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-If any of you can read Hiragana, yes, that's intentional-
Ahem, well, anyways.
This is the ref sheet with a new design for one of my oldest Characters, Lizzy!
I tried to keep things, like her bow on the collar, her hair and most parts of her character,
but I definetly refined a lot and cut a lot of cringy edgy shit heh..
And man, because I don't want to spoil anything I really had to hold myself back on the information I give.
So if anything seems off, that's intentional. Heh.

Character and Art ©2017 Silverleinchen
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A few more things about her character, because it was really complicated to work out and I definetly didn't manage to put it all on there:
She is not supposed to be a cute character, not at all. She tries to be cute on "normal" days and totally fails. Instead, she is really clingy and almost kind of annoying, and even though she is being nice and tries to help people, she doesn't actually care about them, because she doesn't feel anything towards those people she is supposed to have been friends with for years.

A few more things about her character, because it was really complicated to work out and I definetly didn't manage to put it all on there:
She is not supposed to be a cute character, not at all. She tries to be cute on "normal" days and totally fails. Instead, she is really clingy and almost kind of annoying, and even though she is being nice and tries to help people, she doesn't actually care about them, because she doesn't feel anything towards those people she is supposed to have been friends with for years.

About her BPD
Of course, she is not bipolar 24/7, that's what I meant by "normal days", but on her depressive days (which usually last for a week), she usually just sleeps and feels miserable a lot. She doesn't know where her disorder came from and can't remember ever having bipolar disorder before the accident, but now she does and has to kind of deal with it. Usually she tries to sleep to avoid her feelings. She doesn't feel like she has a proper Identity, she feels lost and doesn't know where she belongs, because even though she remembers most parts of her past, it doesn't feel like those things happened to her.

During her Mania days (which always occur after her depression phase and last about 1 day to a week, it varies) she wakes up extremely angry and aggressive. She almost doesn't need to sleep at all and she can't, aswell. Usually she sleeps about 4 hours maximum, which is why she always has dark circles during that phase. She is extremely confident and hateful during those days and because of that, she avoids people, since she doesn't want to seem strange or hurt them. She still throws around things and swears a lot, though, even if she is alone. However, if she does come in contact with people, if she can hold herself back, she just insults and screams at them. If she does not hold herself back (either because she doesn't want to or the other person provokes her) she gets really aggressive, tries to hit them or scratch their skin open and in worse cases, if she has some kind of weapons, doesn't hesitate to use them.

After those Mania phases, she regrets everything (may it only be destroying the plates or in worst cases hurting another person) and loathes in self-hate, before trying to ignore what happened and fleeing into her every-day life.

And her Shizophrenia
On normal days, she can deal with her shizophrenia. She sometimes thinks one of her friends said something they didn't, or confuses people with her dead family members. She often talks to herself, either because she feels like she is actually two people, or because she is lonely and makes up other people she can talk to (especially during her depression phases) but she tries not to do that in public.

During her Mania phases, however, it gets a lot worse. She constantly talks to herself, screams at herself for doing things she doesn't want to do, or screams at herself to do exactly those things. She imagines the voices of her family members, especially her sister, who keep telling her to harm others or to destroy things.

Description

-If any of you can read Hiragana, yes, that's intentional-
Ahem, well, anyways.
This is the ref sheet with a new design for one of my oldest Characters, Lizzy!
I tried to keep things, like her bow on the collar, her hair and most parts of her character,
but I definetly refined a lot and cut a lot of cringy edgy shit heh..
And man, because I don't want to spoil anything I really had to hold myself back on the information I give.
So if anything seems off, that's intentional. Heh.

Character and Art ©2017 Silverleinchen
____________________________________________________________________________________________

A few more things about her character, because it was really complicated to work out and I definetly didn't manage to put it all on there:
She is not supposed to be a cute character, not at all. She tries to be cute on "normal" days and totally fails. Instead, she is really clingy and almost kind of annoying, and even though she is being nice and tries to help people, she doesn't actually care about them, because she doesn't feel anything towards those people she is supposed to have been friends with for years.

A few more things about her character, because it was really complicated to work out and I definetly didn't manage to put it all on there:
She is not supposed to be a cute character, not at all. She tries to be cute on "normal" days and totally fails. Instead, she is really clingy and almost kind of annoying, and even though she is being nice and tries to help people, she doesn't actually care about them, because she doesn't feel anything towards those people she is supposed to have been friends with for years.

About her BPD
Of course, she is not bipolar 24/7, that's what I meant by "normal days", but on her depressive days (which usually last for a week), she usually just sleeps and feels miserable a lot. She doesn't know where her disorder came from and can't remember ever having bipolar disorder before the accident, but now she does and has to kind of deal with it. Usually she tries to sleep to avoid her feelings. She doesn't feel like she has a proper Identity, she feels lost and doesn't know where she belongs, because even though she remembers most parts of her past, it doesn't feel like those things happened to her.

During her Mania days (which always occur after her depression phase and last about 1 day to a week, it varies) she wakes up extremely angry and aggressive. She almost doesn't need to sleep at all and she can't, aswell. Usually she sleeps about 4 hours maximum, which is why she always has dark circles during that phase. She is extremely confident and hateful during those days and because of that, she avoids people, since she doesn't want to seem strange or hurt them. She still throws around things and swears a lot, though, even if she is alone. However, if she does come in contact with people, if she can hold herself back, she just insults and screams at them. If she does not hold herself back (either because she doesn't want to or the other person provokes her) she gets really aggressive, tries to hit them or scratch their skin open and in worse cases, if she has some kind of weapons, doesn't hesitate to use them.

After those Mania phases, she regrets everything (may it only be destroying the plates or in worst cases hurting another person) and loathes in self-hate, before trying to ignore what happened and fleeing into her every-day life.

And her Shizophrenia
On normal days, she can deal with her shizophrenia. She sometimes thinks one of her friends said something they didn't, or confuses people with her dead family members. She often talks to herself, either because she feels like she is actually two people, or because she is lonely and makes up other people she can talk to (especially during her depression phases) but she tries not to do that in public.

During her Mania phases, however, it gets a lot worse. She constantly talks to herself, screams at herself for doing things she doesn't want to do, or screams at herself to do exactly those things. She imagines the voices of her family members, especially her sister, who keep telling her to harm others or to destroy things.