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  The songs I wrote alone on my bed fills the room as I try to walk through it to get to the bar but people I don't know or have ever talked to is grabbing me trying to pull me in directions I know I can't find any drinks. Smiling and laughing I try to find CC or Ash though it's pretty much in vain seeing as the room is filled with moving bodies and strangely enough most of the people I think are my friends turn out to be women. I know both of them would hate me if they knew I mistook fans for them and still it brings a sincere chuckle from me making the girl pressing herself into my side beam thinking she did that. Her hands are all over me in a way I don't really like but has to stand not to have our management yell at me for being so prude and I fake another smirk at her while placing a hand on her lower back. A shudder runs through me as she pushes her fake nails underneath the hem of my jeans and I want to scream at her not to touch me when someone suddenly grabs me from behind laughing madly.

"Mind if I steal my little Andy away for a minute?"
"Of course not! You enjoy "your little Andy" all you want Ashley. Can I have him back later?"
"We'll see, if I wear him out too much I can't promise anything though."

  Her eyes are wide in something I think is delight but don't really want to think about as anything other then shock and when Ash places his lips against the naked skin of my shoulder she moans loudly. Disgusted by the sound I turn to my best friend then throws my arms around his neck and pulls him as tightly against me as I can without suffocating him before forcing him to back away from the woman in what I hope looks like a playful manner. I can feel her stare bore into my back as the man a head shorter then me starts laughing against my chest and I join him because I don't know what else to do really which causes us to cling tighter together. I really wish I had peed before leaving my dressing room because the situation is being more then hilarious and when I double over not to piss myself I see Jinxx's boots appear in front of us followed by Sammi's high heels or so I assume anyway. The bubbling sound coming from me in between hiccups can be laugher but it might as well be me crying because my head is all messed up until Jake suddenly pulls me up to standing again. I try to focus on him at the same time CC helps Ash from the floor though he keeps laughing hysterically then breaks free and comes up to me wrapping his arms around me the same way as before.

"Sorry guys. I'm making sweet love to Andy tonight and there is nothing you can do about it."
"How about I hide the keys to your hotelroom?"
"Not going to help Jinxxie, I can afford renting a new one."
"I'll steal all your lube!"
"I got a stash you don't know about. Take that stealer man!"
"How are you supposed to get to your stash if I got the key to your room though?"

  The face Ashley pulls as he realizes our guitarist has a point neither of us can deny is priceless and if I wasn't already giggling furiously at the absurdity of the situation I would definitely start now. One glance at Sammi tells me I'm not the only one loving this and when she points at Ash while laughing her head off I join her going so hard I need help to stand up and Jake looks at me with an expression I can't read but who cares? I'm enjoying myself for the first time in days without being on stage and I love the feeling of not having a worry in the world though I seem to be the only one as Jinxx offers me a hand. The very well known gesture that he needs to talk to someone is a reached out hand with his palm against the ceiling and I place my fingers against his before letting go of Jake only to be gently pulled closer to my friend. I have nothing to fear from the man so I follow him as quickly as I can when he pulls me away from the dancing masses and I can't help but smile teasingly at the people we pass as they call out for us.

"Come dance with us Andy!"
"Later!"
"Show us some moves Andy!"

  Moving my hips from side to side to the sound of "Sweet Blasphemy" I earn myself cheers and shouts of encouragement but it's over before long as Jinxx pulls me through a door behind the bar to have some private time with me. I wish I knew what he is about to tell me though I have a pretty good idea it has something to do with being weak and I suddenly fear being alone with one of my best friends. Once more I hate my own mind for being so fucked up and when he looks at me I look away unable to meet his gaze and I see why he sighs at my behaviour but I can't help it as I turn from him to see that we're in a small dressing room. It makes sense the bar has its own staff quarters though I was expecting something less fancy then this and probably with more posters then actually paintings like those on the walls but who am I to have any opinions about this stuff? He clears his throat to get my attention so why don't I look at him when I know the only reason he brought me here is so he can find out why I'm so jumpy and depressed and maybe help me if he can? Why can't I face him when I know he is only trying to do what is good for me and will help the band the way any good family member would?

"Andy?"
"…yeah?"
"Talk to me?"
"She left…"
"Juliet?"
"Yeah."
"Shit. I'm sorry man. I didn't know. Have you told the others?"
"No."

Description
  The songs I wrote alone on my bed fills the room as I try to walk through it to get to the bar but people I don't know or have ever talked to is grabbing me trying to pull me in directions I know I can't find any drinks. Smiling and laughing I try to find CC or Ash though it's pretty much in vain seeing as the room is filled with moving bodies and strangely enough most of the people I think are my friends turn out to be women. I know both of them would hate me if they knew I mistook fans for them and still it brings a sincere chuckle from me making the girl pressing herself into my side beam thinking she did that. Her hands are all over me in a way I don't really like but has to stand not to have our management yell at me for being so prude and I fake another smirk at her while placing a hand on her lower back. A shudder runs through me as she pushes her fake nails underneath the hem of my jeans and I want to scream at her not to touch me when someone suddenly grabs me from behind laughing madly.

"Mind if I steal my little Andy away for a minute?"
"Of course not! You enjoy "your little Andy" all you want Ashley. Can I have him back later?"
"We'll see, if I wear him out too much I can't promise anything though."

  Her eyes are wide in something I think is delight but don't really want to think about as anything other then shock and when Ash places his lips against the naked skin of my shoulder she moans loudly. Disgusted by the sound I turn to my best friend then throws my arms around his neck and pulls him as tightly against me as I can without suffocating him before forcing him to back away from the woman in what I hope looks like a playful manner. I can feel her stare bore into my back as the man a head shorter then me starts laughing against my chest and I join him because I don't know what else to do really which causes us to cling tighter together. I really wish I had peed before leaving my dressing room because the situation is being more then hilarious and when I double over not to piss myself I see Jinxx's boots appear in front of us followed by Sammi's high heels or so I assume anyway. The bubbling sound coming from me in between hiccups can be laugher but it might as well be me crying because my head is all messed up until Jake suddenly pulls me up to standing again. I try to focus on him at the same time CC helps Ash from the floor though he keeps laughing hysterically then breaks free and comes up to me wrapping his arms around me the same way as before.

"Sorry guys. I'm making sweet love to Andy tonight and there is nothing you can do about it."
"How about I hide the keys to your hotelroom?"
"Not going to help Jinxxie, I can afford renting a new one."
"I'll steal all your lube!"
"I got a stash you don't know about. Take that stealer man!"
"How are you supposed to get to your stash if I got the key to your room though?"

  The face Ashley pulls as he realizes our guitarist has a point neither of us can deny is priceless and if I wasn't already giggling furiously at the absurdity of the situation I would definitely start now. One glance at Sammi tells me I'm not the only one loving this and when she points at Ash while laughing her head off I join her going so hard I need help to stand up and Jake looks at me with an expression I can't read but who cares? I'm enjoying myself for the first time in days without being on stage and I love the feeling of not having a worry in the world though I seem to be the only one as Jinxx offers me a hand. The very well known gesture that he needs to talk to someone is a reached out hand with his palm against the ceiling and I place my fingers against his before letting go of Jake only to be gently pulled closer to my friend. I have nothing to fear from the man so I follow him as quickly as I can when he pulls me away from the dancing masses and I can't help but smile teasingly at the people we pass as they call out for us.

"Come dance with us Andy!"
"Later!"
"Show us some moves Andy!"

  Moving my hips from side to side to the sound of "Sweet Blasphemy" I earn myself cheers and shouts of encouragement but it's over before long as Jinxx pulls me through a door behind the bar to have some private time with me. I wish I knew what he is about to tell me though I have a pretty good idea it has something to do with being weak and I suddenly fear being alone with one of my best friends. Once more I hate my own mind for being so fucked up and when he looks at me I look away unable to meet his gaze and I see why he sighs at my behaviour but I can't help it as I turn from him to see that we're in a small dressing room. It makes sense the bar has its own staff quarters though I was expecting something less fancy then this and probably with more posters then actually paintings like those on the walls but who am I to have any opinions about this stuff? He clears his throat to get my attention so why don't I look at him when I know the only reason he brought me here is so he can find out why I'm so jumpy and depressed and maybe help me if he can? Why can't I face him when I know he is only trying to do what is good for me and will help the band the way any good family member would?

"Andy?"
"…yeah?"
"Talk to me?"
"She left…"
"Juliet?"
"Yeah."
"Shit. I'm sorry man. I didn't know. Have you told the others?"
"No."