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Published: 2007-11-12 15:37:54 +0000 UTC; Views: 180; Favourites: 3; Downloads: 5
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number 2 and 3 wasn't so good like 1, but 4 is amazing
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ye i saved the best ones for last!
xxthanks for the fav!xx
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thanks!!!!
enyway hows things with you been for the last 2-3 weeks?
xx
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hehe... good, more than good, but today is lil ichy- mother and sis made my room goes up and down, and I hate when my stuff change their place
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ye
i dont let my perants in my room
more then good?-im glad to hear it!
wats been happening?
xxx
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hmm... everything 
hmm... why do I make so many music methaphores?!
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heehee!
well if you want to know how i am....
i had a really really bad day today
scince i got back from america Rikki had been avoiding me,
so i asked him why today and he said it was because he was really pissed off with me because i had got upset when i found out he had snogged some other girl the day before i went on holiday, and he didnt want to talk to me when i called him the night before i left.
i sent him a few texts before getting on the plane saying that he didnt need to apologise for kissing other girls because it was none of my busness and that i was abit annoyed because i didnt talk to him the night before.
anyway today he said he was pissed of with me because i had sent him bitchy text that made him feel bad when he had no reosan to feel bad.
he also told me that he had never liked me as more then a friend, and that he had thaught he had at one point, but he only sees me as a friend,
(even though hes sepent the last 5 months or so saying he does or he might do etc.)
yesterday when i got back to school i found out that he had also snogged 2 of my close friends over half term, which upset me abit but i didnt want to make a fuss, because its not really anoything to do with me, then i reolised he was avoiding me and that upset me even more because i didnt know what i had done
so i was quite depressed in school yestarday, and today he told me he thaught i was abit pathetic yestarday because i had nothing to be upset about.
so ye......and if that wasnt bad enough none of my friends really care
they dont think i have any reosan to be depressed either
i dont think they reolise how much i loved him
:'(
cheer me up?
xxxxx
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and now? here... I can only read and send You Tulims with 
cheeeeeeeeeeers
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i suppose i do feel abit better today
i feel happy atleast.
but i think thats because im not thinking aboput it, and just trying to get on with life, and telling myself that i dont care.
when i say him spending the whole dinner hour with my friend Lowri, i told myself it didnt matter, i didnt care, and that he was probably about to do the exactly the same to her as he has done to me.
atleast naw i know how he really feels, whereas before one minute he would say he only liked me as a friend, the next he would tell me he was in love with me and then he would say he did like me but he wasnt ready for a girlfriend, and that he would ask me out as soon as he was ready.
atleast naw i know for deffinate, and i no longer need to wait for him.
'always look on the bright side of life'
thats what im trying to do!
xxx
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Good idea!
Well- it's quite mature point of view. I mean- I'm a kiddo, and I still have problem with choosing the right decisions in moments like this- and it seems that You choose them right
I'm proud of You
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thanks
im not mature, really
it still hurts inself, but i like to pretend it dosnt
you have more fun when your smiling and only think about the good things in life!
xxx
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yeah- that's truth. More- positive intentions and positive thinking makes You moe healthy (production of tears, state of grieve/anger makes toxins in human body... that leads to cancer etc.
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ye, so im hidding it all, and covering my feelings with a smile
im stil friends with Rikki
but no were near as good friends as we used to be
oh well. he was abit of a pat enyway!
xxx
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ehh... it will be ok- however pathetic it sounds- time heal wounds :/
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T_T
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ive actually probably been happier this week then i have in a long time
i no longer care if he goes off and flirts with other girls and stuff
its not really eny of my buissness
im just trying to enjoy life!
go positive-ness!
xx
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