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"If only life was a little bit easier.
If only things were easier to forget.
If only feelings were less complicated.
If only dreams would actually mean something more than they do now.
If only there were more things to be living for.
If only I could rip apart the rotten parts of my heart.
If only I could fly on my own wings once again.
If only theye were not broken.
If only my decisions would be more intelligent.
If only there were no boundaries for my imagination now.
If only there weren't so many "ifs", I could tell that I am happy with what I have.
Seems like I just cannot be grateful for what I have."

There's been a lot of changes going on in my life lately. Some of them were good, some of them were bad... but I just have to learn how to live with that.
It's hard.
Having the mind with all of those memories.
Why can't I delete them like computer files?
Life would be so easy if I could.
If only there weren't so many "ifs"...
Maybe one day I could be happy once again.
For now, looks like I just have to get used to everything that has happened.
To forget.
And to keep living... just like I did before.
It won't be easy.
It won't be simple.
But I have to manage.
That's all.

All because of my emotive nature.
I have to stop doing what only my heart tells me, but also I have to think.
Maybe then everything would be better.
I have to try.

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Thanks to all of you who suppert me. Thanks to you, I'm finally able to understand more.
I love you all, my friends... and sorry for bothering you with my problems recently.
Fair enough, it's all better now.

Model: me
Photo: me
Manipulation: me

brushes from echoica.net .

Description
"If only life was a little bit easier.
If only things were easier to forget.
If only feelings were less complicated.
If only dreams would actually mean something more than they do now.
If only there were more things to be living for.
If only I could rip apart the rotten parts of my heart.
If only I could fly on my own wings once again.
If only theye were not broken.
If only my decisions would be more intelligent.
If only there were no boundaries for my imagination now.
If only there weren't so many "ifs", I could tell that I am happy with what I have.
Seems like I just cannot be grateful for what I have."

There's been a lot of changes going on in my life lately. Some of them were good, some of them were bad... but I just have to learn how to live with that.
It's hard.
Having the mind with all of those memories.
Why can't I delete them like computer files?
Life would be so easy if I could.
If only there weren't so many "ifs"...
Maybe one day I could be happy once again.
For now, looks like I just have to get used to everything that has happened.
To forget.
And to keep living... just like I did before.
It won't be easy.
It won't be simple.
But I have to manage.
That's all.

All because of my emotive nature.
I have to stop doing what only my heart tells me, but also I have to think.
Maybe then everything would be better.
I have to try.

----------------------

Thanks to all of you who suppert me. Thanks to you, I'm finally able to understand more.
I love you all, my friends... and sorry for bothering you with my problems recently.
Fair enough, it's all better now.

Model: me
Photo: me
Manipulation: me

brushes from echoica.net .