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8bit--mau5 β Am I really that worthless?
Published: 2013-06-10 18:40:19 +0000 UTC; Views: 2044; Favourites: 37; Downloads: 3
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This is what I have to go through every fucking day with my mom.I'm sorry you guys had to see this,it's just that I've been really depressed lately and Mom always calling me those words is just making it worse.And then my little sister always says I have "serious issues".Yeah,I know I have ADHD.I know that I'm bipolar.I know I have little to no self confidence.And I already fucking know that I'm depressed....I just hate myself right now,and now I can't stop crying,hiding under my art desk,curled up in a ball.I fucking hate crying.Wanna know why?Because I've bottled up my feelings for so long and once I start crying,I can't stop.When I cry,I get flashbacks of all the bad things that have happened to me come back.Then I remember all the sad things that happened to me,so then I start crying for other things too.Like,my dog died on the last day of school a few days ago.I loved him so much and now he's gone.I wish my little brother were here to comfort me like how he always does,but he's at his friend's house and I don't just wanna walk all the way there just to get a fucking hug....Yeah,I'm pathetic.Related content
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I'm gladβ₯ I hope you feel tons better soon !!
Yay we're the same size!! I've never met anyone as short as me, since I'm in a highschool I'm the shortest one! ;; The hallways are full of people over 5'03'' and it's terrifying e_e;;
Yeah being picked up and carried is always the best!!
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Haha,thanks 
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High school is super great at times, I'll be going into 10th grade. >_<''
I'm also the youngest in my school,too. So I'm always being picked on because of that too xDD
And then my one friend who protected me in the hallways will be going to a new school next year ;__; and he was around 6'04"
But every guy in my school is on average over 6'00"
it's ridiculous!!
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Woah,really,6'4" Holy crapola that's huge 
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Yeah he was really tall!!
And ah nothin' wrong with that~ c: I'm the youngest, but I'm the most mature an act older than everyone else xD
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Lol We're short buddies XD
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You're not pathetic. You're mom is a terrible parent, you shouldn't listen to her.
You have your friends here for you. You should just fight back at your problems, stand up to your mother. Don't let your little sister put you down as well, tell her just because you have problems doesn't make you any different, or in other words, slap her. I am also sorry about your dog, I know how you feel. I lost my two cats and I had them since they were kittens but died of old age. I miss them...If you want to talk about your problems, just ask me...
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Well,she's usually a great,loving mother.It's just that she's also bipolar,depressed,and has ADD.She's been through a lot of stress lately,and I've already forgiven her.I just can't bring myself to stay mad at somebody for more than an hour.But sometimes I just can't take it,ya know?I'm just so glad that I have such great friends here on dA.Now I can't stop crying tears of joy,so I thank every single one of you for caring about me.I wish I could hug all of you in real life though ;-;
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I might now be able to really relate to the kind of emotional abuse that your mom and sister put you through, but I can relate to the bottling up of the emotions. I know you hate the crying but the crying helps let it all out. This use to happen with me (still does actually) and I just kind of wait for myself to stop crying or I fall asleep. I think the best thing to do is to find someone you can vent everything to because that usually relieves the pressure of all of this. I'd be willing to volunteer as I find myself to be a pretty good listener even if I usually don't know what to say. If I could reach through the computer to hug you I would.
You're not worthless and just because you're bipolar and have ADHD, that doesn't constitute your sister saying you have "serious issues".
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Yeah,I know.I remember that I would usually cry myself to sleep,but now I just draw when I'm sad((usually gore lol))Well,that and I wanna finish page 10 of FAOCT q: And thanks for your concern.And I will definitely talk to you next time I feel this way.You're a great friend and I also wish that I can just walk up to you guys and hug y'all.
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One of these days we will actually be able to meet each other and I'll give you my friend-famous death hug ouo (i've made a promise to find and meet all of my internet friends)
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Really?! Man,good luck if you plan on coming down to Houston,Texas.It's so hot/humid here ;-; it gets into the triple digits most of the time.And the humidity makes it much worse lol And I'll give you my famous death hug lol No seriously,I crack my friends' back every time :I
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We could probably meet up some time soon. If you or I could convince someone to drive either you or me to the others house, and you could probably come to the pool party thing I'm doing next weekend
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OMG YES!!!Though I'm pretty sure that you'd have to pick me up because our car doesn't work lol Hey,we should exchange phone numbers so that we can talk n' stuffs X3
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YES I'll send mine via note
now that i think about it it'd be kind strange having some person your mom has never met before come to the house and say "Hi I'm going to kidnap your daughter bye" still funny though
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"Hi I'm going to kidnap your daughter bye" lol I lost my shit XD
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this is how I roll!
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Bro I live in Fort Worth, Texas, I don't think it will be so hard getting there.
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Woah,really,I did NOT know that lol come visit me XD
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YOU'D BE THE FIRST INTERNET FRIEND I'D EVER MEET OH MY GOD
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ON MY JESUS YOU WOULD BE THE FIRST INTERNET FRUEND I WOULD MEET TOO!!!XD
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*BUG HUG* Nobody deserves that sort of treatment...
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*hugs* I'm sorry this is happening to you. I wish there was something I could do to help you.
You're not pathetic. They're wrong. Oh, so wrong. You are strong. I believe in you. I know exactly how you feel, and I'm proud of you for holding on. There are people who do care about you. If you ever need to talk, note me. You shouldn't have to silently suffer.
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*hugs forever* thanks so much for caring about me.You have no idea how much that meant to me.I just wish that Mom would stop.She's obviously a huge 8itch.And thanks again,I will definitely note you next time something like this happens.
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You're welcome, dear. I'm always here if you need me.
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:/ I wish there was something us internet people could do. Its things like this that really get to me...
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Pffft.Same here man,I need a hug.Like,really bad *hugs all of my stuffed animals* :I
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Id hug you, but im from the internet. lol
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I think you just made a new friend :3
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I think I did too ;u;
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Omg I have,like,4 friends named David now XD I'm Alyssa
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Nice to meet you
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It's good to let go of bottled up feelings. Keepin them all caged up isn't good for health. Hopefully you'll start feelin better ^^' *Gives you a hug*
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