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Angel or a demon
It came from my soul
I'm guilty of treason
abondon control

30 seconds to mars - stranger in a strange land

It started a few days ago.. with a really weird sleeping pattern. I couldn't fall asleep. I just couldn't. And if I managed it to do so I woke up again just after a few hours. While I slept I had strange dreams, of demons and fear and, well things you would call nightmares. But somehow I never feared those things while dreaming, just when I woke up they shocked me. Also I heard undefinable noises at night, like whispers, and once something like scratching and stuff that sounded as if someone would run around outside... but still different.
While driving back home again I nearly had a panic attack in the car. Somehow I managed it to not show anything on the outside, anyway I've always been good at that.
Since I'm here again, two days so far I just feel awful, like desperate or so but at another point completely callous, too.
Sleeping got a bit better, but not really...
I'm not sure what's wrong with me lately, I mean I already had phases in which I felt 'desperate' but in a different way and always without this wicked symptoms.
I don't want comments on this, I'm afraid. Not because I don't appreciate them but because I think I have to deal with this by myself. I'll be fine again so please don't worry xx

Description
Angel or a demon
It came from my soul
I'm guilty of treason
abondon control

30 seconds to mars - stranger in a strange land

It started a few days ago.. with a really weird sleeping pattern. I couldn't fall asleep. I just couldn't. And if I managed it to do so I woke up again just after a few hours. While I slept I had strange dreams, of demons and fear and, well things you would call nightmares. But somehow I never feared those things while dreaming, just when I woke up they shocked me. Also I heard undefinable noises at night, like whispers, and once something like scratching and stuff that sounded as if someone would run around outside... but still different.
While driving back home again I nearly had a panic attack in the car. Somehow I managed it to not show anything on the outside, anyway I've always been good at that.
Since I'm here again, two days so far I just feel awful, like desperate or so but at another point completely callous, too.
Sleeping got a bit better, but not really...
I'm not sure what's wrong with me lately, I mean I already had phases in which I felt 'desperate' but in a different way and always without this wicked symptoms.
I don't want comments on this, I'm afraid. Not because I don't appreciate them but because I think I have to deal with this by myself. I'll be fine again so please don't worry xx