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wrists

arms

legs

skin

[scars]

feeling of    i     don't
                                          know             what

                                                        to

                                                                                            do

so help them
the ones who are being

BROKEN

fucking smashed shattered open

know the truth know love
hurts but it should never
hurt
like this people hurt but they
should never (.) hurt
like
this
it's unbelievable

find the words to say
or don't
just sit there
nod and say yeah yeah i know

because you do know
how they feel
and you do know
it's awful
and you do know
you're fucking useless

want to rip out your
spine
(it's twisted anyway)

bite_your_nails_  _   _   _   _   _

frustration
stress
misery
panic

maybe it's emotional instability
or maybe you have dysthemia
or maybe it's just school and
the fact that everyone you love
seems to be
miserable
and
going
under
and
hurt
and
wronged
and
you
can
listen
and
you
can
talk
but
you
can't
make
it
right.

you're supposed to be happy

but hey so are they

people are supposed to love
each other
and be honest with
each other not
break
each other

too bad life doesn't work
like sentence structure and 'supposed to' simply has nothing
to do with it

although if it did
you would be dead already

but them, they would be
happy

happy
happy
happy
happy
happy
happy
happy

this is my writing see it's dis
jointed
and unstruc
tured
and emotional and painful
cracks running through it
smash smash crash bang

oh don't mind that noise
just a murder and a couple suicides
and

someone withering
away
quietly

but

we don't

talk about that

here

see this is beautiful isn't it
can you feel it racing through you like
blood
thicker than
blood in fact water is thicker than
blood and you always hated water
anyway but lies are thicker than
water 'cause it's not so damn holy but
hope is thicker than lies
and so is depression
so thick it's like

air

is hope stronger than
pain
is hope stronger than
ache
is hope stronger than
i want to die
is hope stronger than
hopelessness
is hope stronger than
i hate myself
is hope stronger than
blood
is hope stronger than
tears
is hope stronger than
screams
is hope stronger than
silence

is hope

strong    er

?

.

this is my writing see it is pretty
see the girl she writes it is painful and disjointed and raw
it is pretty
is she pretty
the girl is she pretty is she pretty tell me is the girl pretty is she is she is she is she

the writing is pretty
powerful just how you
want it are you happy
now are you happy
now are you happy

now

{i always make pain
into something beautiful
apparently
are you proud of me
now
am i good enough for you
now
or do i need more pain
to make it better
do i need more pain
to be good enough
for you
do i need more
pain
because i'm sorry
but it
hurts
this pain it
hurts
and making it better isn't
always good
enough because it usually doesn't
change
shit}

[maybe wrists
are made to be
slit
and maybe spines
are made to be
twisted
and maybe love
is made to be
painful]
{if i have more
pain
and less
food will i be
beautiful
too}
[and maybe
people
are made to be

broken]

,