
And there's nothing I can do to stop it.
I hate crying,
and how weak it makes me feel.
I hate feeling like I should be dying,
When my heart doesn't seem to care.
I hate people asking me what's wrong,
Because they're curious,
Not because they actually care.
I hate that when I look in the mirror,
All I can see is this broken wreck of my former self,
Who isn't anything like the person I want to be.
I hate that I never feel good enough,
And that I'm a failure to myself and everyone around me.
I hate that I'm always sick,
And that I never really feel perfectly good.
And if I do,
Someone is always waiting patiently,
To crush it, along with my heart.
I hate having my emotions chase me,
Just to find out I'm chasing them,
And they're leading me in a circle.
I hate it when people tell me something,
But they know they don't really mean it.
And I hate it when people won't admit,
Exactly how they feel,
Because they're just too afraid.
I hate people who have to make stupid jokes,
Every chance they get,
Because they can't handle how they feel.
I hate feeling like I'm the only one on earth,
Who understands how I feel,
Or who even cares.
I hate feeling this way,
And I hate hating everything.
I hate writing poetry,
And then feeling like it's faulty,
Just like me.
I hate being told to be positive,
When I hate it.
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Comments: 261
I feel like.. People just have a lot of time to write about this stuff.
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I hate myself.
I hate everything about me.
That life isn't worth living
When you're not living life,
But what is worth living life for?
I hate crying,
and how weak it makes me feel.
I hate feeling like I should be dying,
When my heart doesn't seem to care.
I hate people asking me what's wrong,
Because they're curious,
Not because they actually care.
I hate that when I look in the mirror,
All I can see is this broken wreck of my former self,
Who isn't anything like the person I want to be.
You just wrote exactly same thing in my mind. This poetry makes me feel like I'm reading inside of my head.
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This... is what we feel.. together.
You hit a mighty Stone when you wrote all these feelings!
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Felt this way plenty of times. Based off of this poem alone you seem pretty bad ass. Love they last line. You kick ass f*ck 'em!
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' I hate crying,
and how weak it makes me feel.
I hate feeling like I should be dying,
When my heart doesn't seem to care.
I hate people asking me what's wrong,
Because they're curious,
Not because they actually care.'
I have felt this way so many times in my life. Its, in a way, comforting to know that other people experience the same thing.
I hope you didn't write this while experiencing anything upsetting.
This was beautiful
- PaintBallFight
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I think I know that feeling...just working on a similar themend series of drawings, because I need an outlet of crushing emotions too.
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Somehow this text is so alive that I can see the person it is telling me about. Beautifully sad.
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This is true, I used to feel this way, but now I'm better. Depression is horrible
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im struggling through depression right now...and this is exactly how i feel...all this did was remind me of myself and it takes a lot to make me think back to my own emotions..it has to be something that grabs my attention...you my friends are a good writer...
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Thank you very much, I really appreciate your feedback and how you're feeling. I hope you get through all of this quickly. It really will be alright.
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You're not alone, i had depression for 4 years, now and i feel this way everyday.
I didn't became the teenager i wanted to be and i will certainly not become the adult that i would like to be.
I'm failing in school, my mother is sick and can't work anymore, soon i'll have to find a way to have money and find a job without having finished school. My father is mentally ill, so is little sister.
Anyways, you're a good writer and that's a really good poem.
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Hey, listen to me. I went through ALL of this growing up. I'm now 24 and back in college. I know it's hard, all I can say is please try not to give up your life for your family. I love my family very much, but you would actually serve them better pursuing a life and your dreams, and a college education!, where you can help take care of them better. I have every bit of faith in you, don't let life get you down. As always, Fight Back! I know you can do it
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I don't have dreams, my only goal in life is to protect and take care of my family.
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Hate something we all have too much of the time...
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I know how you feel like no one knows you knows the pain you feel
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I hate Seiryiga. He's a cruel person. I have hatred of him. And he cursed at me. He is NOT welcome in my essence.
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For some strange reason everyone feels like this. But if you could be the person you wanted to be, wouldn't everything still be the same?
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feel the same way right now, wish i could be someone else cause i don't wanna feel that way...
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i understand how do you feel .... i have feel that too
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this is pure awesomeness. everything perfectly describes my current feelings.
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This means a lot to me.....every word you said remined me of something form my life.
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This poem is describing what I am feeling right now. What I just read was simply deep and poetically accurate. Now I am reminded that there are other people in the world that feels the same turmoils and irrational madness whenever hate spreads throughout the body.
Thank you for writing this. I'm going to treasure this piece of literature.
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Thank you, that really means a lot. But even feelings like that pass.
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I love this poem, it seriously brought tears to my eyes. Thank you so much for posting this!It really is beautiful!!!
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this describes how i feel. thank you for writing this
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I feel like this is a perfect way to tell my life story
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Wow. Never thought my whole life could be put in words
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idk if there are words to describe how much i love it...
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