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If no one understand..- please help me -
I know most people can't understand this. It is a picture, which I did today, after I visit
my Grandpartens grave. It is a situtation where I think that most of you had it too.
The one where you just want to end up your live with a simple cut, and never wake
up again.
The picture is myself (or more my alter ego Fox-Ves)..
she seems even younger.. the reason :
The first time I tried to kill myself was with the age of 14..
I cut my artery and thought I could die.. but nothing!
There is only a small scar now.. no more, no less!
I know how it feels if you lost a lot, if you don't know how to keep
on your live.. but think of one thing :
There are still people who love you! You are never alone!
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There's one thing of a song I think it matches this a bid :
Hold mee
Whatever lies beyond this morning
Is a little later on
Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all
Nothing's like before
(Simple and Clean from Utada Hikaru // Kingdom Hearts)
Vespi © Vespi :3
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Wonderful picture.. I think I was 13 when I tried to do this.. but I couldn't. And I'm happy cause now I see that I would have lost many good things ^^
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Yeah! You can be really happy.. like me 
It is much better, that I'm still alive, and that I don't lost all the things I loved so much
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ah man, I've been floating in and out of these kinda feelings lately. Love how you used Utada Hikaru's song, one of my favs ^_^ This is an awesome pic. I can relate XD love it.
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It is just a great song
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... seeing as how there is over 50 comments on this picture, I doubt I'll get any response, but I have to pull away from commenting on this picture for a second so that I can leave a comment to you...
Seeing that you have found courage to go on like that... I feel proud that there are some people in the world who have survived it, and have realised that there ARE people who care. I... personally, have almost done it... numerous times... cut, drowned, stepped in front of vehicles... whatever to try and end it. But no. I know what pain it would cause to everyone else.
So... thank God that you had survived, and the realisation came to you...
Now, that I have that aside... it's a beautiful peice. I hope that with this peice you can help others in their sorrow, and help them realise how much life is worth... 
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Really true words, and I'm glad that I got so many comments on the picture (and also notes) from people who are in this situation or feel like this.. or they also cut they selfs.. ! The pain is hard.. and no one understand if you want to kill yourself. Some one ask me : "Don't you think of your family? Or your friends.. what would they say?" .. good question. But I said "In this situation, you don't care, and you don't think of it!"
But.. if you tried to kill yourself, and wake up of this.. you be a better person and learn to live! :3 That's what happend to me *nod*
Thanks for the words 
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no problem. I'm glad that you were able to wake up from it, and get yourself out of the situation. You seem to be a wonderful person, so don't forget it!
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Nyyoo.. thanks :3 I was realy hard, but now I got my live back to normal
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Thsi is a very deep picture, sometimes i feel very depressed myself but i have never tried to commit suiside, it looks to messy forme lol! i find this very meaningful
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the world is so dark...people are so hurt...so lost...suicide is never the solution
you're right...there are still people who love you, you're never alone.
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That's so true -_- The worst thing was, we talked about it today
in school and I cried.. :/ This was not that good.. but anybody was so
nice to me
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I'm so sorry you cried
are you going to be ok?
you can always talk with me if ya like?
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You know that's the truth. You are never EVER alone.
I'm so sorry to hear all that, but glad you know that you won't solve anything and that it's not worth a darn to end your life. I know how you feel, and God bless your grandparents.
It's a sad picture, but it represents a meaning to one's feelings from deep within the heart. It's best to express than to act.
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^^ yeah! it is a long time ago, I got a new live.. new clothes.. new friends. This all makes me happy! I love to live and don't want to kill myself once again! We talked about it in my new school! They was all shocked, but they listen to my story
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I'd be shocked too, and very worried, it's a great thing you have awsome friends who listen to your story.
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the pic is so sad ;__; ( the blood is really well drawn >__< ) but it's pretty though
i'm glad you're better now.. i hope too you won't do smthing like that again >____<;; when we think that way we always forget SOMEONE who is still waiting for us, and who'll be sooo sad if we die....
anyway yeah.. i love the eyes ^__^
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That's so true :3 Most people forget that they are still people who would cry if you die.
I learned this lade, but I'm glad that I understand it now! I will never do such a thing again O_O;;;
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nice picture, a little scarry to but your are definatly free to illustrate your point and your opinion!
i love utada!
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I really understand the meaning behind this submission. You really hit it on the spot with this one, From my personal pass it reminds me of the things "I'VE" done... everything has come into elements here. **claps** very well done
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Thanks alot! It is just one of my old emotions and memories I passed away with this picture! I've started a new way of live, so I don't need my old bad things I had done :3
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..oh..hey...ves..is alles ok?...Mensch..ich meine das Bild ist der hammer...aber..es macht mich auch ein bissel traurig..weil man ja immer sehr viel von seiner Seele in so ein Bild reinsteckt...ich hoffe wirklich das alles ok mit dir ist...*sniff*...*dich mal umarmt*
=3...
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Nyo ist alles ok O_o wüßte nicht das ich irgendwas habe.. mir geht es also bestens :3 Nyo hör ja von dir nur noch Recht wenig :3
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*kicher* =3..naja..da bin ich aber echt beruigt <3 *ma knuff*...du..ich brauch nochmal deine Handynummer..ich honk hab die irgendwie mal wieder verlegt..und naja..das ich so wenig mich melde hängt echt mit dem Job als Pfleger zusammen,.,,. ich komm so gut wie zu garnichts mehr...is voll herbe..
aber danke danke =3
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Jetzt sag mir nicht DU machst Pfleger O_O Und wie kommst du klar? Ich komm mit meinem Job Super klar, nur das frühe aufstehen stört, weil ich ja so lange mit dem Bus fahre! Jo klar, aber die schick ich dir nicht hier.. kennst das ja.. gibt immer noch Leutz die gern mal mitlesen! Und meine Handynummer is ja Privat nech?
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GEEENAAAUU =3...ich mach Pfleger...is auch der Grund warum ich echt zu garnichts mehr komme...aber wirklich nur so lange bis ich anfange zu studieren..aber bis dahin is noch ne weile...naja ich komm ganz gut klar..geht schon..aber wie du schon sagst..das frühe aufstehn..das macht mich fertig..da hab ich lieber zwischendienst oder nachtschicht...XD..naja ^^... achja =3..meine Handynummer is privat..ich versuch dich mal diese Woche zu erreichen da hab ich endlich mal ein bisschen mehr Zeit..Ich hoffe ja das es dir soweit gut geht^^
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Tjaaa hab ich doch gesagt! Es geht mir was das angeht auch nicht besser 
Jo kannst du gerne machen. Aber meist bin ich erst um 6 da und geh dann schon wieder um 9 ins Bett
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OH MAN ^^..wir haben grade sämtliche Muskelsysteme durch =3...und alles so'n mist X3..is aber ganz cool so..naja..ich hab am liebsten zwischen und spätdienst..bei..frühdienst sterbe ich auch total XDD
jo =3 ich versuch die mal im Laufe dieses WE's anurufen ^^...byyyee =3
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Es ist richtig, du bist nicht alleine. Im ersten Moment war ich etwas traurig als ich das Bild gesehen habe. Es ist so grausam und so voller Gefühl. Dann aber habe ich mir überlegt, das jemand der das zeichnen kann über eine Menge Dinge hinweggekommen sein muß. Man kann sowas nicht mit so viel Liebe zeichnen wenn es einem immer noch sehr schlecht geht. Es zeigt viel mehr, wie sehr du deine Gefühle und dein Leben in den Griff bekommen hast und wie stark du geworden bist. Mit anderen Worten, das Bild ist voller Kraft.
Du kannst wirklich stolz auf dich sein
Ach und psssst, wenn es dir mal schlecht gehen sollte kannst du mir natürlich immert gerne schreiben, weil ich ganz sicher da sein werde um dir zu antworten
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nyo ich hoffe das hat jetzt nicht wer falsch verstanden
Nyo das weiß ich doch
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Ich glaube auch das man in dem Moment sowas wie Zufriedenheit spürt. Ich hatte mal ne Freundin die Borderliner war. Das sind die, dich sich selbst die Arme aufritzen oder sich kratzen bis es blutet um ihren seelischen Schmerz damit zu betäuben...
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Ja so ne Freundin hatte ich auch mal. Die hat sich die eine Seite aufgekratz und die andere aufgeschnitten.. das hab ich allerdings nicht so ganz verstanden! Ich mein das tat an sich schon weh, auch wenn man in dem Augenblick so nen Adrenalin Schub hat, das man gar nix mehr spürt.. das ist echt seltsam Oo
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nyo.. very deep message.. I can understand how ya must have felt.. and yea I did try killing my self when I was a lot younger so I can understand ^_^ . *adds to fav* I would also like to say... simple and clean is one of my fav songs!
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I can't stop listing to this song! It is so great ;_;
I know a lot of people who tried to kill themself.. I tried it 3 times :/ But I'm happy that everyone understand this message :3
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Be sure I do so
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come to think of it~ it represents me in a way. ><
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;__; I hope I never get that desperate...I understand that someone can get so in over their heads that they just can't see the end. But no one should get that far down, you know? The people around them should keep their spirits high.
A guy who plays the same instrument as I do in my school orchestra committed suicide last year. It was so surreal at first, knowing that he was never going to sit next to me again...I guess that's why I broke down like I did. (I didn't even know him very well...) But, then I realized there was probably nothing we could have done. If he had already made the decision to kill himself...blech, depressing people is my specialty. -_-
Meaningful picture~ ;__;
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I know alot about people who ever tried to kill themself. I've talked to kids, who don't know what they should do. I had this situation several times, and one of my best friends committed suicide when I was only 9 years old.. she was 10.. I don't know how a ten year old could do this. She jumped from a bridge.. I was so affraid and sad of this -_-
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dont give your life up so easily. There are way to many poeple who love you. Its never good to do something like that to your self or them by that matter,
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That's so true :3 I'm more than happy that so many people understand the meaning of this!
I know.. it is now 6 years ago.. but this was a hard day :/
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I can understand becouse one of my aunts died about 2 months ago... It was hard to see her like she was..But Im glad I can help ^__^
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There are still people who love you! You are never alone! 
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