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As soon as I saw him, I knew I loved him. That sounds really corny doesn’t it, but that’s how it was. He walked into our class, the "new kid", and sat down next to me. I introduced myself as soon as our teacher shut up (which for the record took 20 mins, man can he talk). And we talked and kind of worked. And that’s what we did all day and the next and the next. We talked everyday in every class and we instantly became mates. Until one day he came round to my house as he had done many times before, except this time he was drenched. He didn’t have a car so he walked everywhere and only 5 mins ago it had started to pour down. So I said hi and went and got him a towel I came up to him and put the towel around his shoulders and started to rub his arms to get him warm, then he leaned in and kissed me he pulled back, I was surprised and didn’t want him to stop then he spoke I came around here just to do that, I need you but I understand if you don't want me. No I interjected no okay then he continued ill just go No I said again and reached for him and pulled him into my arms "I need you to" and then we kissed and kissed and kissed.......

A few months later he had gone to get us lunch and a girl from our class walked up to me purposefully so purposefully it scared me. Her words scared me even more
Do you no where Lee was last weekend
No. I replied
Coz I do. She shot back
Do I care I. I was starting to get very sick of this conversation
Yes because he was with that new girl in her room ... DO I NEED TO SPELL IT OUT FOR YOU
Yes I didn’t want to have to say it
He was cheating on you and-
Shut up he wouldn’t
Actually he would - she smirked while looking over my head - why don’t u ask him
I turned around I saw by the look of his face he had heard part of what we were saying and I also knew from the look of him it was true
I - I I I started a sentence but every time I knew that if I started a million more I would never be able to say what I felt so I turned and walked away he called after me but
But I didn’t no what to do so he ran after me and grabbed me
Please let me explain
LET YOU EXPLAIN U HAD IT OFF WITH ANOTHER CHICK BHIND MY BACK WAT ELSE IS THERE TO SAY? I exploded in his face
I - I he also started a sentence that he couldn’t finish, and then he found the words
I don’t care about her it was an accident I went to borrow her accounting books to catch up from
when I was sick and she jumped me I got her off and left straight away I didn’t tell you because I didn’t want you to leave me you’ve got to understand I want you
I no you want me that’s not the point that’s not what’s important I could have accepted it I trust that u don’t want her that is was one-sided
but what I'm upset about is that u didn’t trust me you tried to hide it from me you didn’t trust me that’s what I’m upset about and if we don’t have trust we don’t have anything
but but I love u
I turned and looked at him never in our 10 months of going out had he or I ever said that when we said it we wanted it to be special and in some strange way it was
Please I love you and trust you I only did it for fear of hurting you please don’t go............
I stood there and realised everything if I walked away I would make the biggest mistake of my life so I walked up to him and said to him
I do love you you should know that by now but...
but.........
Do you promise me you dont care about her
Yes
Do you promise me that it only happened this once
Yes
Do you promise me that it wont happen again
Yes
Do you promise me you love me and trust me
Yes yes of course
then i guess i dont no
please just say it, I no you can tell me you love me and that you trust me please i need you even more than when i first told you please
And i realised in a second that I knew, I knew it was a mistake, I knew he didnt care about her, I knew he loved me and only me, He was mine and mine alone so I reached for him and kissed him then pulled away from him and said to him i need you too