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"The Regret"

Personally, I kind of read it like it was a song from Eminem... I don't know. It's the only thing that made it sound... well fluent... *Sigh* It's been a tough week... more details below...

So here I am wandering around
Listening to the sky
I cry
Everything's gone awry
Why
Did I believe in you?
You ruined my life
With love
I thought I needed
I succeeded
Exceeded
And cut short
What happened?
You were there then not
I sought and searched
For your soul
No goal
Just wanted you
By my side
For a ride
Roll with the tide
You moan
Groan
Between the sheets
And back seats
I travel to you
For you
Only you
Yet I come back with nothing
I lost you to what?
Outside influence
That didn't belong
He ruined you and I
Not that you care
But later that year
You came to me
Asked me to do it again
And again
Rolling around the grass
Grabbing your ass
Hearing you moan
Music to my ears
Turning gears
Till 1 AM
Steaming
Burning away
Felt so good
I couldn't control
My emotions
In motion
With your body
I watched you smile
Upon that hill
I will
Be still
For you moving
Your hips
That night
To remember
And yet I never saw you again
When
Will you come back?
Never?
Alright.
Let me be
Alone
In my mind
Stuck in a bind
You don't want me
Yet you did
All that
You got me believing
But all you wanted was my semen
Not even for birth, a new life
Just all over the place
That's all? You're kidding.
This isn't love. It's lust.
What wrong with you?
This isn't you.
Five almost six years ago
Innocent girl
A lovely young woman
Didn't know anything
Now you're nothing
But a drinking party girl
Who plays with hearts
Like they're nothing
Garbage
Sewage
Only meant to dispose
Oppose
What's that sound?
You're crying?
For my love
For my care?
I'll be in despair
If I'm involved with you
Again and again
Again
Again
I'm in despair
Look at these cuts on my wrists
Look at the blood
Watch it drip
From my wrists
My eyes
I'm tearing from the sky
The clouds they cry as I drown myself again
You say you still want it
What for?!
You better turn around you little whore
I'll give you what you want
Somewhere else
Some other time
I'm tired of the pain
The strain to stay sane
And alive
Just watch the blood drip
Again and again
And again and again
You wanted it and now
It's all over your hands
Smeared on your face
My blood
Not what you thought
No, no it wasn't
It's what you get
Because it's what you gave me
Your gate to my pain
Was your hate in my brain
I thought it was love
Wish I could back off
And back
To fix it again
I never met you
Never knew you
Not far back enough
So further back I go
The butterfly effect
It'll happen soon
I'm back in the womb
Strangling myself
With the cord
Couldn't kill myself alive
Why try?
I'm immortal, that's right
My friends tell me every night
So I'll die before I'm born
I'll avoid the storm of blood
And all that you wanted
My love
My fluids
All that I cared for in you
Your beautiful soul
At least it was
Now you're a horrid spirit
In a beautiful body
Now I'm here
To stop it
You'll stay pretty
And I'll get what I want
To die
No that's not a lie
Look at me fly
Through the clouds
With my wings
I don't need nothing
To keep me going
I'm going with the flow
I'll go my way
I still cry all day
I'm glad I died
But why
Did you have to leave me behind?
You said I was perfect
Now I'm perfectly dead
Enough said
Go back to bed
And not in the dirt with me
You live your own life
I gave you too much
Showed you the easy way out
Life is harder now
So go show
All that you know though
I don't see you getting far
You're falling apart
Dying at the start
Breaking your heart
It's a target with a dart
Straight in the middle
Where it's lethal
You're gunna die
Why
You don't know?
You ain't got no life
You ain't got no love
You've lost your support
Abort?
Nope
You're stuck with it now
You kicked me out
I'm done with your life
Where's you God now?
I got mine, so where is yours?
You said I didn't believe
Now I do
So? Did it really matter?
There's Hanyuu, Arceus,
and Haruhi
That's pretty chill with me
You see?
What's wrong with these
Choices that I make
It doesn't hurt me
But you're still alone
You lost your God
You lost the only one
Who you say truly loved you
For who you are
Well, who loved you is dead
I'm officially done
No matter what I felt
It's gone
I'll talk
Help out
Accompany you on walks
Through the phone, at least
But listen up, I'm through
With you
And all the things you do
Go
Live your life
Without me
I'll fly by you
For you
And watch
As you breathe
As you step
Again and again
And again and again
I'll be gone
For long
But don't think
I never loved you
Even after all you did
I'll always love you
From when I die
And born again
Again and again
Again
Again
Again….