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That’s how I left it. With a tear sliding down my face I prayed I didn’t know the answer. They are questions I am not suppose to ask and now, upon pondering them one too many times, I feel there is no point. No point in trying to understand, no point in trying to make things better because I will hurt anyway, you will hurt anyway. I am in love with that which is killing me. I think it is worth all the pain I need to feel...but do you? My inner demons are having fun slowly ripping up my heart. It hurts more with you. It hurts most with the thought of being without. They probe and stab and wait for it to heal and scab then they reopen these thoughts and emotions. They haunt me every second of the day because you are forever on my mind. If it makes you happy, I will be silent. I will blend in like before so you can forget me or that there ever was a me. I will just watch and wait for the day my pain might reside. All I ever wanted on this earth was someone like you...and I found you but you are just out of my reach...I will keep running, I will stay as close as I can to you. I will fight until I breathe my last, if you let me....Because all I ever wanted was you.

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That’s how I left it. With a tear sliding down my face I prayed I didn’t know the answer. They are questions I am not suppose to ask and now, upon pondering them one too many times, I feel there is no point. No point in trying to understand, no point in trying to make things better because I will hurt anyway, you will hurt anyway. I am in love with that which is killing me. I think it is worth all the pain I need to feel...but do you? My inner demons are having fun slowly ripping up my heart. It hurts more with you. It hurts most with the thought of being without. They probe and stab and wait for it to heal and scab then they reopen these thoughts and emotions. They haunt me every second of the day because you are forever on my mind. If it makes you happy, I will be silent. I will blend in like before so you can forget me or that there ever was a me. I will just watch and wait for the day my pain might reside. All I ever wanted on this earth was someone like you...and I found you but you are just out of my reach...I will keep running, I will stay as close as I can to you. I will fight until I breathe my last, if you let me....Because all I ever wanted was you.