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Published: 2018-08-18 00:01:04 +0000 UTC; Views: 666; Favourites: 12; Downloads: 1
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Hey guys. Back with another piece of emotional artwork. Only this time, its more in a positive light. And this one has a message behind it.The man wants to reach his goals and has a longing to be happy but he's held back by his own insecurities. The depression he faces try to drag him into the ocean of despair where he'll be forever lost in a void of muted color and sadness.
Like the man in the picture, I want to be happy. I want to be better as an artist; a person; a girlfriend. I want to be better to myself.
For too long I've been beating myself over things I can't control and am haunted by a past that I should leave in a journal tucked away in the long lost labyrinth of my memory's library.
I am a good person. A friend. A lover. I work hard not only in art but at my job. But most of all, I'm alive. And I refuse to ever feel suicidal ever again. I will fight my depression tooth and nail. And one day... I'll be able to soar into the rainbow of happiness in the future.
Thank you all for supporting me even when I was stubborn at times. *hugs you all* I love you all.
This was drawn traditionally and digitally on GIMP
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Comments: 18
It looks stunningβ¦ And the message behind it is even more amazing.Β
Keep reaching for your rainbow of happiness dear. You deserve all the light you can get from it.
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Thanks ;w;
I'll do my best. I have to. I don't wanna be upset anymore.
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I really hope everything you said in the description is true dear. Keep this in mind when things get hard again, okay? Because they inevitably will. And then they will get better again.
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I wanna believe that I'm strong enough to hold on... atleast I hope I am..
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I know you are. And in case you feel like you might break, there are people around that care about you and can give you some reassurance and hope mad love.
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*hugs tight* Thanks. I hope I never get as bad as I did but if I do, I'll try to listen better and talk about it.
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It wasn't your fault. When some people are depressed, they have a very hard time believing even a little any positive message. It's normal.
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Yeah...I just need to learn a good way to cope with my past. I can't change it and I does haunt me but there's gotta be a way I can just forget about it. I'm for the most part free now. I'm not being held captive by my Ex anymore. I'll never see those bullies in school ever again. I've held a job for 4 and 1/2 years. I graduated highschool with good grades bar PE.Β
I just need to learn how to live. I'm not used to freedom.
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How does it feel, to realize you are so much freer than you used to be?Β
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I feels really good. Like I don't have a huge weight on my shoulders. I'm not walking on eggshells all the time. I don't have a constant fear about when I'm gonna be hit next or be forced into doing things I don't want to do.
I can breathe again and hang out with friends whenever I want with no one to tell me otherwise.
It's just... nice.
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I'm so happy for you, Hun... I really am. QwQ
Hang on to your friends, okay? And if anyone ever tries to treat you like you are worthless, give them a good punch.
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I will. I'm sorry I was so stubborn .
And while tempting now, I'm just not the violent type. I only retaliated against my Ex once by slapping him open handed in the shoulder after he slapped me in the face five times for not buying him Pop tarts cause I forgot. I'm not even making that up...
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Your ex was a pathetic little man. And it's a good thing you aren't violent. Don't be sorry though, okay? You did nothing wrong.Β
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Yeah he was... I can't believe I was with him for so long. Yeah I'm just not the violent type. I'm more of a hazard to myself than other people.
I know that now. IΒ just feel like I was being difficult.
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* hugs* You are safe now.
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*hugs tight* Thanks.Β
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