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You stared at yourself in the mirror, tugging at the skin on your body as a deep frown settled itself on your features.You never were what anyone would define as skinny, or thin. No, you had been carrying this extra weight on your body for pretty much your entire life. You didn’t have an hourglass figure, you didn’t have a petite, slim body, you were just you. And you hated it.
How many times had you tried to go on diets? Too many for you to remember. You’d do your damnedest to shed those few extra kilos, either through eating healthy or working out regularly, but each time you’d end up eating something you weren’t supposed to, forgetting that you didn’t go jogging, giving up on the whole thing and falling back to stage one. It was infuriating, but you just couldn’t seem to give yourself that bit of extra motivation that you needed.
Even at the state of self-loathing that you were at, Levi had still taken an interest in you. One that was big enough for him to ask you out. When he first asked you, in his own roundabout way, you had no idea how to even react to his words. The only attention you’d ever get from men – or anyone for that matter – was dirty side-eyes as you walked past them. You’d hear them mumble under their breath about how you were lazy, how you didn’t care for your health.
You repressed the urge to flatten them.
What did Levi ever see in someone like you? He was Humanity’s Strongest Soldier, his attitude might be described as standoffish, but everything else about him was immaculate. You’d seen his body; to say he was fit would be an understatement. So what did he see in you? What did you offer him that he couldn’t find anywhere else? You weren’t even in the military!
And so, you’d gaze confusedly at yourself day after day, trying to find what it was that had attracted him to you in the first place.
Levi caught on to your almost obsessive antics and would find himself wondering if you were doing it again. He trusted his instincts this time, and left his office to go and find you.
Lo and behold, here you were, sulking at your reflection again. He breathed a quiet and tired sigh before making his way behind you.
You flinched as you saw his image behind your own, and flinched once more when his arms wrapped around you in an almost uncharacteristic form of affection.
“Feeling down again, are we?” he asked, his voice only just loud enough for you to hear.
“I don’t know what you see in me,” you replied.
“Where is this coming from?”
“Levi, look at me. I’m not attractive, or confident, or capable, but you’re Humanity’s Strongest Soldier! I feel like sometimes you’re just dating me out of pity...”
Levi immediately spun you around and brought you into a kiss. He pulled away and mumbled his next words against your lips. “Don’t you ever shut up about your weight? I’ve told you this before, it doesn’t matter how heavy or light you are. I don’t care.”
You paused for a moment, contemplating your words before speaking up again. “But I want to be beautiful.”
“You already are.”
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Comments: 113
Aqua-Siren [2016-12-10 05:05:46 +0000 UTC]
lol gurl the 'devour them' i seriously love this! you're a great writer!
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Sassy-but-Classy [2016-03-24 06:14:02 +0000 UTC]
I kinda teared up a bit at how freaking cute this is <3 Gah I really wouldn't mind being chubby if I at least had a butt =3= cause I read all these cute chubby reader inserts and im like 'Yeah bet she's at least chubby everwhere' any who enough about my self loathing xD this was supper amazing <3
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what-the-honk In reply to Sassy-but-Classy [2016-06-15 13:31:54 +0000 UTC]
if u want a butt there are exercises u can do to lift it !! things like squats, burpees, also leg raising exercise things ???? there are videos on youtube (but theyre normally super sexualised w skinny women ://) i tried 2 do some a few times but i always end up forgetting it like 3 days later lmao
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Sassy-but-Classy In reply to what-the-honk [2016-06-15 15:45:50 +0000 UTC]
You see that's my problem xD haha I have my mother's memory and sadly it's terrible I forget stuff super easily qvq like it's frustrating at times xD I try to remember to do stuff and I forget xD Oops haha qvq sobs but I'll try qvq thanks for the advice ;W;
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JeaniIsANeko [2015-10-30 01:26:39 +0000 UTC]
I honestly wish there were people like this in real life ....
Around my school and my area in general , everybody's paper thin and I just feel like a stone wall from out of nowhere .
Some guyss even started going through the yearbook and saying things like ' I'd tap that ' or ' Daaaaaaaaaaaaaamn ' , but when it gets to me all I've ever really heard is ' ew she's fucking gross looking .'
personally I agree with them but it just hurts so sooo bad to hear it from someone else's lips
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what-the-honk In reply to JeaniIsANeko [2016-06-15 13:38:13 +0000 UTC]
my goil .... im sorry for the late reply but i understand ur self-hate .....
i want 2 tell u that ur beautiful ok ??? like for real what the fuck do straight bois ever have to offer ??? snapbacks and sexist comments ??? maybe 6 seconds of missionary disappointment ??? they aint shit and you'll meet better people someday. until then i want u to tell urself "i'm beautiful" every time u think ur ugly, even if u dont believe ur beautiful i want u to keep saying "im beautiful" until u see that as the truth ok?? bc u are beautiful, ugly isnt a thing, its all a matter of opinion and w 7 billion people in the world there are DEFINITELY going to be a LOT of people who'll think you're beautiful (and theyd be right!!)
please do ur best to love urself, my goil ...
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no-kuni-no-alice In reply to JeaniIsANeko [2016-05-08 16:44:58 +0000 UTC]
Don't say that! You are pretty just the way you are! And if guys don't see that then they can go suck a duck!
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fioleeXever1 In reply to JeaniIsANeko [2016-02-09 02:42:19 +0000 UTC]
Hun I understand what you are going through, i'm actually also a stone wall myself ( yay! ) ahem anyways, I also felt like that since all girls at my grade are either pretty or blonde, so i'm here sitting with my asian eyes in the middle of the classroom ( yay! ) but you shouldn't really get down by their words, it's not like they have the right to judje you, and you know what chubby girls have class and sass =3=
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xSutekinaTsuitachix [2015-10-29 01:58:09 +0000 UTC]
Personally, I'm kinda chubby (I got love handles cuz u can't handle my luv XD) and I'm black. So there. But every time I read a fanfic its all like : your porcelain skin, your bright blush and I'm kinda disappointed...so y'know...just think about that when you write
(good job to what the honk for this btw)
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what-the-honk In reply to xSutekinaTsuitachix [2016-06-15 13:27:05 +0000 UTC]
most definitely !! i always thought porcelain just meant the texture but someone called me out on it and i dont think i've written "porcelain" skin since then .
honestly i'd love to write some fanfictions where the reader is specifically dark-skinned or has like big poofy afro hair (bc i see black girls bein shamed for having big curly hair and i just want to tell them no !! u hair beautiful !! dont listen to white ppl we suck !! ;,,,,( ) but im always worried i'd end up offending someone w it
but u beautiful my goil ! dont ever doubt that !!! (also sorry 4 the Super Slow Reply i havent checked the comments on this in a while)
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xSutekinaTsuitachix In reply to what-the-honk [2016-06-26 14:25:28 +0000 UTC]
I'm probably even later. And most of the things white people think would offend me never does XD it's sweet that you're considerate of it though :3
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BRR77872 In reply to xSutekinaTsuitachix [2015-11-24 00:31:05 +0000 UTC]
Ugh same. I get upset sometimes cause the expectation is to be white, but I'm Puerto Rican and Black, so whenever I write I like to stray away from the idea of a classic "white girl"
Like no, you can't see my blush, it's mostly just my face getting hot, you can't see it, my skin isn't like a barbie dolls, it's not creamy milky white.
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what-the-honk In reply to BRR77872 [2016-06-15 13:29:38 +0000 UTC]
aaaah i think i've made the mistake of describing blushing girls as having red faces . even tho im white as hell i dont think ive ever blushed before so like i honestly thought blushing was just a thing in cartoons so that was how i pictured it lmao
i'll keep dark skin in mind next time i mention a blush tho, most definitely B^)
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Multi-Fandomcube In reply to BRR77872 [2015-12-27 03:47:20 +0000 UTC]
I know right!? I know just how you ladies feel! As you can see from my profile pic(that's me)I always feel the same way.Don't get me wrong ,the fan fiction can be amazing but , just as you 2 said about the whole porcelain skin stuff...i get it.
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what-the-honk In reply to Multi-Fandomcube [2016-06-15 13:33:56 +0000 UTC]
i hope i havent made any fics that made u feel that way ! i've ignorantly written some things like "porcelain skin" and "your face flushed 10 different shades of red" or wtfever but i'm definitely steering away from those terms
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Multi-Fandomcube In reply to what-the-honk [2016-06-19 04:03:06 +0000 UTC]
No matter! Your stories are still great! I also like that you are doing that. I would write a fic with the reader having dark skin but , i suck at writing stores. I'm an artist, i draw so i am not much of writer but i get these awesome ideas for story but...i just can't write them and it's frustrating. I have like 3 of them one i am trying to do but...i struggle ;-; it's pretty complex XD
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MurfPie156 [2015-09-09 22:33:40 +0000 UTC]
If I've realized one thing, it's this:
Most x readers are so white based, with the skinny legs, porcelain skin, long hair and whatever. Not everyone is like that. Not everyone is white, with perfect skin, long hair and a skinny body. You might think I'm being racist, but let's being honest-that's how alot of them are written. Alot of girls wished they had the body that is described in the story but they don't, which makes some of them fell kinda bad. That's what many of them told me.
When I joined deviantart, I wanted to make stories where you could be chubby and be the hottest girl. I wanted to make a story where you might not have the perfect skin, but people loved you for who you are, not what you look like. I started making those stories...
...and I'm glad someone is as well.
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what-the-honk In reply to MurfPie156 [2016-06-15 13:23:53 +0000 UTC]
this comment is rly old im sorry i havent responded (i suck at reading thru all my comments :'^(((( ) but i want to say i agree !! honestly i always thought porcelain skin just meant the texture not the shade so when i first got called out for wriitng porcelain skin i was like ???? waddi do :,,(
but yes all my readers are left as ambiguous as possible, while still having varying personalities and traits and so forth, bc i know that theres lots of different goils out there who are dark skinned, or have monolids, or are chubby, or super tall, or have acne, or whatever else that isn't seen as "'"attractive""" and ppl read and view art to escape from reality. in reality, people who are ""unattractive"" are shamed mercilessly for it, and in fiction, people r STILL shamed for it (either theyre not represented at ALL or they are as villains or people you're supposed to hate), so the women who are POC or the women who are chubby or the women who have short/thin/"ugly" hair and so on have no REAL escape from it at all.
i dont want any woman or young girl to read my fanfictions and think "great, this is yet another thing thats gonna call me ugly", i want them to read my fanfictions and feel included and i want them to know that i think theyre beautiful regardless and whatever story i write will always include them & validate them . because of this i always like to write readers who are more dominant, or who are loud, or who make mistakes, or whatever, bc women aren't all just white-skinned, thin, petite, long-haired beauties who are quiet and obedient and never step out of line like women are so so SO much more than that and i want that to be explored more in literature
i'm not a published author just yet, but whether i'm writing a professional novel or just some fanfiction online, i always always want to represent the women and minority groups who are never represented well
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MurfPie156 In reply to what-the-honk [2016-06-17 13:53:10 +0000 UTC]
Oh my gosh you are like my role model right now. You took the words right out of my mouth! This response was perfect.
I just read a story that described the reader with a slim waist and dark long straight hair, big breasts etc. I was so annoyed.
I see it so often and it pisses me off.
If I had a dime for every story that has some white girl reference in it, I'd be rich.
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Fnafl1987 In reply to MurfPie156 [2015-10-16 03:33:33 +0000 UTC]
Holy shit, the feels train just hit me out of nowhere when I was reading this and soooooooo truuuuuuuuuuuuuee
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MurfPie156 In reply to Fnafl1987 [2015-10-16 16:39:23 +0000 UTC]
The outrageous thing is that most people aren't aware of it, or they don't think anything of it. But here's a fact that might be surprising:
whispers*Not everyone who reads fanfics is white
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fioleeXever1 In reply to MurfPie156 [2016-02-09 02:32:15 +0000 UTC]
Shit well the term ' white ' doesn't exist if you show me a person as white as a sheet of paper you'll probably see me fleeing towards another country cause damn, the term ' black ' doesn't exist, if you find someone this color -> 🎱 I'll also probably flee again so you can't really say both terms are a thing, besides if I was a man I would rather have a chubby girl than a above average thin woman. Perfect girls don't exist motherf**kers get that in your head, if you are willing to love someone love yourself first ( I apologize if you got offended )
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MurfPie156 In reply to fioleeXever1 [2016-02-09 17:20:33 +0000 UTC]
Okay, I'm not offended, but you're confused. Of course nobody is a white a sheet of paper, and of course nobody is black like the color, but those are just just the terms that society uses. And for the "perfect girls don't exist" part: THAT'S WHAT I'VE BEEN SAYING ALL ALONG HONEY. My point is that in many x readers, they reader is described as being perfect and white, and it's not fair to all the other races that are excluded. Not only this, but not everyone is skinny with long hair and a curvaceous body. Hell, their in the fucking military for God's sake!!! How can they be??? It's just not realistic.
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fioleeXever1 In reply to MurfPie156 [2016-02-10 22:02:06 +0000 UTC]
Yes I agree perfection isn't really a thing, like not everyone has a curvy body, and not everyone is skinny, and of course only because a girl has short hair it doesn't make her look different or ugly
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RosieRoji [2015-07-31 18:33:02 +0000 UTC]
Why the hell did I hear the music of Season 1's of AoT theme music when I read the A/N's?
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codelyokofan59 [2015-04-13 14:11:59 +0000 UTC]
Well shit, this really got to me, especially since I'm not exactly a skinny person. Now if someone other than my parents would tell me that I'm beautiful, even though I'm big.
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MissSombraPoco [2015-03-25 15:40:50 +0000 UTC]
I like this but I LOVE your A/N. Made me laugh.
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Think-Anime [2015-03-08 04:01:13 +0000 UTC]
If only there were people like this in real life
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what-the-honk In reply to Think-Anime [2015-04-07 09:51:19 +0000 UTC]
theres only two types of people in the world, i say: people like this, and literal piles of trash.
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AngeGummyWormLover [2015-02-16 19:37:23 +0000 UTC]
This is amazing is so me
I wish I could have someone like Levi
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WolfGrowl96 [2015-01-25 14:34:53 +0000 UTC]
First time i legitly heard "i dont care" from a guy xD honestly the last part reminded me of shrek. I loved this will there be another one? *.*
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mrsfoxy123 [2015-01-18 18:49:49 +0000 UTC]
*sees a bitch laughing at me * IM HUNGRY FOR A BITCH SANDWICH * eats her*
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ShelChan89 [2015-01-14 03:15:35 +0000 UTC]
How the reader says that levi is only dating her out of pity is sort of like me. I've never dated before because i'm not really what you call skinny, so i normally dont want to be pity dated. So i lock myself away.
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that1Nyantarofan [2015-01-13 02:43:53 +0000 UTC]
This is deep to me :3
The fact it's practically telling you to accept your outer beauty even if you think you're not. Everyone's beautiful inside and out.
The fact that this is Levi saying it is even better. Levi, the most awkward person when it comes to love or any type of attachment whether it be friends, family, love, or just partners in a job. He tells you, "You already are."
True dat Levi.
True dat.
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ricaanne13 [2015-01-12 07:15:52 +0000 UTC]
Oh my god this makes me want to cry from how happy I am~ I'm sort of pudgey and I'm like six foot tall and ugh this just made my morning amazing~ thank you for writing this
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Hilianthessia [2015-01-03 22:49:31 +0000 UTC]
I'll be honest here, this is actually really reassuring and comforting. Thanks for being fabulous!
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