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It felt like someone had ripped my heart right out of my chest, but this pain was different, it filled me with anger and hate.
"Are you…? You can't leave me Erik." As I finished the sentence I started screaming it at him.
"Why can't I Natalie?" His voice was calm like this was just any normal convocation. I stood in silence, looking at my feet, not quite knowing what to say. "So…Why not?"

"Because… I put up with you for so long" I started throwing my fists at him, pounding him chest. "You where never around, most of the time it seemed like you didn't care bout me… about." Mid- sentence tears started to stream down my face. My small, white room started spinning around me, I felt sick and full of adrenaline at the same time. Not quite shore what to do with my self I fell back onto the bed, looking up at my purple ceiling wondering what would happen next.
"So why didn't you break up with me? It shore would have saved you the pain and this convocation." He looked at me, not shore whether to laugh or cry.

Because I love you – but the words didn't leave my mouth, instead came –
"It's complicated, I can't explain it properly."
"Then try Natalie, please try"
My cheek began to burn, I look up at Erik. The walls seemed to be getting closer to me, like they where closing in, letting me have no escape, just like there was no escape from answering the question. I took a deep breath to calm myself, my chest pounding. Over and over again I run the situation though my head,. Finally I forced the words for my lips.

"I love you…" The flow of tears had slowed to a trickle, rolling down my cheek, catching the light, creating a small rainbow in its reflection.
Erik began to speak. "Don't you mean loved?" he was stood there with his strong arms folded across his chest. He looked smug as though he knew exactly what I was thinking.
"No, no I mean love."
His arms fell to his side. The smug grin became a sad, confused expression. He sat down beside me and for the first time, he was speechless.

"But doesn't matter now I guess, you haven't loved my for ages." I began to laugh but Erik cut in.
"Natalie you have no idea how I feel do you? You might have been putting up with me not being around but you didn't exactly come and find me either."
"Sometimes"
"Once! So how would you know if I stopped loving you?" He wiped a tear from his cheek. He was crying, ERIK WAS CRYING!! HOLT COW!

I didn't know what to say, he was right, I didn't go and find him everyday. Maybe I should have. Maybe… Maybe I wasn't good enough.
"Erik, what do you want me to say?" I put my hand to his cheek; his face was hot and was still wet from the tears.
"Don't say anything. Just listen a minuet. I know I'm not perfect but neither are you. It's really hard for me to be around you for to long, because, well, because I feel like I'm not good enough for you. Your right I shouldn't want to go and see my friends for a fag more than you, but I don't know how to slit my time. I'm a completely different person around you." He took my hand and was looking into my eyes, forcing me to look back into his. Oh, how I loved his gorgeous blue eyes. They where like sapphires, so perfect and precious, just like the memories, even the bad ones.

"Hay, listen to me. You are good enough, to me your more than that, you're everything I always wanted. Do you understand that? You perfect!" I went to hug him, but he put his hand out to stop me.

"Let me finish. If anything ever happened to you, I don't know what I'd do. You're more special to me then anything material. I guess I just don't know how to show it properly. But I'm so scared that I'm the one that's going to hurt you. I mean, Amelia talked to me yesterday, and she told me how you feel every day when I'm not around and it sounds like I'm already hurting you."
"But not being with you would kill me."
"I know that now, I was only breaking up with you because I didn't think that you loved me anymore, I thought you hated me for the way I was treating you, but that's all going to change now. I still love you Natalie, I always have." He paused for a moment, deep in though, choosing the right words. "Do you think, maybe… you could ever forgive me?"

"Erik" –
"Yes?"
"I already have. There's nothing that could stop me loving you, nothing in the world."
His face filled with joy, practically glowing he took my waist and pulled me close stroking his hair, I kissed his cheek still warm for when he had been crying. He pulled me in even closed, tight up against his torso. Wrapping his arms around me, breathing heavily he said. "You are so beautiful; you are the kind of girl that makes me fall in love, I will always love you, I promise"

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It felt like someone had ripped my heart right out of my chest, but this pain was different, it filled me with anger and hate.
"Are you…? You can't leave me Erik." As I finished the sentence I started screaming it at him.
"Why can't I Natalie?" His voice was calm like this was just any normal convocation. I stood in silence, looking at my feet, not quite knowing what to say. "So…Why not?"

"Because… I put up with you for so long" I started throwing my fists at him, pounding him chest. "You where never around, most of the time it seemed like you didn't care bout me… about." Mid- sentence tears started to stream down my face. My small, white room started spinning around me, I felt sick and full of adrenaline at the same time. Not quite shore what to do with my self I fell back onto the bed, looking up at my purple ceiling wondering what would happen next.
"So why didn't you break up with me? It shore would have saved you the pain and this convocation." He looked at me, not shore whether to laugh or cry.

Because I love you – but the words didn't leave my mouth, instead came –
"It's complicated, I can't explain it properly."
"Then try Natalie, please try"
My cheek began to burn, I look up at Erik. The walls seemed to be getting closer to me, like they where closing in, letting me have no escape, just like there was no escape from answering the question. I took a deep breath to calm myself, my chest pounding. Over and over again I run the situation though my head,. Finally I forced the words for my lips.

"I love you…" The flow of tears had slowed to a trickle, rolling down my cheek, catching the light, creating a small rainbow in its reflection.
Erik began to speak. "Don't you mean loved?" he was stood there with his strong arms folded across his chest. He looked smug as though he knew exactly what I was thinking.
"No, no I mean love."
His arms fell to his side. The smug grin became a sad, confused expression. He sat down beside me and for the first time, he was speechless.

"But doesn't matter now I guess, you haven't loved my for ages." I began to laugh but Erik cut in.
"Natalie you have no idea how I feel do you? You might have been putting up with me not being around but you didn't exactly come and find me either."
"Sometimes"
"Once! So how would you know if I stopped loving you?" He wiped a tear from his cheek. He was crying, ERIK WAS CRYING!! HOLT COW!

I didn't know what to say, he was right, I didn't go and find him everyday. Maybe I should have. Maybe… Maybe I wasn't good enough.
"Erik, what do you want me to say?" I put my hand to his cheek; his face was hot and was still wet from the tears.
"Don't say anything. Just listen a minuet. I know I'm not perfect but neither are you. It's really hard for me to be around you for to long, because, well, because I feel like I'm not good enough for you. Your right I shouldn't want to go and see my friends for a fag more than you, but I don't know how to slit my time. I'm a completely different person around you." He took my hand and was looking into my eyes, forcing me to look back into his. Oh, how I loved his gorgeous blue eyes. They where like sapphires, so perfect and precious, just like the memories, even the bad ones.

"Hay, listen to me. You are good enough, to me your more than that, you're everything I always wanted. Do you understand that? You perfect!" I went to hug him, but he put his hand out to stop me.

"Let me finish. If anything ever happened to you, I don't know what I'd do. You're more special to me then anything material. I guess I just don't know how to show it properly. But I'm so scared that I'm the one that's going to hurt you. I mean, Amelia talked to me yesterday, and she told me how you feel every day when I'm not around and it sounds like I'm already hurting you."
"But not being with you would kill me."
"I know that now, I was only breaking up with you because I didn't think that you loved me anymore, I thought you hated me for the way I was treating you, but that's all going to change now. I still love you Natalie, I always have." He paused for a moment, deep in though, choosing the right words. "Do you think, maybe… you could ever forgive me?"

"Erik" –
"Yes?"
"I already have. There's nothing that could stop me loving you, nothing in the world."
His face filled with joy, practically glowing he took my waist and pulled me close stroking his hair, I kissed his cheek still warm for when he had been crying. He pulled me in even closed, tight up against his torso. Wrapping his arms around me, breathing heavily he said. "You are so beautiful; you are the kind of girl that makes me fall in love, I will always love you, I promise"