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Do you know what it feels like?To feel so socially awkward
around people that you feel
uncomfortable in your own skin,
knowing that you don't fit in.
And, you walk away...
thinking that being alone
will be better for you -
but you're wrong.
You just feel even more Β alone;
even more rejected from society;
perhaps even sad, in some way.
What do you do while waiting for someone?
As you wait, and wait, and wait for them -
hoping they'll come soon
lest you seem like a loner
walking aimlessly around,
causing people to pity you.
And your face gets hot,
you start to sweat because
they know -
they know of how alone you are
and they feel sorry for you.
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thedragonnerd [2021-12-27 18:21:17 +0000 UTC]
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NauticalNiamh [2019-05-22 01:25:04 +0000 UTC]
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ShadowInfestedWolf [2018-10-10 15:13:16 +0000 UTC]
I understand this all too well. The second paragraph especially.
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neoshaf [2017-06-24 17:24:53 +0000 UTC]
I have ADHD and OCD. I make a massive mess, then clean it up like a psychotic.
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Smidow [2014-09-19 04:32:52 +0000 UTC]
This is exactly how I feel, wonderful poem! Love it.
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Antnosunshyn [2014-09-19 04:18:05 +0000 UTC]
I feel the exact same as every word of this poem. Literally 100%.. Man, it sucks. Nice poem
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BruiseViolet01 [2014-01-11 21:09:44 +0000 UTC]
Yep, that's me. But it's nice to read things I can relate to.
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ElfOwl245 [2013-10-24 01:45:47 +0000 UTC]
Yup, I have no friends because I'm afraid of talking to people...
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NutInAShell [2013-10-21 13:09:25 +0000 UTC]
And when I do say something, its totally inappropriate. Sigh. I completely relate to this.
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MrYoursTruly [2013-09-03 14:14:37 +0000 UTC]
I can relate to this. Definitely. Although, on the Internet it seems so much easier to interact with others because you have a common area of interest to talk about, and I can't really say the same thing about real life. This is so well written!
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AskSasuke-Uchiha [2013-08-25 23:25:05 +0000 UTC]
(( I was reminded over and over how awkward I am... <.< And it's true... I relate to this too much. ;n; ))
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superbacon117 [2013-07-29 16:13:05 +0000 UTC]
I can't even describe how much this relates to my life.
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sirenophile [2013-06-11 13:48:22 +0000 UTC]
Well said with that poem.
I can definitely relate, especially in my younger years when I was very shy and quiet. I didn't know how to deal with people and they really did not know how to deal with me. I'm coming to terms with my introversion, have gotten over most of my shyness, but still feel socially awkward and am usually not good at making friends. It's not easy finding confidence in yourself or throwing yourself at the world. You will probably find it easier with smaller groups of people that large ones; if you get over the terror of parties you may find yourself simply bored by them. Crowded rooms aren't for everyone and they don't need to be.
Reading over the comments, I feel that I should point out there is a difference between being an introvert, being shy, being social awkward, having social anxiety, and having autism. Those things often overlap and those with any one of them will usually relate to this.
I think it usually gets better with age (especially after high school), depending on the cause. Shyness is something you can get over (and maybe being socially awkward too) and introversion isn't something you need to get over while those with social anxiety disorder, autism, and the like may need medication and will probably have to deal with it for the rest of their lives.
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MonteDeNeko300 [2013-06-11 03:32:33 +0000 UTC]
It's hard. It's like you try to talk but you're afraid that you're going to screw up and say something awkward.I feel sad and weak and a coward for tryig to speak up but you just can't. I lost many people due to that . I recently lost one of my best guy friends ever because I'm afraid of talking to him ;( I used to like him and I'm afraid of hugging him or have a conversation with him because I might do something to embaress him. We don't talk anymore and I feel invisible around others
I'm afraid of social rejection and losing more people due to my awkwardness.
I try to comvince myself that I'm fine but In reality I'm crumbling on the inside... how long can I last without completley breaking down. I may never knoe but one day I will find my voice..
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chibifuhrer [2013-05-28 17:29:47 +0000 UTC]
I felt relieved when I read this not because a lot of people feel the same way, but because some people actually understand. It's hard, really, and I don't like it one bit. Sure, I convince myself that I like being alone, that I don't need people to survive, but I also know that it's not true. I feel sad and helpless. I try to socialize, but I become wary of it, and then I become afraid and mindful of everyone, of what they're thinking, what they're saying. I try not to care. I just stay away from them most of the time, because I don't want them to feel sorry for me because I'm alone. But really, that isn't what I want.
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KuraiTenshiV [2013-05-12 21:50:50 +0000 UTC]
Yes relating to this is easy. I dont do well in crowds which makes doing anything annoyingly hard. This is a wonderful poem i absolutely love it
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jinxkatty7 [2013-04-22 06:06:31 +0000 UTC]
I have such a hard time talking to people. Especially when they really care about me. Because I feel like if I act like myself then they won't want to be around me. I like being online because I don't have to look at people when I'm in my room.
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kyoyuki13 [2013-04-16 03:20:12 +0000 UTC]
I love it! i can relate so much to this...TT^TT
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SheppardTheWolf8 [2013-04-10 01:24:36 +0000 UTC]
My God, I know how you feel. This is the poem of my life....
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Selenalunarox [2013-04-08 17:44:59 +0000 UTC]
This is such a relatable poem, especially for someone like me who has social anxiety :/
Great work
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Buzzard09 [2013-04-08 04:18:30 +0000 UTC]
goddamn the imaginary audience... I feel you, dear. <3
"High school never ends ah-oh ah-ah-aaoh ah-ah-aaoh .... "
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chaosheart13 [2013-04-08 00:03:50 +0000 UTC]
A lot of people feel this way, apparently. AWKWARD TURTLES UNIT!
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GarrettVFinazzo In reply to heetrash [2013-04-08 18:47:38 +0000 UTC]
Yeah... this is spam.
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GarrettVFinazzo In reply to heetrash [2013-04-08 21:28:24 +0000 UTC]
Man, you are a drain on society.
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AugustFloKite [2013-04-07 15:48:21 +0000 UTC]
I feel...that I am the ideal description of what you wrote in this poem. Although I know that it is nice to hear from others, whether in person or online, I always hit myself on the social glass barrier, seeing others but I myself cannot be seen or heard.
I may not have a lot of friends, but I also feel that I don't want to impede on their progress in life.
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violetgraphica [2013-04-05 09:51:57 +0000 UTC]
Wow, while i was reading this, i felt like i wrote this, it's like u read my mind. . I do feel like this all the time, with almost everybody, even with my family; i just want to go to my room, & lock the door, & stay alone, it feel comfortable, but very sad & alone in the same time. . Thank you very much for this, amazing work
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YNayib94 [2013-04-04 14:04:02 +0000 UTC]
This poem is great. It's good to know that there are other's who feel the same way. But it's also bad because I know how much it hurts.
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TheThirdTwinWins [2013-04-04 09:44:15 +0000 UTC]
You say you find it difficult to talk to people, but every written word feels like a conversation to me. I know that feeling to but seeing how many people feel the same way cheers me up and make me smile. Maybe we can share it...
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Nionai In reply to TheThirdTwinWins [2013-04-04 12:39:38 +0000 UTC]
The thing is with the whole conversation thing. It's difficult when in person because you face them face to face and if you say something wrong or they do, it's not as easy to click out or walk away.
Hopefully that makes sense to you ^^'
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Lifelessforest [2013-04-04 02:32:03 +0000 UTC]
I don't think being alone is that bad, I got used to it after a while. I just accepted that there was never going to be anyone who understood me. I stopped worrying about it after a while, thinking it was selfish of me to worry about being accepted by others. I would just be an extra object to take care of an extra burden of emotions and feelings.
I do have "friends" but in order to keep them I must remain worry-free and happy. I have to be careful to always talk uneducated and stupid so they feel more powerful and intelligent than me. But I also can't be too stupid or they will " beat the stupidity out of me". They call me a socially awkward bear-squirrel because I have the brain of a squirrel and the ugliness of an angry brown bear. I never smile. I flinch when someone raises their hand. I hate it when other people touch me. I don't do my homework in order to not get beat up (the grades at my school are posted in the hall way).
What can I do though? I'll feel the same if I don't have them as friends.
I wish that people who feel they need friends and feel socially awkward to not feel the need for human attention but, being human has cursed us in that way sadly.
For all of you who suffer from this don't kill or hurt yourself. Stay strong school is going to go by and you can leave your worries with it. Life is valuable. You have been given life and it would be a shame if you throw it away. All the babies and children in third world countries who wanted to live but died anyways. Their family WISHED AND PRAYED for the years or even months that suicidal people wasted being dead to be given to their children.
But you all probably don't want to hear this you just want to be comforted... So here is a hug for all the burdens and pains you have to endure. Stay strong...
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sammi-nicole [2013-04-03 22:27:29 +0000 UTC]
The worst part of all of this is that there are so many of us who feel this way, but we are so good at hiding it we can't even recognize each other. Can you imagine if we were all just up front and honest about how awkward we feel? How alone we are? Then none of us would have to be alone because we would then seek out the others who were hurting as we hurt. Nobody would be alone.
But unfortunately, the world does not work that way. Ever. S we end up being alone for much longer than we need to be and eventually find someone who feels equally alone that we could have been not alone with together.
Life's just a bitch that way.
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Arcanumbra [2013-04-03 20:26:14 +0000 UTC]
Really... it's really like that. Somehow it's nice to know I'm not the only one, maybe everyone somehow feels like this but doesn't show it? I don't know...
We are all great actors, lying the outer world, the people around us
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