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...is to have mental magical ice powers ✨️❄️

I used to be paranoid about what other people thought of me, so much so that I often let it control my opinions. It was easy to dislike something against others opinions, because then you could be the judgemental one. But if they decided something was bad(referring to things like movies where there isn't necessary a right or wrong opinion and different people have different reasons & tastes) I simply tended to feel I wasn't allowed to like it, most often I didn't even give certain things chances. In fact, I even felt I wasn't allowed to like things if they where under a certain category, such as rock music(I think a lot of songs I like now fall under Indie rock, which actually isn't really as loud as I'd have thought, but still there are some songs I like that are that loud, like 'don't wake me' and 'Lucy' by skillet and 'alligator' by OMAM ) and rap(still usually not my thing personally, but it can be done well,,, Faith Marie<3 and some of the Hamilton songs for example ) and musicals(woops I can only think of music related categories at the moment apparently). And I didn't really give a lot of things, including Frozen much of a chance.
the internet helped free me from that mindset some, though, because I was finally free to explore on my own, I didn't have to be paranoid about what they thought because I didn't have to wait for their approval and they likey wouldn't even ever know a lot of the things I explored existed, so naturally I formed my own opinions and just liked whatever I liked. It's funny how some distance makes some things seem small, isn't it?
And Aartcritique introduced me to a lot of things in categories I felt I wasn't allowed to like,
and sense she liked them I felt I was free to too and so I started to stop feeling as restricted by that.
But of course that didn't magically make my anxiety go away. I still kinda felt I wasn't allowed to like certain things, or at least not in front of certain people. And to this day there's a lot of stuff I think I'd probably be mocked or judged for liking, so I hide. And I'm not very comfortable posting personal things on YouTube... The thing about internet people is we all kinda see eye to eye and never have to talk in person so I'm a bit more comfortable here. :'3

But, um, anyways, I've actually kinda liked the song 'let it go' for a long time, but tried not to let myself fully admit it to myself or get too attached to it, but KNOW WHAT?! THAT SOŃG ABOUT THAT ŠONG. I LOVE IT. Yeah that's the interesting thing, one night when I was finally letting it go I was thinking about it and how much I related to it. The lyrics are actually really interesting and well worded, and it really does fit my connection with the song itself. And thinking about it and it's metaphors, I also thought of the meanings of the movie itself and it was really interesting so I wanted to give it another try. The time I'd had that mental conversation was around the time Frozen 2 was released, and I got to see it in theaters and really enjoyed it. The characters (and their dynamics) and graphics/aesthetics and songs where amazing. Sometime after that I rewatched the first and decided I liked it too,, the metaphor for mental health, how her anxiety that she'll hurt someone again drove her from her introversion to heavy isolation and her physical ice powers just grew as a metaphor for it and how hiding only makes it worse because her love went cold with fear and it's actually just hurting her loved ones more and her sister doesn't even know what's going on and RIP because she's a huge extrovert with no one to talk to now and their parents are trying to help by keeping Elsa hidden and then they go and die, so real RIP to them. Then Elsa is finally forced to face her anxieties and anxiety itself ended up leading to the ice kaploozee she was anxious about but at least she stopped her sister from marrying someone she just met a few hours ago. Then El freeeeeee yay no people to make up rules for her or cause anxiety now she can just have fun and be herself accept plot twist she actually accidentally made the world an Iceland (just like I did in my escape from people, but for me that has a very different meaning)
And now I'm kinda just summarizing it, better stop... But I also like how they did the whole true love thing, emphasizing that true love dose NOT necessarily mean romantic love. But yee,, I love those movies and Sparrow now has mental ice magic to help shrug off anxiety yaaaaay

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I used words very close to the lyrics "It's funny how some distance makes everything seem small" from the song "let it go" from Frozen which this drawing was inspired by.
I think it's obvious if you'd heard the song, but you know...um...credit...just in case....

Description
...is to have mental magical ice powers ✨️❄️

I used to be paranoid about what other people thought of me, so much so that I often let it control my opinions. It was easy to dislike something against others opinions, because then you could be the judgemental one. But if they decided something was bad(referring to things like movies where there isn't necessary a right or wrong opinion and different people have different reasons & tastes) I simply tended to feel I wasn't allowed to like it, most often I didn't even give certain things chances. In fact, I even felt I wasn't allowed to like things if they where under a certain category, such as rock music(I think a lot of songs I like now fall under Indie rock, which actually isn't really as loud as I'd have thought, but still there are some songs I like that are that loud, like 'don't wake me' and 'Lucy' by skillet and 'alligator' by OMAM ) and rap(still usually not my thing personally, but it can be done well,,, Faith Marie<3 and some of the Hamilton songs for example ) and musicals(woops I can only think of music related categories at the moment apparently). And I didn't really give a lot of things, including Frozen much of a chance.
the internet helped free me from that mindset some, though, because I was finally free to explore on my own, I didn't have to be paranoid about what they thought because I didn't have to wait for their approval and they likey wouldn't even ever know a lot of the things I explored existed, so naturally I formed my own opinions and just liked whatever I liked. It's funny how some distance makes some things seem small, isn't it?
And Aartcritique introduced me to a lot of things in categories I felt I wasn't allowed to like,
and sense she liked them I felt I was free to too and so I started to stop feeling as restricted by that.
But of course that didn't magically make my anxiety go away. I still kinda felt I wasn't allowed to like certain things, or at least not in front of certain people. And to this day there's a lot of stuff I think I'd probably be mocked or judged for liking, so I hide. And I'm not very comfortable posting personal things on YouTube... The thing about internet people is we all kinda see eye to eye and never have to talk in person so I'm a bit more comfortable here. :'3

But, um, anyways, I've actually kinda liked the song 'let it go' for a long time, but tried not to let myself fully admit it to myself or get too attached to it, but KNOW WHAT?! THAT SOŃG ABOUT THAT ŠONG. I LOVE IT. Yeah that's the interesting thing, one night when I was finally letting it go I was thinking about it and how much I related to it. The lyrics are actually really interesting and well worded, and it really does fit my connection with the song itself. And thinking about it and it's metaphors, I also thought of the meanings of the movie itself and it was really interesting so I wanted to give it another try. The time I'd had that mental conversation was around the time Frozen 2 was released, and I got to see it in theaters and really enjoyed it. The characters (and their dynamics) and graphics/aesthetics and songs where amazing. Sometime after that I rewatched the first and decided I liked it too,, the metaphor for mental health, how her anxiety that she'll hurt someone again drove her from her introversion to heavy isolation and her physical ice powers just grew as a metaphor for it and how hiding only makes it worse because her love went cold with fear and it's actually just hurting her loved ones more and her sister doesn't even know what's going on and RIP because she's a huge extrovert with no one to talk to now and their parents are trying to help by keeping Elsa hidden and then they go and die, so real RIP to them. Then Elsa is finally forced to face her anxieties and anxiety itself ended up leading to the ice kaploozee she was anxious about but at least she stopped her sister from marrying someone she just met a few hours ago. Then El freeeeeee yay no people to make up rules for her or cause anxiety now she can just have fun and be herself accept plot twist she actually accidentally made the world an Iceland (just like I did in my escape from people, but for me that has a very different meaning)
And now I'm kinda just summarizing it, better stop... But I also like how they did the whole true love thing, emphasizing that true love dose NOT necessarily mean romantic love. But yee,, I love those movies and Sparrow now has mental ice magic to help shrug off anxiety yaaaaay

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I used words very close to the lyrics "It's funny how some distance makes everything seem small" from the song "let it go" from Frozen which this drawing was inspired by.
I think it's obvious if you'd heard the song, but you know...um...credit...just in case....