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So I was on a certain website reading some KS discussion and I saw someone request a picture of Hanako dressed as Mu-12. "Hot damn" thinks I, "Blazblue and Katawa Shoujo? There's no way I could pass up something like this!" So I sketched it up and threw it out into the wild. Then I realized just how strange this was for me, I never post anywhere or talk to anyone online (hell I barely keep up my DA page), so why was I so eager to fill some random stranger's request? I actually started getting nervous, thinking what if he doesn't like it? What if someone else was doing the same request and theirs was better? Or worse, what if me posting stopped them from working on it? What if he left and never even saw it? My hands were shaking and sweating and I sat in that thread for what felt like hours scanning for a reply. Then, I saw it, "it's beautiful, thanks." My heart raced. I hadn't felt that happy for a long time, genuinely, truly happy. I always dismiss any approval out of hand, but this was different. What reason would this person have to lie? We've never met, and we'll never talk again. Why shouldn't I accept that succinct praise then? I think the request coming from a total unknown helped too, since I didn't feel any pressure set up any kind of pretense. We didn't have any history together, any secrets I wanted to keep him (or her) from finding, I just went at it as a blank.

The whole experience reminded me of middle school, when I'd spend all day drawing comics and pass them around the class. I can barely remember how eager I was share those ideas I had with everyone, especially since I started hoarding my art right afterwards like a hermit. I was so focused on getting better at expressing myself that I forgot to even express myself, but I think this at least brought me back to why I bothered with this stuff in the first place.

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So I was on a certain website reading some KS discussion and I saw someone request a picture of Hanako dressed as Mu-12. "Hot damn" thinks I, "Blazblue and Katawa Shoujo? There's no way I could pass up something like this!" So I sketched it up and threw it out into the wild. Then I realized just how strange this was for me, I never post anywhere or talk to anyone online (hell I barely keep up my DA page), so why was I so eager to fill some random stranger's request? I actually started getting nervous, thinking what if he doesn't like it? What if someone else was doing the same request and theirs was better? Or worse, what if me posting stopped them from working on it? What if he left and never even saw it? My hands were shaking and sweating and I sat in that thread for what felt like hours scanning for a reply. Then, I saw it, "it's beautiful, thanks." My heart raced. I hadn't felt that happy for a long time, genuinely, truly happy. I always dismiss any approval out of hand, but this was different. What reason would this person have to lie? We've never met, and we'll never talk again. Why shouldn't I accept that succinct praise then? I think the request coming from a total unknown helped too, since I didn't feel any pressure set up any kind of pretense. We didn't have any history together, any secrets I wanted to keep him (or her) from finding, I just went at it as a blank.

The whole experience reminded me of middle school, when I'd spend all day drawing comics and pass them around the class. I can barely remember how eager I was share those ideas I had with everyone, especially since I started hoarding my art right afterwards like a hermit. I was so focused on getting better at expressing myself that I forgot to even express myself, but I think this at least brought me back to why I bothered with this stuff in the first place.