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Hey mom.

Haven't said much in a while. Probably because I blocked your number.

What? No, I'm not mad at you. After all, you did nothing wrong, didn't you?

...can I believe you..?

You broke your promise mom. I gave you my trust and you betrayed me like it meant nothing to you. You've lied to my face, and called me a disgrace behind my back of all places, in front of my sister's faces, which were tear streaked when they told me what you had said. They don't trust you either.

I'm not sure what's sadder. The fact that you kicked me out or the fact that I was relieved to get away from you. You made me out as a villain. But we all know who's the imposter.

Parents are supposed to be pillars that hold you up and support you. But you tore the other parent down, and when voiced my hearts wounds, you stepped back and let me fall the rest of the way.

And what's worse is the audacity you had to give me a hug as I left your home. The home you didn't want me to be a part of anymore. The home you tore to shreds. The only thing we knew is gone.

What did i know? You were always so nice, assuring, positive, loving. Who are you now? Who have you ever been? Am i really the failure you accuse me of being? Do you really not want me anymore? Am I that untrustworthy? That unlovable?? Was all the positive things you said lies in hopes I'd "get better?" Did you really care at all? I'm doubting my entire childhood, every word you ever said, every hug you gave me, every laugh, every smile, every time I thought you believed in me, every time you said that you loved me... Because you loved dad once. Now you hate him. Do you really hate me too? Please mommy, what did I do? You believe in loving everyone, even your enemies. Why am i so bad to be an exception to that? Why don't you love me anymore??

...so, yeah. It's been a while. I keep trying to put myself back together again, say things I need to say, breathe, do human things, but it's hard. I know dad says it's just blind rage, but... How could you do this to anyone, let alone me? The person you had claimed as your precious special daughter, torn down now. Worthless. How?? Who are you? Have i ever even known my own mother? Have i ever even known myself?

I wouldn't know. I'm broken. When you took away your heart, you took the love out from under me...

Description
(Sadness warning/personal life stuff/*cri*)

Hey mom.

Haven't said much in a while. Probably because I blocked your number.

What? No, I'm not mad at you. After all, you did nothing wrong, didn't you?

...can I believe you..?

You broke your promise mom. I gave you my trust and you betrayed me like it meant nothing to you. You've lied to my face, and called me a disgrace behind my back of all places, in front of my sister's faces, which were tear streaked when they told me what you had said. They don't trust you either.

I'm not sure what's sadder. The fact that you kicked me out or the fact that I was relieved to get away from you. You made me out as a villain. But we all know who's the imposter.

Parents are supposed to be pillars that hold you up and support you. But you tore the other parent down, and when voiced my hearts wounds, you stepped back and let me fall the rest of the way.

And what's worse is the audacity you had to give me a hug as I left your home. The home you didn't want me to be a part of anymore. The home you tore to shreds. The only thing we knew is gone.

What did i know? You were always so nice, assuring, positive, loving. Who are you now? Who have you ever been? Am i really the failure you accuse me of being? Do you really not want me anymore? Am I that untrustworthy? That unlovable?? Was all the positive things you said lies in hopes I'd "get better?" Did you really care at all? I'm doubting my entire childhood, every word you ever said, every hug you gave me, every laugh, every smile, every time I thought you believed in me, every time you said that you loved me... Because you loved dad once. Now you hate him. Do you really hate me too? Please mommy, what did I do? You believe in loving everyone, even your enemies. Why am i so bad to be an exception to that? Why don't you love me anymore??

...so, yeah. It's been a while. I keep trying to put myself back together again, say things I need to say, breathe, do human things, but it's hard. I know dad says it's just blind rage, but... How could you do this to anyone, let alone me? The person you had claimed as your precious special daughter, torn down now. Worthless. How?? Who are you? Have i ever even known my own mother? Have i ever even known myself?

I wouldn't know. I'm broken. When you took away your heart, you took the love out from under me...