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My first digital vent piece...

Literally Do Not have to read down there it's kind of part of the process of finishing this piece, but also irrelevant. All in all, I feel like one hundred bucks after finishing everything.

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This is my character. I created him a few months ago when things really started to go down

and let's just say I abuse him a lot but you could say it's part of a healing process. Recently, his hair went from pitch black to white- which is a good thing. Hopefully it can gain some color ;v;

He has no name because he's an existence that shouldn't exist. He is a representation of my thoughts and emotions. No, I do not harm myself. Or others for that matter. But my thoughts do get really rowdy and I use a number of methods to shut them down.

The reason he looks nothing like me or anything that I am is because I figured; if it doesn't look like me or act like me, it has no relation or relevance to me, right? So people can't judge me, but just him. Like I said, I abuse him a lot. But I prefer to keep my more...gorey works non-public. Like literally this is my first time drawing him digitally. I only doodle him in a notebook.

This felt really nice to do. I was thinking negatively the whole time drawing this, but the more negatively I thought, the more they went away, and eventually I changed the one sad song I had on repeat, and put it to something slow, but somewhat uplifting with a sense of promise.

Easy way to handle feelings, right?

Please don't ask if I'm alright. I'm literally fine. Hence why I can type all of this here without worry, right? I handle things on my own, because I'm not at all a talk it out person. Talking things out makes it all worse for me because then I get confused about why I'm upset and what's upsetting me. I can only think clearly when left to my own devices.

Which is why vent art is best method for me.

About Him and his origin.

Well....I put him through a lot. Like whenever I feel absolutely horrible, I literally draw and write these shit things and shit scenarios that he's in. It makes me feel better that it's not me, and so my own problems seem smaller, and suddenly I'm able to find the answers to them. Morbid, yes. Not something that should EVER be a way out in reality, definitely. But on paper, it's a really helpful method.

I really love stars and star signs and all of that, as well as my personal sign; Aquarius. I'm very proud of it. I call myself (and all other Aquarians) The Sea Angels; Because our element is air, and yet we're the water bearers. I always picture us as mermaids with angel wings on our backs. We have the freedom to soar, and also the freedom to glide. A lot like our thought process (if you follow stereotypical Aquarian horoscope and personality readings.)

He is a sea angel that's trapped in his environment, and drowning fast. But he's a fighter, and he is strong. And he won't give up or succumb to the sounds of the sea offering him sleep. Which is why I love him. I put him through so much. But after all the horrible things, by then end of it I feel so relieved of my troubles, and write him such nice happy endings. He has just as many beautiful pictures as sad ones.

I read somewhere that a psychiatrist questioned survivors of failed suicide jumps off of a bridge. Most of them said that 3/4ths of the way down, they realized that every single one of their problems were fixable.

This is what he does for me. He tells me that my problems are fixable, and that even his are, too. And I thank him so much for that.

Description
My first digital vent piece...

Literally Do Not have to read down there it's kind of part of the process of finishing this piece, but also irrelevant. All in all, I feel like one hundred bucks after finishing everything.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

This is my character. I created him a few months ago when things really started to go down

and let's just say I abuse him a lot but you could say it's part of a healing process. Recently, his hair went from pitch black to white- which is a good thing. Hopefully it can gain some color ;v;

He has no name because he's an existence that shouldn't exist. He is a representation of my thoughts and emotions. No, I do not harm myself. Or others for that matter. But my thoughts do get really rowdy and I use a number of methods to shut them down.

The reason he looks nothing like me or anything that I am is because I figured; if it doesn't look like me or act like me, it has no relation or relevance to me, right? So people can't judge me, but just him. Like I said, I abuse him a lot. But I prefer to keep my more...gorey works non-public. Like literally this is my first time drawing him digitally. I only doodle him in a notebook.

This felt really nice to do. I was thinking negatively the whole time drawing this, but the more negatively I thought, the more they went away, and eventually I changed the one sad song I had on repeat, and put it to something slow, but somewhat uplifting with a sense of promise.

Easy way to handle feelings, right?

Please don't ask if I'm alright. I'm literally fine. Hence why I can type all of this here without worry, right? I handle things on my own, because I'm not at all a talk it out person. Talking things out makes it all worse for me because then I get confused about why I'm upset and what's upsetting me. I can only think clearly when left to my own devices.

Which is why vent art is best method for me.

About Him and his origin.

Well....I put him through a lot. Like whenever I feel absolutely horrible, I literally draw and write these shit things and shit scenarios that he's in. It makes me feel better that it's not me, and so my own problems seem smaller, and suddenly I'm able to find the answers to them. Morbid, yes. Not something that should EVER be a way out in reality, definitely. But on paper, it's a really helpful method.

I really love stars and star signs and all of that, as well as my personal sign; Aquarius. I'm very proud of it. I call myself (and all other Aquarians) The Sea Angels; Because our element is air, and yet we're the water bearers. I always picture us as mermaids with angel wings on our backs. We have the freedom to soar, and also the freedom to glide. A lot like our thought process (if you follow stereotypical Aquarian horoscope and personality readings.)

He is a sea angel that's trapped in his environment, and drowning fast. But he's a fighter, and he is strong. And he won't give up or succumb to the sounds of the sea offering him sleep. Which is why I love him. I put him through so much. But after all the horrible things, by then end of it I feel so relieved of my troubles, and write him such nice happy endings. He has just as many beautiful pictures as sad ones.

I read somewhere that a psychiatrist questioned survivors of failed suicide jumps off of a bridge. Most of them said that 3/4ths of the way down, they realized that every single one of their problems were fixable.

This is what he does for me. He tells me that my problems are fixable, and that even his are, too. And I thank him so much for that.