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Design commission for HachisChatRoom !

Hachi my love you gave me an interesting challenge! I sort of...forgot how to draw cats so I'm sorry it's a little wonky! Nevertheless, my heart is in them for you. <3 Thank you for the prompt, and I hope that you enjoy the little tidbits below. Please let me know which one you would like to keep, and if you will be purchasing any of the others!

the weight of us

[ charcoal spotted mackerel tabby - oriental mix - amber and green sectoral heterochromia - amputee ]

i am dragged down by the weight of my mistakes. sometimes they sit on my chest and mock me in the morning light. when i try to be stronger than them, they kick me down until i am left with no other option than to stare into amber pools and see reflected there that which the world wants me to be. my physical body disgusts me. i never feel at home. i reach for phantom limbs that are no longer there and choke on forbidden air that enters my lungs far too often. some days i wish i had the strength to just peel myself out of this flesh prison and rise from my own phantoms and mistakes. leave behind carcasses and weight and stand free.

i am too weak to stand free.

i don't deserve to stand free.

un poco loco

[ classic red tabby - american curl longhair mix - lime green eyes ]

i've lost sight of where my reality is. i laugh and sing and tell stories i think people want to hear. i am sad but people choose not to pay that any mind. they only like me when i'm smiling. drunk on their praise and on a sense of belonging, i whirl myself around to please them. i do it well. that's not to say i am not happy. i am joyful, creative, exuberant, brilliant, beautiful. i just am also sad. i wish more people looked past all my fragmented happiness to find out what's really wrong with me. it drives me crazy.

saint bernard

[ solid chocolate tortie - domestic american shorthair mix - yellow eyes ]

i am deaf. i was raised to believe that if i prayed hard enough to the deities they would take the burden from me. would cure me...they...didn't hear me i suppose. i'm broken but i'm not sure how to fix myself. i want to love but i don't know how to accept love in return. i am strong and brave and put my shoulders back and my chin up...but sometimes the world still makes it past my defenses. i am lucky to have a supportive, adoptive family around me, who understands my language, and the days where i can merely stare blankly ahead in a world that never let me feel welcome. it doesn't mean it is not hard. to keep going.

Sorry so many ended up...wacky I just...??? Its a trip fam and a good set of songs !!! I hope...it is somewhat satisfactory!

art/designs [c] ash

Description

Design commission for HachisChatRoom !

Hachi my love you gave me an interesting challenge! I sort of...forgot how to draw cats so I'm sorry it's a little wonky! Nevertheless, my heart is in them for you. <3 Thank you for the prompt, and I hope that you enjoy the little tidbits below. Please let me know which one you would like to keep, and if you will be purchasing any of the others!

the weight of us

[ charcoal spotted mackerel tabby - oriental mix - amber and green sectoral heterochromia - amputee ]

i am dragged down by the weight of my mistakes. sometimes they sit on my chest and mock me in the morning light. when i try to be stronger than them, they kick me down until i am left with no other option than to stare into amber pools and see reflected there that which the world wants me to be. my physical body disgusts me. i never feel at home. i reach for phantom limbs that are no longer there and choke on forbidden air that enters my lungs far too often. some days i wish i had the strength to just peel myself out of this flesh prison and rise from my own phantoms and mistakes. leave behind carcasses and weight and stand free.

i am too weak to stand free.

i don't deserve to stand free.

un poco loco

[ classic red tabby - american curl longhair mix - lime green eyes ]

i've lost sight of where my reality is. i laugh and sing and tell stories i think people want to hear. i am sad but people choose not to pay that any mind. they only like me when i'm smiling. drunk on their praise and on a sense of belonging, i whirl myself around to please them. i do it well. that's not to say i am not happy. i am joyful, creative, exuberant, brilliant, beautiful. i just am also sad. i wish more people looked past all my fragmented happiness to find out what's really wrong with me. it drives me crazy.

saint bernard

[ solid chocolate tortie - domestic american shorthair mix - yellow eyes ]

i am deaf. i was raised to believe that if i prayed hard enough to the deities they would take the burden from me. would cure me...they...didn't hear me i suppose. i'm broken but i'm not sure how to fix myself. i want to love but i don't know how to accept love in return. i am strong and brave and put my shoulders back and my chin up...but sometimes the world still makes it past my defenses. i am lucky to have a supportive, adoptive family around me, who understands my language, and the days where i can merely stare blankly ahead in a world that never let me feel welcome. it doesn't mean it is not hard. to keep going.

Sorry so many ended up...wacky I just...??? Its a trip fam and a good set of songs !!! I hope...it is somewhat satisfactory!

art/designs [c] ash