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So yea this is a vent, ive been working on it for a while (this shits huge) and I wanted to finish this before i turned 19 (because then there wouldn't be 4 years in between each thing)
Anyways the reason why I made this is because I just wanted to think back about eight years ago and whats happened in that time to change me from a happy kid to a depressed idiot, eight years is actually not a long time considering its not even half of my life time

This is gonna be long so you don't have to read it

When I was 10 I was one of the happiest kids out there, I played with my brother, mother and father. Yeah, I was bullied but it wasn't bad and I had a lot of friends who cheered me up. My relationship with my family was so amazing I saw my parents as gods on pedestals. When I was 14 that's when shit really happened. Most of my animals died the year previously and all we had was PT and Crystal, we got Storm that year because we needed something to cheer us up. The happiness didn't last long, after Christmas my mom and dad told me they were splitting up. I broke down into tears because I thought we were a happy family, and in that moment our happy family turned to shreds of what it once was. My parents said they'd still be friends for us to help us with the new system but it didn't help what so ever. For the first time in my life I saw my parents as humans, and what I saw I did not like, especially my dad. Around this time I went depressed and started to self harm, no one in my family knew about that, and I plan to keep it that way. Now that I'm 18 things have gotten worse, I've distanced myself from my family and I indent to keep it that way, I hate my parents, I hate the way they act, I hate their personalities and what not, and with my brother the only friendly contact we have together is watching anime, other times he makes jokes that hurt my self esteem or that i think are true while he jokes. I'm depressed and having suicidal thoughts, I don't know how long this will go on, but we'll see. Anyways I usually don't like to talk about this stuff because there are people out there who have it worse than I do, so I don't complain

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So yea this is a vent, ive been working on it for a while (this shits huge) and I wanted to finish this before i turned 19 (because then there wouldn't be 4 years in between each thing)
Anyways the reason why I made this is because I just wanted to think back about eight years ago and whats happened in that time to change me from a happy kid to a depressed idiot, eight years is actually not a long time considering its not even half of my life time

This is gonna be long so you don't have to read it

When I was 10 I was one of the happiest kids out there, I played with my brother, mother and father. Yeah, I was bullied but it wasn't bad and I had a lot of friends who cheered me up. My relationship with my family was so amazing I saw my parents as gods on pedestals. When I was 14 that's when shit really happened. Most of my animals died the year previously and all we had was PT and Crystal, we got Storm that year because we needed something to cheer us up. The happiness didn't last long, after Christmas my mom and dad told me they were splitting up. I broke down into tears because I thought we were a happy family, and in that moment our happy family turned to shreds of what it once was. My parents said they'd still be friends for us to help us with the new system but it didn't help what so ever. For the first time in my life I saw my parents as humans, and what I saw I did not like, especially my dad. Around this time I went depressed and started to self harm, no one in my family knew about that, and I plan to keep it that way. Now that I'm 18 things have gotten worse, I've distanced myself from my family and I indent to keep it that way, I hate my parents, I hate the way they act, I hate their personalities and what not, and with my brother the only friendly contact we have together is watching anime, other times he makes jokes that hurt my self esteem or that i think are true while he jokes. I'm depressed and having suicidal thoughts, I don't know how long this will go on, but we'll see. Anyways I usually don't like to talk about this stuff because there are people out there who have it worse than I do, so I don't complain