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A/N: Hey everyone! Another songfic for you!
Listen here please!

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Oh, I don't know why you're not there

I give you my love, but you don't care

So what is right and what is wrong?

Give me a sign

    The pit of growing anxiety that was your stomach began to churn. Every step, every thought, every breath reminded you of him. You had always been a fighter, a survivor, but you didn’t know how you could possibly win this battle when it was against yourself. Every part of your mind told you to get up and continue on without him, but then your heart would begin to ache and your stomach would explode with unresolved nerves. Deep down you knew that you still needed him in your life and that the two of you would meet again in the future. You just didn’t know when.

    A sigh passed through your parted lips as you looked at your reflection. Your face had grown thinner; the anxiety being so bad on most days that you couldn’t even eat. It’s not that you didn’t want to eat, you physically couldn’t. When you finally managed to stomach the food, you just felt like you would throw it up anyways, so you just stopped eating. It was easier than having the food settling uneasily in you. So you ate when you could and lost weight as a result. You had always wanted to be thinner anyways.

    You walked from your bathroom and sat on your bed. It was comfortable, but far too empty. He had helped fill all the spaces in your life, so now that he was gone you were left with half of everything. The bed was too big without him, the walks too lonely…

    You shook your head at where your thoughts were going. You knew you would be okay if you could just get him out of your head. That was where your real troubles began; getting him out of everything that you did.

    You stood in frustration and walked to the kitchen, opening the fridge by habit. Nothing had changed since you last opened it, so you closed the door with a sigh.

What is love?

Baby, don't hurt me

Baby, don't hurt me

No more

    Your main regret was falling in love with him. His onyx locks, his piercing eyes that always knew how to read your face. Despite his outer stoic demeanor he was soft and gentle on the inside. He had cared deeply about you and you had fallen for every minute of it.

    There had been no bad between you two. That made it so much harder. He had been your perfect man; the best thing that had ever happened to you… And now he wasn’t there anymore; gone like each second that ticks by. He was something you had loved and had never imagined you would lose. But you did lose him; he had left, like everyone else.

    The one condolence you were left with was that he hadn’t wanted to leave you. His career had demanded him to be elsewhere, and so he had no choice. Maybe he hadn’t fallen in love with you quite yet or perhaps he would have asked you to come with him. But he had voiced his regret over leaving you while he left. He had acknowledged how much you meant to him, so at least you had that.

    A tear softly rolled down your cheek. You didn’t bother to wipe it away; there was no one to see anyways.

    You knew that no matter how much he had liked you, you still weren’t with him anymore, and that was what hurt you the most. You wanted nothing more than to be with him always, for that was what love created; a big mess of all your feelings that centered around that one special person. But regardless of his feelings or yours, you were still hurting, still crying.

Oh, I don't know, what can I do?

What else can I say? It's up to you

I know we're one, just me and you

I can't go on

    You wanted to fight for him, wanted him to see all that he meant to you, but you didn’t quite know how. He had already ended things so what more could you do? If he wanted to be with you then he would take the risk with you, but he didn’t, so what did that mean?

    You quickly stood in frustration. You had been left with so many questions and you didn’t know where to find the answers.

    Your phone began buzzing and you quickly fetched it from the counter. It wasn’t him, so you let it ring to your voicemail. You didn’t feel like dealing with the world.

    You sat down as the anxiety built in your core. Your head fell into your hands as a sob racked your body. You were sick of crying over him, but at the same time it was all you could do to remember how much he meant to you. It was a reminder that there is life after being broken. You just had to get through this, and then you would see.

    But until then you didn’t quite know how you would be able to survive on your own. Sure, you were managing to get by, but you weren’t happy. He had brought you to life after feeling dead for so long. You didn’t want to return to that point and even the thought of it terrified you. You wanted to be with him; with Levi.

    Thinking his name caused you to cry harder, his face entering your mind, his voice, his gentle touch. You couldn’t continue like this!

What is love?

Baby, don't hurt me

Baby, don't hurt me

No more

    You stood and quickly reached for your phone, dialling your best friend Krista’s number. The phone rang twice.

    “Hey girl, what’s up?” She answered.

    “Are you busy?” You sobbed.

    “Oh no, not again?” She said, automatically knowing what was wrong, “No I’m not busy, we can talk.”

    “Krista I don’t know what to do! Every thought is of him! I try to do something and then he snakes his way back into my head!” You exasperated.

    “I know it’s hard, and I’m sorry you have to go through this. But you have to remember that it didn’t end on a bad note! Things are okay between you two and that’s good – that’s more than most people can say when a relationship ends.”

    “I know, I know, but I want this pain to stop,” you said frantically, grabbing hold of your hair as you sat down again.

    “It will, just like the last time your heart was broken. Remember that thing you always say? The only constant in life is change. This will pass, just as everything always does,” she said calmly. You took a deep breath, attempting to sooth your nerves. Krista was right, you knew that. But it still didn’t stop the pain in your heart.

    “Thank you, Krista. I’m going to go now though,” you said.

    “Have a good day, girl. I love you,” she said before hanging up.

    You gripped your phone in your hand and slowly slumped to the floor. You wished he would call you. You wished he had at least wanted to take the risk of long distance. Other couples did it and succeeded, so couldn’t he at least have tried?

    You lifted the phone to your face and scrolled through the pictures of him. His face was always so kind and loving when he was with you. The way he looked at you made you feel like you were the most special girl in the entire world, like you had actually meant something to him.

    Over and over he had called you beautiful, made you blush like a schoolgirl when you received his compliments. So how could he have quit it all just like that?

    Maybe you would never know, maybe one day he would come back to you, or maybe your love for him would fade away. You didn’t know what was going to happen, but that didn’t change the here and now. You were broken, and those feelings were what you knew.

I want no other, no other lover

This is our life, our time

When we are together, I need you forever

Is it love?

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A/N: Hey everyone! Another songfic for you!
Listen here please!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Oh, I don't know why you're not there

I give you my love, but you don't care

So what is right and what is wrong?

Give me a sign

    The pit of growing anxiety that was your stomach began to churn. Every step, every thought, every breath reminded you of him. You had always been a fighter, a survivor, but you didn’t know how you could possibly win this battle when it was against yourself. Every part of your mind told you to get up and continue on without him, but then your heart would begin to ache and your stomach would explode with unresolved nerves. Deep down you knew that you still needed him in your life and that the two of you would meet again in the future. You just didn’t know when.

    A sigh passed through your parted lips as you looked at your reflection. Your face had grown thinner; the anxiety being so bad on most days that you couldn’t even eat. It’s not that you didn’t want to eat, you physically couldn’t. When you finally managed to stomach the food, you just felt like you would throw it up anyways, so you just stopped eating. It was easier than having the food settling uneasily in you. So you ate when you could and lost weight as a result. You had always wanted to be thinner anyways.

    You walked from your bathroom and sat on your bed. It was comfortable, but far too empty. He had helped fill all the spaces in your life, so now that he was gone you were left with half of everything. The bed was too big without him, the walks too lonely…

    You shook your head at where your thoughts were going. You knew you would be okay if you could just get him out of your head. That was where your real troubles began; getting him out of everything that you did.

    You stood in frustration and walked to the kitchen, opening the fridge by habit. Nothing had changed since you last opened it, so you closed the door with a sigh.

What is love?

Baby, don't hurt me

Baby, don't hurt me

No more

    Your main regret was falling in love with him. His onyx locks, his piercing eyes that always knew how to read your face. Despite his outer stoic demeanor he was soft and gentle on the inside. He had cared deeply about you and you had fallen for every minute of it.

    There had been no bad between you two. That made it so much harder. He had been your perfect man; the best thing that had ever happened to you… And now he wasn’t there anymore; gone like each second that ticks by. He was something you had loved and had never imagined you would lose. But you did lose him; he had left, like everyone else.

    The one condolence you were left with was that he hadn’t wanted to leave you. His career had demanded him to be elsewhere, and so he had no choice. Maybe he hadn’t fallen in love with you quite yet or perhaps he would have asked you to come with him. But he had voiced his regret over leaving you while he left. He had acknowledged how much you meant to him, so at least you had that.

    A tear softly rolled down your cheek. You didn’t bother to wipe it away; there was no one to see anyways.

    You knew that no matter how much he had liked you, you still weren’t with him anymore, and that was what hurt you the most. You wanted nothing more than to be with him always, for that was what love created; a big mess of all your feelings that centered around that one special person. But regardless of his feelings or yours, you were still hurting, still crying.

Oh, I don't know, what can I do?

What else can I say? It's up to you

I know we're one, just me and you

I can't go on

    You wanted to fight for him, wanted him to see all that he meant to you, but you didn’t quite know how. He had already ended things so what more could you do? If he wanted to be with you then he would take the risk with you, but he didn’t, so what did that mean?

    You quickly stood in frustration. You had been left with so many questions and you didn’t know where to find the answers.

    Your phone began buzzing and you quickly fetched it from the counter. It wasn’t him, so you let it ring to your voicemail. You didn’t feel like dealing with the world.

    You sat down as the anxiety built in your core. Your head fell into your hands as a sob racked your body. You were sick of crying over him, but at the same time it was all you could do to remember how much he meant to you. It was a reminder that there is life after being broken. You just had to get through this, and then you would see.

    But until then you didn’t quite know how you would be able to survive on your own. Sure, you were managing to get by, but you weren’t happy. He had brought you to life after feeling dead for so long. You didn’t want to return to that point and even the thought of it terrified you. You wanted to be with him; with Levi.

    Thinking his name caused you to cry harder, his face entering your mind, his voice, his gentle touch. You couldn’t continue like this!

What is love?

Baby, don't hurt me

Baby, don't hurt me

No more

    You stood and quickly reached for your phone, dialling your best friend Krista’s number. The phone rang twice.

    “Hey girl, what’s up?” She answered.

    “Are you busy?” You sobbed.

    “Oh no, not again?” She said, automatically knowing what was wrong, “No I’m not busy, we can talk.”

    “Krista I don’t know what to do! Every thought is of him! I try to do something and then he snakes his way back into my head!” You exasperated.

    “I know it’s hard, and I’m sorry you have to go through this. But you have to remember that it didn’t end on a bad note! Things are okay between you two and that’s good – that’s more than most people can say when a relationship ends.”

    “I know, I know, but I want this pain to stop,” you said frantically, grabbing hold of your hair as you sat down again.

    “It will, just like the last time your heart was broken. Remember that thing you always say? The only constant in life is change. This will pass, just as everything always does,” she said calmly. You took a deep breath, attempting to sooth your nerves. Krista was right, you knew that. But it still didn’t stop the pain in your heart.

    “Thank you, Krista. I’m going to go now though,” you said.

    “Have a good day, girl. I love you,” she said before hanging up.

    You gripped your phone in your hand and slowly slumped to the floor. You wished he would call you. You wished he had at least wanted to take the risk of long distance. Other couples did it and succeeded, so couldn’t he at least have tried?

    You lifted the phone to your face and scrolled through the pictures of him. His face was always so kind and loving when he was with you. The way he looked at you made you feel like you were the most special girl in the entire world, like you had actually meant something to him.

    Over and over he had called you beautiful, made you blush like a schoolgirl when you received his compliments. So how could he have quit it all just like that?

    Maybe you would never know, maybe one day he would come back to you, or maybe your love for him would fade away. You didn’t know what was going to happen, but that didn’t change the here and now. You were broken, and those feelings were what you knew.

I want no other, no other lover

This is our life, our time

When we are together, I need you forever

Is it love?