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shadowedpixie — Could You Ever Want
Published: 2010-01-20 02:54:43 +0000 UTC; Views: 100; Favourites: 1; Downloads: 0
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Do you desire?To hold my icy fingers
And warm me with a soft kiss to my hand?
I have no warmth of my own.
Could you imagine?
One day catching my eyes with yours
And holding my gaze with your soft stare?
It is hard to catch my eyes.
Do you think?
One day I could be
The thing that grants you bliss?
I have never felt bliss.
Would you ever want?
Your happiness to be in my heart
Where I could comfort it for you?
My heart has been broken and never repaired.
Do you wish?
My smile could be your inspiration
To walk another day on this planet?
My smile is only ever a fading memory.
Could you ever want?
Someone as broken as me
As cold and shy as I am
As deprived of bliss and satisfaction
As brokenhearted and unreliable
As sad as I am now?
Could you ever want?
To give a kiss to the hand of one
Who can't hold your love inside
And keep it
Nourish it and treasure it
All for herself?
Because I, yes me, I
Am perpetually cold.
Could you ever want?
To stare into eyes
Blank, blank eyes
Shy eyes that rarely have the courage to stare back?
Because those are my eyes.
Could you ever want?
To doom yourself
Into a love without bliss
A love that does not even know what bliss is
Because I, yes me, this is all me
I do not know what bliss is
Or how to make you feel
Something I cannot define.
Could you ever really want that?
Could you ever want?
To put your trust-
To have your happiness held-
In a broken vase of a heart?
Your happiness could be pierced
And cut into tiny pieces
And drip
Drip
Drip
Drip from my sharp, broken heart
From which has drained all my own happiness?
Could you ever want
To place your happiness
In a place that can't even hold my own happiness?
Could you ever want?
Your life to depend
On something that is forever fading
Fading faster like the dying daytime
Into the past?
Because that is where my smile is.
Could you ever really want your life to fade with that?
Answer me, please
Am I really what you want in life?
Am I truly the one that can give you life?
Can I be the one
To make your day, day after day?
Could it be possible
Could it be probable
That I am in fact a disappointment?
Tell me, please
Yell at me that I am exactly what you desire
Kiss my hand
Look me in the eye
Fill my heart with your happiness
See how I cannot smile
And tell me
Could you ever want?
Will you always want?
Not only always, but forever?
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Comments: 12
Takes some courage to post something so transparent...
It's a little haunting to me, because some of your choice of words are very much like wording I have used before as well (though for Pride I could never write this transparently.)
It is my belief that the only essential parts of love are the permanence of the choice, the actions and the loyalty that spring up from it. Attraction, or the "want to be with" part, is something else that happens differently for everyone...eye contact is not always a key player, and a state of brokenness is not always a show-stopper. (Some people like to fix things,
All of those other things are like buying the happy meal for the toy, or something.
If that makes any sense.
I don't actually know what I am talking about, I only think I do.
I like dogs.
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Thank you very much for your thoughtful comment.
I agree very much with you on everything you said, and I'd respond if you hadn't already said everything
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why i like it? well cause i like how thoughtful it is.. like umm whats the word.. i like the emotion and depth in it.. i like how u say it...but u dont..or say it and like without saying it
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oh well, i get what you're saying. thank you
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your welcome
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*curtsies*
now.... tell me WHY you like it.
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hmmm... that's pretty deep stuff. I've never faved a literary piece before, but this has struck me today as I somehow can relate to the feeling and sentiment it conveys to me.
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Aww, thank you very very much
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why thank you *curtsies*
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You have such cool writings
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