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Do you know what it's like to live and lose,
Or to even die while you're alive?
We all live like we're happy,
But so many are screaming on the inside.
These silent screams may one day set us free.
One day we may feel alive.
One day, we will be alive.

I don't feel like I'm alive,
I feel as if I'm simply breathing.
It's not like I can wake up,
I'm not dreaming.
Some are afraid of death,
But not me.
I will accept it,
I will embrace,
For I have already experienced it.

These crazy thoughts won't leave my head.
Am I alive or am I dead?
I can smile all I want,
But that doesn't make it real.
I haven't been myself lately,
I think there's a stranger inside of me.

I know I have to be strong.
I've gotta be for them,
For him,
For her,
For you,
And perhaps even for me,
But it's so much easier to give up.
I've been strong for so long,
I just can't keep it up any longer.

Things get rough for my friends,
I tell them it'll be alright.
I'm their shoulder to cry on,
And I'll never let them hurt themselves.
I wish I was thr same with myself.
I couldn't save myself if I tried.

I can't hold on, after all,
I have nothing to hold on to.
I have no hope left,
For I gave it all away to my friends.
I'd rather see them alive and happy,
Than see me the same way.

I will ask once more,
Do you know what it's like to live and lose,
Or to die while you're still alive?
I may breathe, but I am not alive.
I've screamed and screamed about how I'm not alright,
But I've never been able to get help.

If I try to die,
I get called nothing more than an attention whore.
If I stay alive,
I'm told I'm not enough
And that I simply don't try hard enough.

I am sick of not being enough.

I won't miss this,
How could I miss something I never had?
I won't be happy either way.

I'm sick of tearing my heart open to fix others
When all they do it break me.