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I'm so tired. I just can't anymore.
Everything is so chaotic. Life sucks. I want to scream but I can't.
I don't want to live but I don't want to die.

I dont even know who I can trust anymore. My friends dont even seem like my friends. No way to tell if they want to be my friend or if they pity me.
Im such an embarrassment to them. I cant live up to any expectations. But I dont want to be alone.

Im worried. Not about me though. I could hardly give a shit about myself.
My sister is drinking, smoking, stealing, sneaking out, running away for days on end. I worry for her safety. But no matter what she refuses to get help.
She doesnt love me, but I doubt I deserve it anyways. It still hurts though.

Im called a furry like its a bad thing. I am, but it hurts that I have to hide it just to avoid bullying.
I wish I could just share it with someone I know irl.
I hear people I know making fun of them and I feel powerless to do anything
I hear people say they want all furries to die. To burn them with fire. That they want me to die.

I feel horrible about myself. And nobody seems to tell me otherwise.
The internet is my one outlet, and my parents want to take that away from me.

I act like everythings fine. I hide behind a smile. I bottle up all my emotions and hope that they go away.
Im getting help, but it doesnt feel like enough.
I know there are people who have it worse than I do. I wish that made it better but it cant.
Sometimes I think that if I pretend its not happening then itll stop. But it wont. it never will.

Im sorry to everyone I have payments for. They'll have to be a bit delayed further. I'll work on them here and there when I can.
May be slow to reply.

Description
VENT - Potentially sensitive topics below

I'm so tired. I just can't anymore.
Everything is so chaotic. Life sucks. I want to scream but I can't.
I don't want to live but I don't want to die.

I dont even know who I can trust anymore. My friends dont even seem like my friends. No way to tell if they want to be my friend or if they pity me.
Im such an embarrassment to them. I cant live up to any expectations. But I dont want to be alone.

Im worried. Not about me though. I could hardly give a shit about myself.
My sister is drinking, smoking, stealing, sneaking out, running away for days on end. I worry for her safety. But no matter what she refuses to get help.
She doesnt love me, but I doubt I deserve it anyways. It still hurts though.

Im called a furry like its a bad thing. I am, but it hurts that I have to hide it just to avoid bullying.
I wish I could just share it with someone I know irl.
I hear people I know making fun of them and I feel powerless to do anything
I hear people say they want all furries to die. To burn them with fire. That they want me to die.

I feel horrible about myself. And nobody seems to tell me otherwise.
The internet is my one outlet, and my parents want to take that away from me.

I act like everythings fine. I hide behind a smile. I bottle up all my emotions and hope that they go away.
Im getting help, but it doesnt feel like enough.
I know there are people who have it worse than I do. I wish that made it better but it cant.
Sometimes I think that if I pretend its not happening then itll stop. But it wont. it never will.

Im sorry to everyone I have payments for. They'll have to be a bit delayed further. I'll work on them here and there when I can.
May be slow to reply.