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Published: 2017-03-25 05:53:20 +0000 UTC; Views: 701; Favourites: 14; Downloads: 0
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Let me just start off by saying everyone has their own stories/ Things going on in their lives....I don't feel comfortable sharing mine publicly but it has been taking a huge toll on me....
I'm sure you all noticed me uploading: Daily to One A Month to Rarely this past year and a half.
Basically I lost someone very close to my heart and I don't even talk with my friends about it because I don't know how.
I've been playing it off as if I've just been tired , Which I have, But its much more then that....
I'm drained. I'm sad. I'm hurting. And I'm no longer myself.
My friends noticed something taking a toll on me and it hurts I have to hide it from them because I don't want them to know / worry as I don't want you guys to worry either!
I rarely answer anyone anymore because, well, I don't even know!
I just feel calmer that way.... Almost like less of a liar?
Rather then saying "Haha, I'm fine bruh! You?" meanwhile the truth is "Haha....I can't answer that...."
My once kind bubbly attitude has turned into sarcasm and depression
Not to mention:
Past Events Returning
School Loans
Hate Blogs
Both Jobs
Daily Stresses
ALL OF IT
Its just piling up
And I honestly....been feeling.... Like I've died a bit and I'm not sure if I will ever get the old me back and its terrifying.
But, Then theres you guys.
I get notes almost daily from you guys saying "I love your art" "I'm such a fan" "etc. etc" And it makes me cry because it reminds me what my goals are and how desperately I still want to achieve them but it also shows that most of you stand by me no matter what my activity on the site is and I am just so very grateful to have such amazing/supportive watchers.
I probably sound really dumb but....
Thats basically a really LONG story short
I left a bunch of things out but my point is,
I'm trying to come back off hiatus
Just please be patient with me
And thank you all so much for your kindness and support~
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Comments: 19
I hope you'll do better soon girl, and about the hate blogs, they can suck it. Btw, if they shit on my works (Which they do every now and then), I just shrug it off and ignore it, maybe you should try that. Just block anyone that is trying to confront you on anything, okay? Γ³wΓ²
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Sorry to hear thatΒ
Don't fake a smile thats only going to make you regret you faked it
Take as long as you need Rue <3 Relax we understand <3
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FMARocksSoMuch Nanohanan Ayatonic PrinceofHades Allucy-hatchina Aafje98 StrikingHope Jay-and-Kos Alquimica bethanyr00 RitaLeader14 LilMissLillie and everyone else:
This is what I mean!
You guys are absolutely amazing and I'm so thankful to have you guys as watchers!
Thank you so much!
Words can't express how much I appreciate your kindness~
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It's no problem! 
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It's no problem sweetie, we're happy to help; just take you time and look after yourself hun we can wait for ya~ 
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You don't need to thank us, really. ;w;
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Rue sweetie, you don't sound dumb saying this at all; not one bit.
I know I haven't had many people in my life pass on yet, but I know the feeling of loosing someone who means something to you.
(heck... there are times when I think about, what if my dad passed on..? and... it just makes my heart sink to the lowest of lows...)
Take as long as you need to recover sweetheart; there's no rush.
We're all here behind you and we'll all be here to support you if you need someone to lean on, kay~?
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Don't fake your smile because that was /very/ hurt thing to do! Keep smiling and never give up even though you lost someone who is really precious to you! :'>
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my condolences to you,, everyone will still be here for you as you make you return, so don't worry!! <3
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It's okay! Just take as much time as you need. 
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take care of yourself!!
try not to push yourself too hard.....
your health should come first
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Take care Rue, and take all the time you needΒ Β Β Β
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Take all the time you need, Rue. You're an amazing person and I believe you can overcome these obstacles in your life. You're an amazing person!
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Oh Rue, I now how you feel.
I can sympathize with you.
I know how hard it is trying to get back into the swing of things but even though you try so hard its like you just cant.
I truly hope you can get through this, even without sharing all the details.
I know that all of us, regardless of relationship, will stand behind you and offer our support.
Keep chugging on little train, you'll make it to the top of the hill!
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