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This obscure week was preceded by a romantic one. Spring Break was already a good deal, but a romantic one with your boyfriend made it even better. Monday he presented you with flowers on your doorstep before he took you off to the movies. Tuesday he sent you hourly texts that all followed the central theme of "I love you." Wednesday was when he took you out on a surprise formal dinner to meet with his other teammates, and although that was fun, sleeping on his shoulder during the car ride home was the best part. Thursday, Ushijima and you had a lazy, old-fashioned stay out home movie day where you cuddled underneath the mountains of blankets. Friday he took you to his practice where he glanced over at you everytime he were to make a huge play. Saturday and Sunday were him driving you around to wherever your wallets and credits took you.

And although that was great and all, it made you upset that for the last two days, Monday and today being Tuesday, he gave you absolutely no attention whatsoever.

The texts became shortened, your conversations turned into a few words, and there was no romantic interaction. You weren't quite sure what was going on at the moment, but you were sure as hell going to find out.

•

Hot, boiling water. Whenever you were feeling down, you usually took a nice, hot shower to get your mind off things. In this case, with your current 'relationship' with Ushijima, this shower was especially long.

Somehow, just standing there as the hot water ran down your body really cooled you down. Instead of your muscles becoming more tense with the burning sensation flowing along your skin, they actually loosened. Clear of any thoughts, your mind was blank with your eyes shut closed. This truly was the perfect remedy for dealing with a not-so-great day.

When you've been in the shower for far too long, thus the wrinkly hands, you reached for the shower handle and turned the water off. The bathroom tile was cold, you noticed as your foot slowly pressed against it after stepping out of the shower.

The worst part about showers is knowing that you have to do your hair....

•

Sliding your fingers through your hair and looking at your reflection in the foggy mirror, you smiled at the great work you did. Taming natural hair was hard work.

Just as you were to comb out some areas that needed it, a small buzzing sound emitted from a distance. A close distance. A very close distance. Not to be dramatic, though. You looked over at the source as you realized it was just your phone that was next to your sink.

You secretly desired it was Ushijima, although you would never admit it. But to your dismay, it was just your friend (f/n) with a peculiar question.

(f/n): uh have you seen your bf's recent post on instagram? ?

Curiosity of what was on his insta replaced every other thought in your mind. You pressed your finger onto the Touch ID pad on the home button as your phone menu came up. Taking a slow, deep breath, you pressed the iMessage app and quickly replied to her with a:

(y/n): oh no i haven't yet, but i'll go check now.

Not knowing what to expect, you pressed the home button again and opened the Instagram app and looked up Ushijima's profile. You unconsciously leaned against the counter as you saw a peculiar picture for his latest post. It was him, your boyfriend Ushijima, with some girl with curly hair. You clicked on it, and all the caption had was a red heart emoji. The comments went along the lines of "aww" and "you two are goals."

Your heart sunk. He never posted pictures of the two of you.....on anywhere. But it seemed like he had no problem posting this one.

Setting your phone down, you rubbed your temple in an attempt to nullify the stress, although it wasn't helping at all.

You quickly opened iMessage again to text (f/n). What the heck was going on?

(y/n): i saw it....do you kno who that is? ?? the girl i mean.

The little "..." appeared as you waited for her to reply. But as a;ways, she applied in no time.

(f/n): i actually have no idea? ive never seen her b4

(y/n): do you think i should confront him??? ?

(f/n): ah, not this time, honey. as much as i love this kinda stuff, you need to find more evidence

You sighed, she was right....as always.

But what evidence did you need besides this? Then again, this was probably something stupid like the girl was his cousin or something. And why would he post it where anyone could see it? Where you could see it. See? This was all just some big misunderstanding.

Right?

•

Going to school didn't seem like the most ideal thing for you at the moment, but since you were required to, you just had to deal with it. The worst part was having to see him. As you approached the school, surrounded by old buildings with graffiti-scarred walls, you noticed Ushijima in the front with the same girl with the picture. Not trying to blow your cover, you hid behind a nearby tree to spy.

The horrifying sound of a fake, girly laugh emitted from the girl's throat as she twirled her finger through her perfect curly hair. How disgusting. The more disgusting thing than this disgusting situation was that Ushijima was completely fine with it! I mean, of course he kept his permanently stoic face, but usually his emotions were displayed in his eyes. But this time, there was nothing except a slight sense of serenity. Ah, what a perfectly close tree to spy on them with, but at the same time, you wish you hadn't seen it.

•

The school day was filled with misleading hope and utter disappointment. You forgot to study for a pop-quiz in history and you were supposed to do your part for your project in English. But how could you? You were entirely focused on your relationship during the break and weekend. Not to mention the countless times Ushijima would say 'hi' to you and you wouldn't respond. There was a time during lunch where he poked you to talk, but you completely walked away from him.

As you slowly trudged along to exit the building, relatively fast footsteps come from behind you. Closer and closer, louder and louder, until finally you turned around to see Ushijima towering over you.

"Why have you been avoiding me all day?" He simply asked, a pinch of sternness apparent in his voice.

Blinking a few times, not entirely sure on what to say to him, you came to the inevitable conclusion that you were just going to wing it, "What? I don't know what you're talking about?"

He stared at you, deeply without any mercy, "Stop playing games, (y/n). I am very aware that you have been purposely avoiding me all day. For example-"

You cut him off, "Okay, okay. I was avoiding you....but there was a reason for it."

"And this reason was..?"

"Ah, let's talk outside in private." You suggested, an unsure smile crawling up on your features. He nodded as you both walked side-by-side to go outside.

An uncomfortable silence lingered in your surrounding air, as you two walked. As you reached a more secluded area to the side of the school, Ushijma looked down at you, an uninterested expression was clearly showcased on his facial features.

"Well, what is it." It was more of a demand than a question.

"So, um..you see," You averted your gaze, hoping to be able to explain yourself clearly. "On Instagram, I saw you post a picture, which is cool, but you took it with another girl? But the thing is, you never take or post any pictures of me or the two of us. So really, this whole thing was just really saddening, i guess? I'm sorry for not talking to you about this sooner, but I guess I just didn't know how to confront you before...not that I did just now..because you did, sort of. Um, you know what I mean!"

You could've handled that better, but as the saying goes, what's done is done. You expected this to all blow over soon and for him to forgive you, like all the countless times he had forgiven you before. But doubt soon replaced some of that expectant hope as he became silent for a moment. And this wasn't just regular silence, he was deep in thought, you could see it in his eyes.

"Why did you doubt me." He said with a cold, unforgiving glare. There was no light in his brown orbs.

You were stunned, paralyzed where you stood. You couldn't believe what you were hearing. Were your ears deceiving you?

"What do you-"

"I have never doubted you before. You didn't even ask me about it. If you had asked, I would have told you." He silently seethed.

Your hand made its way on your hip, exaggeratedly, "Oh yeah? Then who was he exactly?

"She is my cousin." You freaking knew it.

Shaking your head and holding out your hand to him, you began with a happier tone, "Ah, I'm sorry! It was my mistake, and I'm sorry for not talking about it! How about we can just forget about this?"

He shook his head as turned around to walk away, "I'm not sure I can."

Your hand stood in its place as he walked off, leaving it hanging desperately for someone to grab on to it. But no one was.

•

Three months. It had been three entire months since you two broke apart. Of course, him being the all mighty Ushijima moved on in the blink of an eye. He was currently interested in the new manager for the Shiratorizawa volleyball team, and they were very attractive. But that didn't change the fact that you always gave them the hairy eye every time you two shared glances in the hallways. Not only did he have a new romantic interest, but he also became even better and skilled in volleyball. Ushijima's fanbase grew bigger, and he even got featured in an entire article in a popular sports magazine. And with all of that happening, he never looked at you. It was as if it, the breakup, didn't happen. It was as if you didn't happen.

The worst part of the break-up was how easily he could move on. It was like he never cared about the relationship to begin with. You, on the other hand, didn't have the luxury of forgetting.

Every morning, for as long as high school begun, he always went through your neighborhood to get to school. Now that you don't go with him anymore, you have the privilege of watching him go to school with the new manager.

Without Ushijima, your world was blue.
Your life was grey, and your heart became cold.
Your eyes became red from the crying of loneliness kept yo up at night.
Green envy grew inside you, as you saw how quickly he moved on,
and you didn't realize how sad you really were how your doubt tore you two apart..